I exited the car and watched Edward pull off. I felt firm hands grip tightly onto my shoulders. I turned to see Jacob. He gave me a big Bear hug. I followed him into the house. It was really peaceful and quiet.

"Are you home alone?" I asked

"Yup My dad is at your dads watching the game," He said.

We sat down onto the couch. Of all the things I wanted to say I could not manage to think of one thing. Jacob's eyes were burning a hole through me. I turned to see him smiling.

"What?" I asked

"You look...Um you look like," He stuttered

"Alice," I said.

"Beautiful. You look really beautiful," He said.

"Thank you. Jacob I wanted to come here and talk and maybe explain something's to you," I told him.

He sighed.

"So you and Cullen are back together? You can forgive him that easily?" He asked

"No I can't but I'm trying. Jake I don't want to argue I just wanted to let you know that I am always here if you need a friend," I said to him.

"No Bella, I'm not about to let you do this to yourself and me. I Love you if you don't love me then go. I'm tired of this struggle with you. I can't be just a friend to you because every time we are together it does not feel like a normal friendship it feels like so much more. I find myself sitting around waiting for you to decide if you want this and if you want to be with me and I just realized that you don't. It took you no time to just back into Edwards's arms but it took you forever to kiss me. You don't want me Bella. Why won't you just leave me alone," He said harshly.

I felt the tears rolling from my eyes.

"Because I care about you," I said to him.

"But don't you see how much pain I am in. I just want to be stress free and I can't do that in this love triangle. This may be convenient for you but not for me...not anymore," He said.

"Jake please don't do this," I pleaded.

"You're doing this Bella," He said. "This is all you."

I looked into jakes eyes. I felt my heart breaking. It was too much. I could see the pain in his eyes. The fire burning was undeniable. I loved Jacob. At that very moment there was something in me that wanted him. I had never noticed how sexy Jacob actually was. His body was ripped and firm. His hair trimmed short. The muscles and the tattoos, the bareness of his skin was setting my body on fire. I was afraid that I was about to do something I'd regret later.

Jacob grabbed my face gently. His lips burned against mines. It felt as if a monster was being unleashed. I pushed his body back onto the couch. Jacobs's hands was everywhere touching and feeling. I was in for so much trouble I could feel it. But I could not bring myself to stop.

Jacob…Jacob I can't. That was the words she wanted to say. Bella wanted so badly to say no but with every passing second her body was saying yes. The way his hot skin felt made her melt and it was impossible to put out the fire that was already lit. Jacob grabbed a hand full of the dark tee shirt that clung to Bella loosely and ripped it off. His fingertips trailed down her spine as he twirled his finger in her long tassels of hair. He pulled away from her to get a better look and once he did he brought her back from cloud nine. Bella pulled away and stood to her feet. She wrapped her arms around her waist and remained quiet. There was nothing to say. She was at a loss for words. She did not want to tell the truth. The truth would have her back onto the couch rolling around with him. The truth was that she wanted this. She wanted every minute of this and more. But her mind was not equipped to think of a logical lie at such a fast pace.

"Bella…"

"Jake please don't say anything. Just give me a minute to think," she said taking a step back.

"No," Jacob said. "No more thinking."

Jacob chased behind Bella. She moved quickly into the kitchen trying to get out and dodge but there was no way of escaping it. She finally had to deal with her feelings for Jacob alone.

"I can't do this," she said. "This is wrong."

"But you want to Bella. You want me just as bad as I want you."

"Stop it," she demanded. "You are confusing me."

"I'm not confusing you. I'm putting what you are feeling out in front of you. Bella you want this. No one is going to put you on death row if you admit it."

"Jacob Please…"

Jacob silenced her with his lips. He grabbed her by her waist and pulled her closer to him. Bella didn't resist. She allowed him to touch her and caress her body. He placed her on top of the kitchen table. Bella laid her body flat as he made a trail or kisses from her mouth to her neck. Jacob blew his warm breath onto her neck and that gave her never ending chills down her spine. He placed his lips against her ear and whispered, "I love you Isabella Swan and now I'm going to show you just how much I loved you."

He placed his body and her center and thrusted forward slowly. Bella Moaned in ecstasy and closed her eyes.

"I love you Bella. I'm not going to let you fight this anymore. You deserve to be happy. I can do that."

