Thomas's Pov
Thomas someone left you these Anna says. As I take the flowers from her I can't help but smile. Who on earth would send Thomas flowers Daisy says. Looks like someone's got an admirer William replies. Well who's it from asks Mrs. Patmore. It's none of your business I reply. As I take them to my room I notice a card in between. I take the card and start to read the letter.
Dear Thomas,
I can't stop thinking about you. We've been apart for too long and I must see you. Meet me in the barn at midnight. I love you
Sincerely Matthew
Just as I finish reading the letter Anna walks in and tells me his Lordship is expecting me in the library. Thank you Anna I'll be there in a minute. As she starts to leave I grab her arm gently and asks if she could do a favor for me. Does it involve whoever gave you those. Yes I'm afraid so. What is it then. He asks if he could see me. Oh Thomas that's great news. So I guess you expect me to cover for you. Well I was hoping... Don't be silly Thomas of course I will. Thank you so much I tell her and give her a kiss on the cheek. We both walk out together and go our separate ways. I walk into library and as I see the Lordship the smile on my face disappears. He does not look pleased. You wanted to see me Lordship. Indeed I've noticed something and I hope that you could clear up the matter and tell me that I'm just crazy for imagining this nonsense. What nonsense sir. That Matthew has feelings for you. My heart feels like it has stopped beating and I don't know what to say. Thomas please tell me this isn't true because if it is I hope you're ready for disappointment. Sir I... It is true isn't it. I just nod my head. Matthew will marry Mary Thomas there's no way I'm letting some petty footman ruin my daughter and the future ruler of Downton. You may leave now Thomas.
As I make my way to the barn I realize I should make the most of it as I may never be with him again. I open the door to see candles lit around the inside of the barn and a blanket laying on the floor where there is a fruit basket and rose petals all around. Matthew? I look around and can't seem to find him until I feel someone wrap their hands around to cover my eyes. I let myself relax into the body behind me. Guess who? Is that you Mr. Carson. Oh do you have to ruin the moment Thomas Matthew says. Yes since you're being so corny. Very well then. He removes his hands from my eyes and instead places them on my hips. I turn around to see those perfect blue eyes staring back at me. He starts to move in closer and I let myself be free. I close my eyes and I feel his lips against mine. I pull back right away and I regret it as Matthew looks hurt. I'm sorry love it's just... I start to cry in front of Matthew and I can't stop. My dear Thomas what's the matter. I can't even form any words and Matthew pulls me against him and holds on to me. I'm here babe everything's going to be alright he whispers. When I'm able to get a hold of myself Matthew grabs my hand leading me to the blanket. He never let's go of my hand even as we sit down and I let my head fall on his shoulder. You don't have to tell me what that was about but I'd like to know what's made you so upset. It's Lordship. What has he done. He hasn't done anything yet Matthew but he threatened me. What did he say. I shouldn't be with you. That you must marry. Don't listen to him he has no say in what goes on between us. But Matthew... He shushes me with a kiss and I can't help but let a moan escape. Someone's missed me he says. Instead of answering I tackle him to the floor and try to get all his clothes off at once. This proves to be difficult as I only manage to get his jacket off. He flips me over so he's on top and starts planting kisses down my neck. Even though I've missed being with him like this I knew I had to get back to the house. Matthew stop. He stops at once but doesn't look too happy. I have to get back. So soon. Couldn't you stay a few more minutes. No I have to get back before anyone discovers I'm gone. What if you don't have to go back. What do you mean. I'm in need of a butler and I wouldn't want anyone else. Think about it we could be together without having to hide. What about your mother. My mother's been busy at the hospital so we'll have the place mainly to ourselves. Yes. Yes what. Yes I'll be your butler. Matthew smiles at me and pulls me in for another kiss.
As I make my way back to the house it starts pouring but the rain can't even stop me from feeling happy. As I go to my room I notice Daisy still in the kitchen. Thomas what were you doing outside in the rain. None of your business. I make my way as fast as I can to my room without making too much noise and when I finally get the chance to lay down I let myself dream of Matthew and I and our new life together. You wanted to see me Thomas. Yes I'd like to give my weeks notice. What's this about. Matthew's offered me a job. Matthew Crawley? Yes Matthew Crawley. Very well then.
I'm going to miss you Thomas. And I will miss you Anna. I hope everything goes well between you and Matthew. I hope so too. Tell Matthew that if he ever hurts you he has to deal with me. Will do Anna.
