A/N: This is in Gohan's point of view before going ssj2.
I was inspired to write this from the song "Numb" of Linkin Park cause hearing the lyrics reminded me of Gohan's fight with Cell. So I tried to capture what he was feeling, with the song. Also the "you" Gohan refers to is his father!
So, enjoy!
Numb
On the battlefield alone I stand, you chose me to fight in your place
Against a monster even you cannot beat
So I ask myself if you could not win, how can I?
I've been put under the pressure to be the hero and save the day,
though I am only a boy of eleven years of age
Don't you see, a fighter I am not
I'm not like you in regards to that
I don't want to fight
I don't want to kill, even an enemy as bad as Cell
In this fight I've become so numb
Trying so hard to keep control
I can't feel you here with me,
Being held so tight on every side,
being forced to be something I am not
Still I continue fighting to make you proud
To save the day and not let my friends down
For so long I couldn't help,
I was too afraid or too weak
Now I am stronger, yet still afraid
I can't do this alone, without you here
Sensing my fear, Cell targets someone else,
those I hold dear
Doing all this to make me snap, to lose control
Now I watch in pain as those I love get hurt, before my eyes
Smothering me, I'm still so afraid to lose control
I've become so numb, yet again disappointing those I love
Everything you've wanted me to be, has fallen apart,
before your eyes
Now I'm caught in the undertow
Tears falling from my eyes
Screaming out, not knowing what to do
I want to help, I need to fight, to save those I hold dear
But I need your hand to guide me in this battle,
So afraid to do this alone
I'm feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Cell that monster continues to grin at me
Pushing me to my limits
I don't know what you all expect from me
A sudden noise is what I hear
16's head, right in front of me
He speaks to me, telling me to let go,
understanding my feelings, is what he says,
for me to protect that I love, fighting for that, being no sin
Walking over, Cell crushes 16's head before my eyes
I can feel it, something snaps inside of me
With a yell I finally let go and let my emotions run free
New power surging inside of me
I've become so tired of wanting to be more like me,
and less like you,
But for now I must give in to save my friends
I let my feelings go numb,
and kill our foes who put us through this
Now I stand before Cell, that monster,
Anger rolling of him, for having killed his offspring
But now I'm no longer afraid
I'm ready to fight
Having become so numb
A/N: Okay this is the 2nd poem I've written. I know it doesn't really rhyme, but I'm trying! So go easy on me and let me now what u thought! :)
