A/N: Hi! So here is a short, 2 part Karmy collage AU. I'm planing on making the second part longer then this one. This is from Amy's POV. I hope you all enjoy this!

Just a heads up- Near the end of this there is a mention of anxiety/panic attacks, but there is no extreme detail, i just mention it. So just be aware of that if you get triggered by that.

Other than that I hope you all like this!


High school really sucked. I had no one who was really my friend. I was so unknown and so, not the kind of person who people like. Maybe that was because I don't really like people, but who knows, it could be anything really. The only person I really spoke to was my step sister Lauren, and even we aren't that friendly with each other. High school sucked and I am so happy that i'm finally starting College. I will be away from home and all those people I went to school with- well, most of those people.


Finally the day arrived. The day I move into my dorm. This had to be one of the most exciting things. I am finally on my own and away from my family. What a relief. All I'm hoping now is that my roommate is actually a nice sane person who I can stand to live with. Hopefully we could even become friends. Well, friends is something that's not really on my mind.

"Wow. This is so... Not exciting in anyway." I said as I turned to Lauren.

"So basically it's everything you expected."

"Oh, don't you know me so well."

We walked down the hall looking at the numbers on the doors. "God I seriously hope we are in the right place. This place is so... Confusing and big."

"Well, it's not like you're going to leave your room much."

I shot her a look. "Well, aren't you just getting your kicks today?"

We walked a little long, nearing the end of the hall.

"Seriously? I'm at the end of the hall? Okay, great." I rolled my eyes and looked back where we came from. The hall wasn't as long as I thought it was, but it was still a walk.

We entered the room. I am the first one here. It's a pretty exciting thing though, as I get to choose which side of the room I want. There is only two choices but it seems so hard to decide. "I want the left side of the room."

Lauren turned to me "oh someone get a camera, you chose a side of the room!"

"What?"

"We've been standing here for five minutes! It's about time you picked."

I ignored her and walked over and put the box I was carrying on the ground. I sigh and fell backwards onto my bed. It wasn't the softest thing in the world, but it was something that I could easily get use to. At least I am able to make this place my own- or at least half of it.

I don't know how long I was staring at the ceiling for, but Lauren didn't seem to mind. There was a sudden knock on the door that startled me and jolted me up off the bed. I opened that door to see a girl standing in the hall with a warm smile.

Lauren peered behind my and looked suspiciously at the girl.

"Oh I'm sorry, did I get the wrong room? I'm supposed to be sharing it with this girl Amy, but I probably got the wrong room." She turned around but before she took a step I stopped her.

"Wait no! You got the right room. I'm Amy, and this is my sister, Lauren. She was just helping me with moving, but she's totally going right aft-" I turned around and saw that all of my stuff was in the room. I must have falls asleep or something, because I sure as hell didn't move any of that. "She's leaving now,actually."

Lauren gave me a playful glare "you're welcome... I'll see you later." She waved at me and walked out the door passed this mystery girl.

She stuck out her hand and I shook it. "Hi Amy, I'm Laura."

I moved to the side and let her walk in. This girl was beautiful. She had long dark brown hair, green eyes, and a great smile. She had to be about the same hight as me, maybe a bit taller. She was wearing a black t-shirt, and dark blue jeans, and had combat boots on. I just hope she is actually someone I can stand to be around.

"Oh good, you chose the left side. I like being on the right side the best."

Well, it looks like we are starting on good terms. Let's hope it stays that way.


It had been a few days since I had moved in, and classes had just started. I hadn't spent anytime out of my dorm, except to get food and go to the washroom. I wasn't really up for socializing.

Starting my first class was scary. I was late getting there, as I had no idea where to go. I should have actually left my room.

I sat down at a seat in the back of the room. Although I was excited to start, I was also dreading it. The work and the listening was something I wanted to be over with, but since I can't go anywhere in life without a degree, then I have to suffer through it for a few more years.

What seemed like hours, hadn't been as long as I thought. Class was almost over. God this was so boring.

I looked around the room, looking at all the different people. Then I saw her. Only a few rows in front of me. She was one of the most beautiful girls I had ever seen. She had long wavy auburn hair. Great eyes that were a mix of blue and green. A wonderful smile that made me want to smile- wait. She is looking at me. This girl is looking back at me.