She managed to choke up the words he was dying to hear, "I love you too."

#

Edward sat at the edge of his bed with his fist clenched tightly. He could not wait until the stroked of 10. That was when he knew that Bella would be safely in his arms and away from that mutt. Everything he was in Jacob's presence it reminded him of everything he could not give her.

Edward stood to his feet as he heard the door close downstairs. He used his speed only to find his family had returned home. Edward let out a sigh and headed for the couch. Alice was sitting there with her feet curled under her legs and the slightest smiled on her face. Edward rolled his eyes at her.

"Edward where is Bella?"

"I wish she were here. I don't like her with that mutt," Edward growled.

"Oh so that was what brought the collapse on earlier," she smiled. "Listen I know that you dislike Jacob but it's not because he is a bad person it is because of what he is. Who would have thought discrimination existed in this century."

"What are you speaking about?"

"Maybe you should try to get to know Jacob on Bella's Level. There is a reason she cares for him and I doubt it is because he is an inconsiderate ass whole and werewolf. That is your opinion of him so why don't you try her opinion of him."

"You know Alice I hate the fact that you are so much wiser than I am," Edward smiled.

"Yea we'll I am a girl."

"Does being a girl justify your level of knowledge?" Edward asked

"Actually it does. Haven't you heard the Women are from Venus and Guys are from mars theory?"

Edward and Alice busted into laughter. Rosalie entered the room in bitter frustration. Edward sighed.

"What has Bella ever done to you?" Edward asked

"Excuse me?" Rosalie said

"I have tried to ignore those ignorant comments inside of your head but I cannot deal with them any longer."

"Edward you are barking up the wrong tree," Rosalie warned

"Oh really," Edward said standing to his feet.

"Edward your human pet is no concern of mines. I hope you enjoy the rest of her life together."

"Go to Hell."

"I wish," she said walking away.

Edward sat down beside Alice who was shaking her head in disapproval. Edward looked at her puzzled.

"What?"

"Why do you entertain that? You know what her problem is Edward just leave it be."

"Rose does not understand that I don't want this anymore than she does. I have tried to change Bella's mind, to make her see that she can be more than I am."

"You don't owe Rosalie any explanation. Maybe one day she will let this go or maybe she will live with her pain forever but it's her pain to deal with not yours."

Edward smiled lightly.

"You have an answer for everything don't you?"

"Correction, I have an accurate answer for everything."

"I have to pick Bella up from La push. I will be back in a few," He said heading for the door.

#

Bella lay quietly cuddled in Jacobs arms. She allowed her hair to cover her face due to the embarrassment she was now undergoing. She knew if she looked up at him she would start crying. She would start crying because she imagined losing her virginity to Edward. She only imagined being with one guy and that was Edward. But here was Jacob and his warm skin making her feel beautiful. This moment was special to her. That was what she feared. It was perfect and she wished it would have lasted forever. But now reality was resurfacing and Bella was afraid. She had opened up a whole new world of emotions for herself and Jacob.

She had taken his Virginity too. No matter how hard you try you can never forget your first intimate experience. But more importantly how would she tell Edward? He would never forgive her. Jacob could sense her body tense up. He smiled lightly.

"You're worrying?" He asked

"I'm worrying a lot."

Jacob sighed. "I don't want you to worry. I want you to savor this moment like I am."

"Remember when we were kids and we knew how to forget about everything and never make anything complicated?" she asked "Why doesn't that follow us into adulthood?"

"I don't know Bella but what I do know is that I fall in love with you over and over again."

"But you will imprint one day and you will have your dream girl. She will be able to give you everything she has unlike me."

"Imprinting won't change my feelings for you. You will just be forced into a love triangle," He smiled.

Bella grew quiet for a moment.

"Jacob I really do love you. You are whats best for me. But I can never bring my mind to choose what's best for me. I always want what's hard to obtain."

"I figured that out a long time ago Bella. I figure that out when I realized how stubborn you are. Bella I love you and I will always fight for what I want until I take my last breath. I know that you love Edward. I even believe that he loves you just as much as I do but being with him is unhealthy for you."

"Being with both of you is unhealthy for me," Bella corrected.

"Then why not just date mike newton? He's as healthy as spinach"

Bella looked at Jacob with intensity in her eyes, "Because I don't want to be healthy If it means being away from Edward and you."

