What Is Real and What Isn't?

Summary: Meredith wakes in the hospital after Amelia's wedding. She's confused about where she is and what has happened. (Set after Season 12 finale)

Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's or this would happen. ENJOY!

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Chapter 1: The Wedding

She couldn't take her eyes off of him. Nathan had grabbed hold of her heart like no other. He completed her after Derek's death. And as she stood, waiting for her sister to reach Owen Hunt to be married, Meredith could honestly say she was happy. There had to be enough happiness to go around, that Derek was her last chance for happiness. She had to believe she had another chance.

She couldn't stop the smirk on her face though, as she glazed at the man with a knowing look. Meredith was sure, that after the wedding, she would take Nathan Riggs to a room and ravish him. He made her feel alive again and it brought a peace to her soul she had been missing since her husband's move to DC to help the president. She was very thankful.

"I like him."

"Who?" Meredith could barely take her eyes off of Riggs. It was like he was the flame and she the moth. He drew her in. And she liked it.

"Riggs," Maggie whispered back to Meredith, causing the smile to fall slowly from Meredith's face. "I really like him. I think he likes me."

It all felt like it was coming crashing down around her. Her eyes were wide, her body frozen in terror. She couldn't go after Riggs; she couldn't be with Riggs if Maggie liked him. But her chest became heavy and it was like she couldn't breathe in that moment.

Nathan Riggs made her feel completed, he made her feel alive after feeling dead for so long. Didn't she deserve to be happy after losing Derek? For so long it had only been Derek (shortly Finn but she didn't think of him often anymore) and he was the father of her children, but he was dead. She was alive. She deserved to be happy. Derek would understand and want her to be happy.

Why couldn't Maggie just butt out and let Meredith be happy? Maggie had broken it off with DeLuca. Maggie was the one who decided not to be happy. Meredith was trying. Meredith needed Riggs to feel alive again… Maggie would just need to understand that Meredith needed Riggs more than she did.

"Meredith?"

She turned to look at her half-sister.

"Do you think I should go talk to Riggs?"

Somehow, the wedding was over and they were already at the reception. Amelia and Owen were greeting guests together by the doors. Meredith and Maggie were by the window, watching the happy couple while Riggs stood near Owen's mother. Meredith turned to Maggie, unsure how to respond. She didn't want Maggie going after Riggs.

But Maggie had her big brown eyes and that hopeful look in them. Like a younger sister looking up to her big sister…it reminded Meredith of Lexie. It also reminded Meredith of Derek flirting with Lexie so long ago at the bar; Lexie becoming the second girl at the bar that Derek had taken interest in.

She heard a scream and Meredith could feel the world spinning. What had happened? Why was she falling? She could see people surrounding her and her eyes fell shut. She blacked out from all the thoughts overwhelming her.

Why couldn't she be happy?

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"She's coming around! Someone page Shepherd!"

Why was that voice so familiar? And why were they paging Amelia? She was going on her honeymoon with Owen.

Meredith felt someone grab her hand and she wasn't sure who this person was. The person leaned forward. "I knew you'd wake up. I knew you wouldn't die on us!"

The voice sounded so upset. She wanted to reassure them that falling onto the floor did not mean she was going to die. She had just fainted, that was all. So why did the person sound so thankful that she was coming around?

Slowly, Meredith began to open her eyes and she winced at the bright light, immediately closing her eyes once more. "She's really coming around?" THAT VOICE! Another hand grabbed hers at once. "Meredith, please open your eyes. I need to see your eyes. I miss you baby, please!"

Meredith finally opened her eyes and her green ones met blue. She was in shock at seeing her dead husband's grieve stricken face.

She was not expecting to see Derek Shepherd ever again after unplugging him until she was dead.

It was safe to say, though, that Meredith fainted once more.

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Up Next: The Question: Meredith must come to terms that somehow her dead husband is alive. And she has many questions that he must answer.

What do you guys think of chapter one? I hope to see you all next chapter! Get ready to see some old characters from the show! Yay! Should I continue?

PS: Sorry for the last go, someone told me that it wasn't working….not sure why but here it goes again!