I looked straight in front of me, trying to make it look like I wasn't just staring at her, although it was pretty hard to look like I wasn't.


Finally class was over. I'm so happy to be out of there.

I packed up my things, and got up, walking straight into someone else. "ow. I'm sorry."
Oh shit. It's her.

"Oh um, hey. Sorry I probably should have made it clear I was here or something. Maybe I should have said hi earlier."

God she was so beautiful. She has said about five words and I already want to talk to her more.

"I'm not super observant of my surroundings. I was bound to run into someone at some point."

Wow, what the hell am I even saying?

"I'm Karma." She reached out her hand for me to shake. Of course I had no idea how to get my hand to take hers and actually shake it. She put her hand down and lowered her head just a bit.

Crap. Good job Amy.

"Hi Karma. I'm awkward- I mean I'm Amy. Wow. Okay..."

Karma laughed. She reached over and touched my arm. Her hand then took mine and squeezed just a bit.

"Hey Amy."

We just stood there for a few minutes, just looking into each other's eyes. I finally decided to break the silence. "I'm kind of tired from sitting in a room for hours, so I'm just going to head back to my room."

"Yeah me too."

We walked out of the room together. I was about to turn and say goodbye when I realized she was going the same way. Neither of us really questioned where the other was going, but that was fine with me. I was enjoying spending time with this girl.

We end up at the hall leading to my room.

"Is your room in this hall?" I asked.

"It is yeah. It seems like your is too?" Karma responded as a small smile crossed her face.

"It is actually, yeah."

We walked down the hall, taking about various things. Karma was so interesting. I never wanted to stoop talking to her. I never wanted to leave this girls side. I just met her, and I already want to be with her for as long as I could.

"Oh shit. Are our rooms across from each other? Man that is so awesome!" Karma said as she turned to open her door.

We were across from each other. Maybe I could get what I wanted. Maybe I could actually have someone important in my life for once.

"That's awesome. I guess we will be seeing more of each other, huh?"

Karma walked up to me and took out a pen. She wrote her number on my hand. "I have no doubt about it. Text me sometime. I know we are right across from each other, but I want to know I can talk to you whenever." She gave my a hug. God it was a great hug. Feeling her arms wrapped around me. Having my arms wrapped around her. Even if it was just for a few seconds, it felt amazing. This girl was going to be the end of me.

She turned around and walked into her room, waving before she closed her door, leaving me standing out in the hall alone.

"Hey Amy. What are you doing out here all alone?" Laura startled me. I reached for the door knob as fast as I could to make it look like I just got there, which didn't work as I ended up punching the wall right beside the door.

"Oh hey. I was just… uhm. standing." I opened up the door to our room, letting Alex go in first.

"I can see that… Who got you all flustered? Some cute boy?"

I closed the door hard when she said that. We both jumped at the loud noise. "Sorry, I just. I'm not really good with talking about… people." I walked over to my bed and lay down. "or talking to people, apparently," I mumbled.

I was so tired and it wasn't even that late. Laura and I spoke for a bit, but we mainly didn't speak. It was a sunny day, and I was actually itching to get outside, but I had absolutely no idea where to go. I thought that maybe Karma would know her way around, so I got out my phone and decided to text her.

Hey, Karma. It's Amy… Amy Raudenfeld. I was wondering if you would want to meet up later?

I hit send. God i felt so odd texting someone the day we met asking to go to something. I felt like I was acting, desperate? I don't know.

"Amy? Hey Amy!?" I turned around and saw Laura staring at me. She looked as if she had been calling my name for ages.

"Yeah?" I replied. She rolled her eyes and walked over to me. "You look bored. You wanna go out? I know just the place to go, and what to do." I wasn't sure what she had in mind, but at this point I was willing to do anything. "Yeah I guess. As long as it doesn't involve killing someone, i'm in."

"Great. C'mon let's go." She grabbed her bag and we left our room.