Matthew is coming for dinner tonight. Well we better make the most of it Anna says. Maybe I could persuade him not to let you leave tomorrow. Very funny Anna but I don't think anything you say will change his mind. It's time ladies and gentlemen Mr. Carson says. I grab the white wine and head upstairs. As I'm making my way upstairs I get a slight dizzy spell and I have to hold on to railing for support. Are you alright Thomas? I look up to see William looking at me with a worried expression on his face. I'm fine but thanks for your concern. I continue making my way upstairs and when I'm finally at the dining room I see Matthew looking fine as ever. I enter the room and Matthew notices my arrival having the biggest smile on his face. I can't help but smile back but this moment comes to an end as Lordship interrupts us. Thomas is everything alright though he's knows why I was so happy. Everyone turns to look at me. I'm fine thank you my lordship. Everyone carries on with their dinner. As I start to make my round of serving the wine another wave of dizziness comes over and I almost trip over my own two feet. I approach Matthew and he seems to have notice my behavior. You sure you're alright Thomas. Yes I'm...Matthew's face seems to be absent all the sudden and all I could see is darkness. I feel the bottle slip from my hand and I start to fall to the floor but not before someone probably Matthew grabs me and I succumb to darkness.
Matthew's Pov
Mr. Crawley can you help me carry Thomas to his room Mr. Carson asks. Even though I'm in a state of shock I know I can't let my feelings for him show to Mary and her family. Of course Mr. Carson. As we are making our way to Thomas's room I can't help but ask Mr. Carson if Thomas was acting weird before the incident. He seemed perfectly fine before dinner was served and to be honest I have the slightest clue what has happened to him. We enter Thomas's room and I'm amazed at how small his room is compared to mine. Now I definitely know I'm making the right decision by bringing him with me. He could live a better life. I lay Thomas in his bed and I notice he looks so peaceful. That will be all Mr. Crawley. I forgot Mr. Carson was still in the room. I start to leave and as he goes in the opposite direction I go back into Thomas's room. I take his hand in mine and the other I use to touch his face. He's seems warmer than he should be so it could possibly be a fever. I let go of his hand to get a washcloth and bowl of water. As I place the cloth on his forehead he starts to stir. Matthew is that you. Yes Thomas I'm here. Why are you here my love someone might catch you. You don't know how much I love it when you call me that. Matthew this isn't the time and place. I don't care anymore Thomas. You are leaving with me tomorrow anyways. I know it's just that I'm not feeling too well and now I made a mess of everything. But it's ok everything is going to be fine. I believe you he says before he falls back to sleep. Goodnight my dear I say as I place a kiss on his forehead. I make my way out and I thought I made sure no one was there until I hear a lady's voice. You're good for him Mr. Crawley I hope he realizes that. You must be Anna. Yes I am. Thomas has told me a lot about you. I hope they're all good things. Of course. I'd make sure you get back though they're wondering where you have been. Thank you Anna I'll think of something.
Matthew may I have a word. Of course. I can't allow you to ruin your life. What's this about. You know exactly what this is about. I've talk to Thomas and he's admitted to your affair. You had no right. This is my house I have the right to know what goes on. You can't stop us. My dear boy you don't know what you're getting yourself into, you'll look like a fool. Is this what you really want for Downton to be a disgrace. You know that's not what I want. Well if you decide to be with Thomas, that's exactly what's to happen. I'll leave then. What are you that selfish and stupid. Yes indeed I am. I'm taking Thomas with me and there's nothing you can do about it. And what if Thomas refuses. He's already agreed to run away with me once I doubt he'll say no. That seemed to have kept his Lordship quiet. Though I hate to leave on bad terms I decide to leave anyways.
Thomas's Pov
I wake up to see Matthew looking at me. How did you get in here. Anna let me in. Of course she would. She also told me some bad news though. Oh and what's that. You're in no condition to travel. She's not a doctor Matthew I believe I have the final say in whether I can last the day on my feet. I try to get up to show him I'm fit to travel but I regret it as I start to lose my balance again and fall into Matthew's arms. You were saying. I guess you'll just have to carry me to your house. If only it were that easy Thomas. Well we have to leave today I already have my things packed. Thomas you're not listening to me. Sorry it's just that I'm so excited to start a new life. You're not going to miss Downton. Not really unless you include the memories we made here but as long as I'm with you I'll always have them. Matthew starts to blush and I can't help but laugh. Thomas I'm afraid we won't be living at my house. Why's that. His Lordship has spoken with me and says if I choose to be with you I can no longer be near Downton. You chose me over Downton. Yes Thomas I believe I did. Oh Matthew I don't know what to say. You don't have to say anything.. I stop him from talking by smashing my lips against his. He pushes me against the wall and I wrap my legs around his waist. I'm first to stop kissing him as I need some air. I need you Matthew I say in between gasps it's been too long. I know Thomas I'm not going anywhere.
