Here would be the lovely sequel to Cheating Heart. You will want to read that one first. But if you don't, this one will make you want to know what happened.

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Selfish Memories

I can't believe what I led him to do. My love killed himself, after I cheated on him. There was no reason to cheat on him. He was beautiful, and he loved me. Why was I a foolish bastard?

In this world you tried

not leaving me alone behind.

There's no other way.

Well all I know is right now, I want to die. I can't stand not having him here. Not holding him in my arms. It's all a waste now.

I prayed to the gods let him stay.

The memories ease the pain inside,

now I know why.

Why am I still living? I want to die. Please God, let me die, and if you won't let me, I'll do it myself. I'll pretend I'm you and take my life so I feel no more pain. I need him.

I prayed to the gods let him stay.

The memories ease the pain inside,

now I know why.

He took his life, because he didn't want to see me anymore. I turned him away with my selfish desires. How was I to know of his past? Yet I know that is no excuse for what I did.

All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments imagine you here.

All of my memories keep you near.

Your silent whispers, silent tears.

I want to hold him, and whisper words of love and eternal happiness, yet I can't. He's gone.

Made me promise I'd try

to find my way back in this life.

I hope there is a way

to give me a sign you're ok.

Reminds me again it's worth it all

so I can go on.

That's it. I can't stand it anymore. I need to leave. I need to get away from the mess I've created for myself. The question is how. Shall I be messy or clean. Mean or nice.

All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments imagine you here.

All of my memories keep you near.

Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Our lovely flower will most likely be the one to find me. I do not wish her to see another of her beloved friends, bloodied and lifeless. So, clean and nice it is.

All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments imagine you here.

All of my memories keep you near.

Your silent whispers, silent tears.

How can you do this clean and nice? It is a nasty busniess that requires guts, or an extreme ammount of pain or cowardice. That's what I have. I have guilt to spur me on. I want to be with him agian. I am selfish.

Together in all these memories

I see your smile.

All the memories I hold dear.

Darling, you know I will love you

until the end of time.

I'll jump. That's what I'll do. I'll jump straight of a bridge to the rushing rapids below. It's perfect and there's a good chance I won't be found. Perfect. Just like he was. My Kyo.

All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments imagine you here.

All of my memories keep you near.

Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Here I am, standing on the cement barrier that keeps you here in this life, and from forever easing your pain. It's time. I'm coming Kyo. I'm coming.

All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments imagine you here.

All of my memories keep you near.

Your silent whispers, silent tears.

All of my memories...

"Memories" - Within Temptation.

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Kinda lame, but I wanted to write what happens to Yuki after Cheating Heart. I bet there's someone who wanted to know.Teehee. I'm evil.