I so hoped that Karma would text me back soon. Walking outside our room and knowing that she was right there killed me. If i actually had any guts, i would have knocked on her door, but it turns out i didn't need to have any sort of courage to knock on her door. I managed to trip over my own feet and fall right onto her door. Luckily Laura was there to catch me before I fell onto the floor. I stood up and brushed myself off and looked over to her. "Thanks."

"Looks like someone isn't too good on their feet, huh?" She laughed and I shot her a playful glare.

The door open and I my heart almost skipped a beat. My face heated up and I was about to say something until I realized that it wasn't Karma who opened the door. "Hi. Were you looking for someone or?"

I had no idea what to say. I had no idea weather I should ask for Karma or just say I tripped and it was an accident. I just stood there looking at him, my mouth open just a tiny bit. Then behind him, she stepped out. "Amy! Hey! I see you've met Liam." She had a huge smile on her face. She looked so happy and full of life. I probably looked like some confused idiot. I finally got some words to my mouth but before I could actually speak Laura spoke for me.

"Amy here just tripped over her own feet. Didn't mean to disturb you two... Oh, I'm Laura by the way."
Great. Way to make me look good. Karma laughed and stepped closer to me.
"You are such an odd person." She touched my shoulder and then stepped backwards to Liam. He put his arm around her, and she put her arm around him. "We should really hang sometime."

I lost all of my words, and continued to stand there awkwardly just staring at her. Staring at him. At both of them. I can't believe I actually thought there was a chance I could date her. I'm so stupid, and I can't believe I didn't think about this earlier. We just met today and already I sound like some jealous asshole who cant stand seeing the person I like with someone else.

"You know, Amy and I are going out right now. You two are welcome to come along. We could use the company, especially since this one doesn't seem up for conversation right now." Laura nudged me with her elbow and I stumbled over a bit. I nodded my head, hoping that I didn't look to eager. I finally managed to get out a few words. "Y-yeah. You guys should both come."

"Alright, yeah. I'm up for it. You?" Karma looked up at Liam who smiled at her and nodded his head.

"Yeah alright. Sounds fun."

They both went into their room and came back out and closed their door. We walked down the hall, Laura and I in front, Karma and Liam following. At some point we all just ended up following Laura, as she was the only one who knew where we were going.

We ended up walking for what seemed like ages, but the destination was worth it. It was a grassy area that then turned into sand, with a little body of water. It was beautiful and it was fairly big. There weren't many people around, and the people that were there we spread out.

"This place is so nice. How'd you know about it?" I asked Laura.

She turned to around and sat down. "I use to fuck someone here every now and then. But they turned out to be a bitch and we never spoke since. He dropped out at some point. Anyway-"

She continued to talk and talk and Liam and Karma sat down and listened. I looked around a bit longer and then sat down across from Karma. They were all talking and I just sat there and heard everything, but it didn't really process in my head. I was so caught up in how Karma looked that night. She had changed clothes after class, and god she looked so beautiful.
I zoned back into the conversation and jumped by the loudness of Laura's voice.

"It's getting dark out guys, how about we start a fire and have a small party here?"

Karma, Liam, and I looked at each other and then back to Laura. "None of us brought anything." I said.

Laura pulled over her bag and pulled things out of it. "Dudes it's all okay. I've got this all covered." She jumped up with a lighter in her hand. She walked over to the sandy area, and we all got up and followed her. I turned back and ran to get her bag that she left on the ground. It was light enough that I was still able to see where I was going. I picked her bag, and brought it over to Laura. I pulled out a bottle of liquor. "Looks like you really came prepared?" Laura had lit the fire, and walked over to me and took her bag and the bottle. She turned around "well you know. School's just starting, so why not kick it off with a good time?" Laura opened up the bottle and took a big sop out of it. "I have cups too you guys. They're in my bag." She dropped her bag on the ground and went and sat by the fire.

Karma walked over to me and picked up the bag that was by my feet. I had no idea what to really do, so I just stood there and look straight ahead. I'm really just an awkward mess.

"Well, aren't you awkward?" Karma said as she stood up and got four cups out of the bag.