"Stay here with me," Jacob insisted.

"I can't. I have to go."

"Are you going to tell him?"

"Not tonight. I can't hurt him tonight. He was against me coming here at all."

There was a faint horn coming from outside. Bella sighed lightly. They quickly got dressed before Bella realized her shirt was torn to shreds.

"Shit Jake. My shirt," Bella said.

"Don't worry I'll have you covered," He said tossing a tee shirt in her direction.

"He'll notice the difference."

"We'll put your thinking cap on and come up with a lie," he said as they headed towards the door.

Jacob opened it and they stepped out. He wrapped his arms around her tightly and smiled. "I'm going to smell like you forever."

Bella smiled lightly. "Goodnight Jacob."

She turned and headed towards the car. Bella could barely hold back the tears.

Jacob made me feel alive I hope it's worth it, Bella thought as she entered the car.

So I'm sorry….I know I have not updated in a while but I got wrapped up in more Bella and Jake goodness. P.s please don't hate me and Always Review

B.P.O.V

I got into the car without making eye contact. Edward leaned in to kiss me but I did not react. He sighed lightly and gripped the stiring wheel tightly.

"Do I have to kill him now or later?" he asked

I turned to him confused and hoping Jake was too far for him to hear his thoughts. Looking into Edwards eyes was not the same anymore. I don't know whether it was because he left me or because I had just lost my virginity to Jake but it just was not the same. I didn't want him to touch me and I could not bare the thought of him hurting Jake. Normally his comments had no impact on me but they did tonight.

"What are you talking about?"

"I know when something is wrong with you Bella. Did he hurt you? Why can't that stupid mutt get the hint that your mines?"

I felt a hint of frustration and a tad bit angry, "You don't own me."

"I didn't mean it like that bella," he began to plead.

I shook my head, "You did Edward. You meant it exactly how you said it. For the record Jake is not a stupid mutt he's one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. He loved me when you wouldn't and he was there for me when you disappeared."

"I'm grateful for that."

"No you are not. You're grateful that I took you back. You could careless that Jake was there for me."

"Why are you defending him Bella?"

Edward stared at me for a second and then turned his head to see Jake still standing in the doorway. He turned back to face me as the tears began to stream from my eyes. I was not crying because my heart was breaking. I was crying because I was breaking his heart. I really did care for Edward but every day I was falling out of love with him. While he was gone I started to realize the things in life that I really wanted and none of them he could give to me. With Edward I did not have a say in my life but with Jake I had a chance to live. I had a chance to make mistakes and I got to yell at him and be angry at him for being Jake.

I would never know the real Edward because he planned on keeping me human. I had to live out my life with him in caution instead of actually living. I wanted to be happy and I wanted to smile.

"It's over isn't it?" Edward asked

I nodded yes, "I can't do this anymore Edward. I can't wake up every day wondering if you'll be gone again because you're afraid. I can't dream about what I want my reality to consist of. I'm tired of being careful. I want to happy and at one in my life I was happy with you. But you'll never be able to give me what I need. You're just not good for me."

"And Jacob Black is?"

"I don't know but I'm allowed to be myself with him. I can make mistakes and I can watch him make mistakes to and we can grow together. Edward you're stuck in time. You're always going to be that way. I'm 18 I want to live and be free."

Edward sighed, "If this is what you want than I wish you well. I'll leave but Bella I won't be back after this."

"I want you to go. I want you to find a Vampire who you can love. Someone you can be yourself with and that will wait for you because I can't wait for you anymore. Life is too short."

I leaned in to hug him. Edward kissed my cheek lightly and whispered in my ear, "I'll always love you but I guess I have to let you go. You take care of yourself Bella."

"Don't worry about me. Goodbye Edward."

I got out of his car and headed back in Jakes direction. He had a grim smile on his face. That soon turned into the timeless smile I loved. Jake wrapped his arms around me. I heard Edwards car sped off in the back ground. I gazed up into Jake's eyes getting lost in them, not wanting to look away. I bit down on my bottom lip and sighed. My heart was doing jumping jacks in my chest. Jake placed his hand over it and inhaled.

"Is that for me?" he asked

I nodded yes.

"Bella I have to tell you something."

