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The gentle laughing of two. The pats of the feet on the sidewalk. The swinging of two hands, interwined. I will play along with you. I know this is all a lie. I know it too well. You already have her. The other one. You may seem innocent ,but I know that under that mask is different.

You may be able to make my face heat up. You may be able to make my heart race. You can capture my heart. You can do anything ,but hide in front my face. You can't lie. You can't keep a secret. You can't hide behind a face.

I will see. I will always see. You can cry. You can hug me for comfort. You can yelled for your mother. You can do anything. I know this is wrong. I know I made a bad descision. This relationship is a lie. We are just doing what we want.

We are not perfect. We are not bitches for fate to test with. We will be free. Maybe I'll show you how to smile again ,but right now I know that it is not me. I know it all too well.

Just don't listen to me. Get away. Go to her. I know you want to. Pull her into an embrace and walk away. I know that I don't need you. I don't want you. Just leave and I'll cry for you. I'll gather your sadness and make them mine.

You know what it feels like. So I'll let you go and protect you. I'll tell the others to not tell you. I must keep this lie. You know this so well.

Get away and disappear. I'm not strong ,nor are you. Good-bye...