"What?" I replied. She took my hand and led me to where Laura and Liam were. I could feel my face heating up a bit. I just hoped that i wasn't blushing too much. Karma handed me a cup and I took it. Laura had also brought beer and another bottle. I wasn't sure that all of that was necessary for four people, but I just shrugged it off.


It had been a few hours since we had gotten there, and we were all having a good time. It got colder out and I didn't bring a second layer. I got closer to the fire but it just got smokier. Karma and Liam looked inseparable. I so wished I had someone to keep me warm.

"Who want's to play a game?" Laura said. We all looked around for a second. "What would the game be?" I asked.

"Oh uhm. I didn't think that through…"

"As long as we don't play truth or dare… that game is really fucking lame." Liam said, laughing a bit at how bad the game was.

Laura looked straight up "YES! That is what we are going to play. I don't care how bad it is, we are playing it."

Liam rolled his eyes "Of course we are…" Karma laughed and she leaned in and kissed him. I looked down to avoid watching them.

I had never felt this way about someone. Well,I have, but it never happened so quickly. I haven't been this drawn to someone within the first day i've met them. This girl was special, that's for sure. It just hurt knowing that I had no chance with her.

"Amy!? hello. Amy!?" I snapped out of my thoughts and saw Liam trying to get my attention. "Truth or dare?"

Apparently I had missed whatever had happened before, but I guess I had to choose. "Tr- Dare."

Liam sat there thinking for a second. "All right, since I hate this game so much, i'm going to give you a super lame dare that has been done a hundred time. Make out with Laura."

Seriously? I was expecting something far more entreating from this guy. I rolled my eyes and looked over at Laura who looked more than willing to do it. I got closer to her, and leaned in. She closed the gap between our lips quickly. She put one of her hands on my cheek, and I put my hands on her hips.

All I could think about during this was Karma. I was thinking about weather or not she cared. About if this made things clear about who I was. I couldn't keep my thoughts straight.

I pulled out of the kiss and opened my eyes to see Laura's eyes staring right back at me. She smiled and then leaned back. I looked over to Karma who didn't seem to have payed much attention, which is understandable. "Well, Amy, looks like it's your turn" Liam said to me. Well, fuck, this wont be fun.

After a few rounds of weird answers, and pretty lame dares, things got… really boring. It was Laura's turn and she sadly chose me. "Alright, I think i'm going to go with truth this time."

"Oh this will get exciting." Laura sat there looking at me. She looked like she was trying to think of the perfect question that would make this whole game worth it. I felt a little concerned about what it could end up being. She looked at me, and then over to Karma, and then back at me again. "Would you fuck Karma?"

"What!?" I was so startled by that question. I had no idea how to even answer that, because yeah I probably would, but that's not really the kind of thing I would ever answer. Especially with her sitting right across from me.

"You heard me. Don't forget, you have to answer truthfully."

I just sat there not knowing what to day. I must have looked really stupid with this surprised expression on my face. We all just sat there in silence, with the three of them waiting for my answer.

Karma got up and sat down beside me. She put her arm around me and rested her head on my shoulder. "Aw Laura, look what you did. You made her even more awkward then she was five minutes ago."

I turned my head and looked at her and said "Well look who took some time to notice someone else other than your boyfriend over there."

Karma lifted her head. It was silent for about five-seconds before Laura burst into laughter. "Well, look who's got a mouth on her!" She was killing herself laughing.

"I'm sorry. I'm pretty drunk, and i'm tired. It's late I better be heading back now." I stood up and started to walk away. "Fuck it's really fucking dark out." I rolled my eyes and tried to make sure I didn't trip.

"Aw c'mon Amy! Come back!" Laura yelled.

It wasn't long after I had gotten up that I heard someone come up behind me. I felt a hand on my back. "hey, you forgot your phone." Karma handed me my phone. I took and it turned on the flashlight.

"Thanks. I guess I left pretty quickly… I'm sorry about back there. I'm really not good with, yeah…"

"It's totally fine Amy. That Laura is a pice of work. She seems great, but wow. She's blunt and pretty out there." Karma took my hand and held in hers. Our fingers intertwined, and wow it felt great to just hold her hand.

"So, are you… gay?"