"Please don't tell me you want to just be friends. Jake please don't say those words because I…"

Jakes lips silenced mines. I sighed in relief as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed myself forward. His arms clenched around my waist as his tongue intertwined with mines. I had needed him to touch me. His flaming hot body against mines was taking my body to new heights. Jake pulled away slightly.

"Bella I have to tell you something."

"What is it Jake?"

"Well you're my Imprint. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."

"Really?" I said excitedly. "You imprinted on me?"

He nodded his head yes. "I have never felt more connected with one person in my life Bella. I've never felt anything like this before. When I see you everything gets brighter. Life seems better and everyone else fades. It's like you and I are the only people in this world and I ever want that feeling to go. You're my first, my only, my everything."

It was something about the way that Jake said I was everything that sent chills down my spine. There was a big crackle of thunder but I did not care. My lips crashed onto his with an urgent need. I had never felt like I needed someone more in my life. Jakes urge matched mines as his hands slipped down my waist and cupped my ass forcing my legs up as I wrapped them around his waist. The rain consumed us. We were soaking wet. I however was wet in more ways than one.

I heard a car approaching but tuned it out. I didn't care if someone saw us but that changed when I heard a deep voice and a throat clear. Jake put me down and I turned to see Billy and my dad standing behind us. Charlie was trying to wipe the smile off his face and I could have sworn I saw Billy wink at Jake.

"Bells I didn't expect to find you here."

"Yea we'll I came here to tell Jake I was still his friend."

"Well how did it got? You seem like you are still…um friends?" Charlie said with a noticeable humor in his voice.

"It went well dad."

"So I'm guessing we should have that talk again?" Charlie said flashing Jake the evil eye.

I held my head low in embarrassment, "Dad not now."

"Maybe a trip to the clinic as well," He mumbled.

Billy interrupted, "Charlie it's getting kind of late why don't you and Bella head home."

"Thanks for reminding me," he said heading towards the car.

Jake grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him. I tried to resist now that we had an audience but it was hard. I guess Jake didn't care to much about the PDA.

"Stay with me."

"I can't. I'm sure Billy wouldn't want that neither would my dad."

"They'll get over it."

I sighed lightly, "I promise I'll be back in the morning Jake. It will only be a few hours," I smiled

"You say that now but wait until your alone tonight," he rolled his eyed.

I kissed his cheek lightly but jake took his hands and placed them on both sides of my face and his lips met mines. It was like a few seconds of bliss.

I heard Charlie in the back ground, "Bells come on. Jake will be here tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day," he mumbled.

"Okay I have to go now," I said him trying to fight the urge to stay.

"I love you Bella," Jake smiled. My smile.

"I love you too Jake. My Jake," I said before I headed to the car. Inside Charlie was grinning like he knew something that I didn't. I sighed knowing I would have to deal with this for a while until the reality of Jake and I sat in. even though I was not sure what that reality was yet.

We reached home and I head straight to bed. But once I got there it seemed cold. I couldn't sleep. I could not even lie down. I found myself gazing out of the window up at the moon. It was beautiful. I stood there just thinking and smiling to myself. Jake was right. I should have stayed with him. This was complete torture. I turned and headed back to bed changing out of my damp clothes. I put on my tiny boy shorts and remained shirtless in just my bra. I snugged under the covers and closed my eyes.

I jumped up as a rock pounded against my window. Slowly I headed in the window direction. Outside of it was Jake. I smiled brightly and opened it.

"Jake if Charlie catches you…"

Jake smiled my smile and climbed up the tree outside of my window. He reached his arm for mines and pulled me out of the window. I sat in front of him with my legs wrapped around his waist and his arms wrapped around mines. We gazed into each other eyes not saying anything just soaking in our presences. It felt good.

"Is it possible to love someone so much so sudden?"

"Anything is possible Bells. So I came here to ask you something. It completely slipped my mind earlier."

"what is it?"

"I know this is an understatement but do you want to be my girlfriend?"

I blushed slightly and wrapped my arms tightly around his neck, "I'd be honored. So I guess you're my boyfriend huh?"

"Looks like it bells."

My lips aligned with his softly. I could not believe how beautiful he looked in the moonlight. Jake, My Jake was the most wonderful guy in the world and I was lucky. That was the only way to explain this perfectly.