After The Last Glitter Falls
Chapter One
Kurt had a guilty obsession, one he kept hidden even from the Glee club. Adam Mitchel Lambert, the kid from American Idol. Week by week he obsessed over the show, rewatching the performances, downloading the tracks from itunes. This man was gay, dripping in glitter and glam make up, dressing to his own style gay. He didn't give a damn what anyone thought of him for it either. A lot of people adored Adam's differences in a way Kurt hoped one day he could be loved and accepted as well. Watching the man's career progress with renewed hope that he himself could be something more then the token gay guy. The one no one really wanted there, but they had to have so that the equality stats looked acceptable. Over looked for every single part because of who and what he was. Adam was paving the way for gay kids everywhere. The pressure he must be under right now to be one of very few out and proud recording artists. If he crumbled and fell what hope was there for the rest of them!
Kurt's computer desktop was filled with pictures of the man, snatches of lyrics. The teasers to his first album leaked and he was obsessed with playing them on repeat, learning every lyric and nuance of that incredible voice. Of course the fact that Adam had once played the lead role in his all time favourite musical only added to the deep rooted attraction. Kurt was falling in love, he could feel it. Watching the you tubes of Fiyero Adam every single night, wishing so much to be his Elphaba and share those passionate kisses. Letting his eyes wander over the amazing bodywork of the very well shaped man in those impossibly tight trousers.
There was a rumor going around the fan sites that Adam would be looking for dancers and backing singers for his own tour very soon. Whatever it took, even if it meant skipping nationals Kurt was determined to be there. He and Rachel had made all these plans to go to New York together and go to college there. Get on Broadway together, and live the big dream. It had been years in the planning, lately the idea seemed to have lost its sparkle. Kurt was changing, growing up perhaps, because right now he would give it up all just to tour with Mr. Lambert. Dreams could change couldn't they? A tour was under a year even with rehearsal, he could still go to college after right?
Everything was so confusing now, Kurt was changing so much lately. In a few weeks school would be over and he would be leaving his family and all of his friends behind. The idea left him a little sad to be leaving behind everything he had ever known, but in other ways he was glad to be going somewhere he wouldn't be held back or ignored any longer or at least he hoped he wouldn't.
He was tired of the back stabbing between his friends in Glee club. Sick of everyone sleep with everyone else and then breaking up violently ruining the harmony. Sick of being ignored for solos, sick of never existing unless he was needed for something, having slushy thrown in his face or dumpster dived. Kurt Hummel was sick of everything in his damn life right now.
All he wanted to know now was when does his life begin?
When could he wake up in the morning without fearing what the day would bring?
When could he finally be happy?