"What?" I turned to look at her. I had no idea how to really handle all of these blunt questions. But talking to her and her alone made them, easier to answer. "ye-yeah. I am."

"Okay... Well, then I guess that explains some of that..."

We walked in silence for a while. We finally reached the building where our rooms were. I turned around and I didn't see Liam or Laura. "What happened to the other two?"

Karma looked back and rolled her eyes. "I left them to come after you. Knowing Liam, and I guess knowing Laura, they're still over there drinking."

"You're okay with Liam being alone with another girl... when they're both really drunk?"

"Yeah. I guess I am okay with it. I've been thinking about breaking up with him for a while, at this point I don't think I am really too worried about what he does."

I looked over at her. She looked really sad, but she also looked like she really just didn't care. It was a weird emotion I saw in her, but I didn't really decide to ask anything more. We just kept on walking until we got to our rooms.

We were about to say goodbye when I decided to open my stupid mouth. "Hey, do you wanna come in? I'm not really feeling like being alone right now."

"Yeah, that's be cool. Yeah. Lead the way" she smiled and I opened the door to my room.

I showed her around the room, even though there really wasn't much to show. We just sat on my bed and spoke for ages.


"So... Amy. Tell me about yourself."

"Oh uhm, there really isn't much to tell."

"Yeah? Well, you seem like a very interesting person... Someone I would like to get to know more." Karma leaned in close to me. Our eyes locked and I found myself leaning in. I looked down at her lips, and then back to her eyes. Our lips were basically touching. "I look forward to it..." She pulled away and then the door opened startling me.

"Holy shit. Did I interrupt something here?! Shit. Sorry guys." Laura closed the door behind her and walked over and jumped onto her bed. "On Karma, Liam told me to tell you to say goodnight. He left."

I looked over to Karma "wait. Does he not go here or something?"

"Oh no, he doesn't. He was just visiting today."

"Oh okay." I nodded my head and then looked down. I felt her hand rest on mine. I closed my eye and took in a deep breath. I opened my eyes and looked beside me to see Karma leaning on my shoulder.

"I know your room is right across the hall, but you are totally able to sleep here tonight."

Karma looked up at me and smiled. "Where would I sleep?"

I hesitated a bit and then lost all my words. I tensed up a bit, but before I could get more awkward Karma continued to sleep.

"I could sleep with you, in your bed. If that's okay with you."

"She would love that. Amy's got the feels for you, that's for sure." Laura said loudly. She tried her best not to laugh at what she had said, but she found herself too funny not too. I looked over at her, and shot her a glare.

"Thank you for your words, Laura. They were so necessary."

It was silent for a second, and then Karma started to laugh. "Laura you really know when to chime in, don't you?" She kept laughing, and I didn't really know what to do.

"uh, but yeah. You are able to uh, sleep here... With me if you would want."

"Great. My roommate is constantly smoking pot, and the smell gives me a head ache.."

I lay down on my back, staring at the ceiling. Laura had turned off the lights, so the room was almost completely dark. I could tell that she was completely out. Karma was beside me. I felt her turn over on her side. She rested her head on my chest, and put her arm around my waist. I could feel my heart beating faster.

"I find it hard to believe that we only met each other today." Karma said.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. There's just something about you that makes me feel so drawn to you. Its like we just kind of know each other. We work together. Even though we just met."

I smiled at that. Knowing that I wasn't the only one to be feeling something here. That she also felt it too.

There really was something special about this girl.


Weeks had gone by and Karma and I had been spending a lot of time together. We had two classes together. The fact that our rooms were across from each other was amazing. We walk into each other's rooms as if it was no big deal. We practically lived with each other.

Karma and Liam had been having fights more often, and so Karma would always just walk into our room after. Laura and I were always there to comfort her, although Laura wasn't always there.

I hated seeing Karma so upset. I hated that someone could make her feel so bad.

It was almost Christmas break and classes were done. I was very busy with studying for my midterms when one evening Karma burst into my room, tears running down her face.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I got up and hugged her. I led her to my bed and we sat down.

She didn't say anything, and neither did I. We sat there for a while. She cried and I held her. Pall I could keep thinking was I'm going to kill Liam.

It was fairly late when she had come in, and it was about 1:40 when Karma finally started to talk. I didn't mind the silence thought. I liked being around her, even if it was for such a bad reason.

"I'm sorry. I've been here for ages and haven't said anything..." Karma stood up and started to walk around the room.

I sat back against the wall and watched her. "Its fine. But uhm.. Do you want to talk about it?"

Karma sat down on my bed. She sat at the end up agains the wall. I turned to her and sat on the opposite end, leaning against the wall of my desk.

"It's just... I've been stressing about school. And then Liam isn't helping. He's being such an asshole. He keeps saying he is happy in this relationship but he never wants to spend time together. We got into an argument about it earlier and then..." She stopped talk and looked down at her fidgeting hands.

"Did... He... He didn't hurt you, did he?" There was a small bruise on her forehead. Hearing about their argument, and seeing that made my stomach drop.

"N-No… He didn't. He would never…"

"Okay, it's just that, you have a.. Bruise.." I pointed to her forehead.

"Oh. Uhm… Well, I walked into his fridge. I wasn't really paying attention. After that we just sort of, spoke. It was fairly civilized, and we decided that we should break up… And then I got a call…" Her voice cracked a bit. She looked as if she could start sobbing again.

"hey, it's okay." I moved closer to her, and put my hand on her leg, reassuring that she was safe and didn't need to continue.

"My dad… he uh… he's… in the hospital…" She covered her face with her hands.

"Shit Karma, i'm so sorry." I moved over more and sat beside her. I put my arm around herm and she rested her head on my shoulder.

"He was in a car accident. He was apparently on his way home when some drunk driver ran a red light. He hit my dad's truck and uh… He's not doing so well…"

It was silent for a while. Amy knew there wasn't much she could say to help. She just let Karma sit there, which she knew was the best thing to help.

"The real fucked up thing as that the guy who hit my dad walked away almost perfectly fine."

"That's awful. Karma, i'm really sorry. I really am."

The two of us just sat there for what seemed like hours.


"GUESS WHO JUST GOt back from screwing a really… hot… uhm." Laura burst through the door yelling until she realized that she had woken me up.

I looked up and I just saw her standing there. I guess we had fallen asleep on each other. My neck and back were so stiff from sleeping such an awkward position. I looked over at Karma who had moved down and was laying in my lap. I had no idea when that happened.

Karma groaned and moved her head over to the pillow, face first. She put her arm around my waisted and squeezed hard, pulling me closer just a bit. I started to laugh a bit, but tried not to annoy Karma.

"Good job asshole." I said to Laura who had flopped on her bed.

"I'm sorry. I thought you would be awake… it's nearly noon."

I searched around for my phone, when I realized it was still on my desk.

"Have you guys been like that all night?" She asked.

"Uh, yeah… we have…"

"Shit. You guys have become serious." Laura laughed at herself and then sat up on her bed. "You were in the middle of studying. That's unlike you to stop- or for Karma to interrupt. Everything okay?"

I loved how Laura new me. She knew how much Karma and I knew about each other. Laura's a bitch, but she's a really good person. She has a good heart.

I looked down at Karma. She looked so peaceful. Especially compared to last night.

"Things aren't… great for Karma. Uh, her father was in an accident and it's not looking so good."
I knew Karma wouldn't mind me telling this to Laura. They were pretty good friends actually. Karma spent so much time in their room that they all got to know each other well.

"Oh shit. That's horrible. wow. Shit."

"Mmmm… I never want to let you go…" Karma said sounding really tired. You could hear the sleepiness in her voice.

I looked over at her. She had moved her head so that her face was pressing up against my hip. Her arm still squeezing tightly. I then looked over to Laura who was trying so hard not to burst into laughter.

"oh shut up." I said to Laura.

"What? i didn't say anything…"

"mh… Amy?" the sleep was still very obvious in Karma's voice. She got up slowly and rubbed her eyes.

"Morning Karma." I said as I pushed myself up a bit.

She looked around the room for a second, realizing that she had fallen asleep.

"Okay I really have to pee. I'll be back." I got up, put on my shoes and walked out of the room.


When I got back, Karma and Laura were talking.

"Man you sure get around. Where the hell are you finding all these people?" Karma asked.

"Oh you know. I get around. This girl though… Man, she was… gorgeous."

"I've never seen you this excited about someone before" I said as I closed the door behind me.

"I know. its super weird. I feel weird about it."

I sat down on my bed beside Karma.

Oh I loved moments like these. I wished things could be like this for ever.


Months had gone by. Karma and I had become even closer, although she seemed to drop of the face of the earth for a while. She had gone to her fathers funeral during the winter break. She came back after and seemed quieter. We spent a lot of time together. I wanted to make sure she was doing okay. About halfway through our second semester, she stopped showing up to class.

I had sent texts and never got much of a reply back. I got mostly one word answers. I was leaving my final class of the year when I bumped into Karma. And when I say bumped I mean I physically bumped into her.

"Shit i'm sorry I wasn't paying- Karma?"

"Amy!" her eyes lit up just a bit. She took me into a strong embrace. I put my arms around her, remembering what it felt like to touch her.

We pulled away.

"I am so sorry about being so silent. I had to leave... Go away for a while."

"Oh it's uh. Okay. Do you want to go somewhere to talk or?" I pointed towards the hall that would lead us out of the building.

"Yeah, I know just the place we should go."

She lead me outside, and we were about half way there when I realized where we were going. We were going back to the place Laura took us the first day Karma and I had met.

We sat down in the same spot we had that night. It was around noon, so it was much brighter this time. We had gone there several times throughout the school year, but never until it started to get dark out. It was actually a nice looking area. I had never seen it in daylight.

"Remember the first day we met, and Laura invited Liam and I along with you two?"

"Yeah. How could I not? I don't think we would be friends if it weren't for Laura..."

"I think we would be. I mean, you couldn't keep your eyes off me during our first class..." She laughed and nudged me.

"Ha ha. You will never let that go will you?" I could feel myself tense up a bit. I just hoped I didn't look to uncomfortable with that comment. "So... Uhm. Where'd you go?"

"I went to Canada, actually. I uhm... I really had to go. Things... I stopped being able to deal with things..."

"Oh... I hope things are all better now." I really had no idea what to even say to that.

"There just so much to do. My marks started to drop, and my mom needed my help and things got crazy and I started getting anxious all the time and... I decided to leave. I needed to leave everything and everyone behind..."

"I never noticed, Karma. I'm sorry... I am. I-I should have noticed." I looked down at the ground. I felt awful. How could I have not noticed? How could I have let my friend feel so bad and just... Seem like I don't care?

"No. Don't be sorry. I made sure no one knew. I didn't want people to know how badly I was doing… Really. Don't be sorry."

"So you… you dropped out too huh?"

"I did yeah… I wanted to tell you… I just. I want you to understand how hard things became for me. It wasn't that I was just anxious. I had panic attacks… and they got worse. At some point I stopped being able to talk to people without feeling awful… I wanted to talk to you, I just couldn't bring myself to."

"I understand." I moved closer to Karma and put my arm around her. She rested her head on my shoulder. "If you ever want to talk. Or if you ever need anything. I'm here."

"I know. And i'm so lucky." She lifted up her head, and kissed me on the cheek. I felt my cheeks warm up a bit.

"The new girl across the hall is definitely not you. Your old roommate can't stand her. She's always blasting weird techno music. Each song lasts for about 10 minutes."

"Hm… Well maybe I will live in your room as a secret. I know you wouldn't mind sharing a bed with me."

I swear to god this girl knew me more then I knew myself. "I'm sure I could make it work."

After spending so much time away from her, and being back with her, I realized how much I care for Karma. I really missed her. She is my best friend.

"I really missed you Karma." I said as I looked to side, where she was still resting her head.

"I missed you so much." She said as she looked up at me.

We were face to face. There wasn't much space between the two of us. I thought I was going to even lean in and kiss her. But I didn't. We just stared at each other. I couldn't help but feel like there was a big connection between us, and I don't think i'm the only one who feels it.

Fuck. I think i'm falling for her.


A/N: Thoughts? If you have any idea's for the second part, then tell me and i'll think about adding them in!