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She never thought she would be doing this again, she thought for sure she had found "It" for the rest of her life. Lorelai Gilmore found herself walking alone in the first snow of the season, again. You see, after things went sour between her and Luke Danes almost 25 years ago, she ran away. She took that job with the Durham group and moved around a lot. Within 5 years of the ultimatum, she met a man named Matt and after dating for 3 years tied the knot. It was hard for her, to forget him, get over him. But she did it. She replaced her sadness and despair for what she lost with hope of the future and hope in Matt.
They were married for 17 happy years. They struggled, as every couple did, but they worked around it. They talked, communicated, and found comfort in each others arms. Neither one had wanted another kid. For Matt, he just never really cared much to be a father. Lorelai, well it was just too much to think about, especially after…Luke. It was too much of what she could have had.
For most of their marriage, they lived in New York, he was working in insurance and Lorelai could travel easily from New York to her different inns she ran. Plus, with Rory there at the Times they were able to keep their freakishly close bond together with the short distance to each others houses. That was until Rory and Logan decided to move back to their old stomping grounds of Hartford. Logan's company relocated and as big as Rory had become, she could write anywhere she pleased. In addition, they were closer to the elder Gilmore's who were getting higher in years.
She still wonders how the doctors didn't catch the cancer; Matt had just gone in for an annual check up not even 3 months before. By the time they caught it, it was too late. It started in his lungs and had slowly filtrated throughout all of his major organs. He spent his last remaining month at home with Lorelai caring for him. They were content to just stay in their home, reminisce of their past, tell little secrets to each other that they had kept from the other, and reaffirm their love to each other. That month was one of the hardest, happiest moments of her life. She didn't think it was possible, but she grew closer to Matt, and in turn, made it that much harder to say goodbye.
Matt's funeral was exactly 24 days ago. He was buried next to his parents in New York as he wished. It was very nice, quiet and simple just as he was. Lorelai barely held it together, especially when she watched the casket lower. Never again would she see his face, hold his hand, hear his voice. As she wiped away a tear, she knew she would never be the same. Nor did she want to; her life would be forever changed.
She had attempted to continue living in their home, but the memories and heartache were too overpowering. Sure she had friends, well they had friends, but now everyone looked at her with pity. She was never one to accept pity and she wouldn't start now. Also, her only daughter, her best friend, was too far away. She longed to be with her, she was all Lorelai had left. So after much debate, she moved back to Hartford. She moved back to her parent's house, how ironic. After almost 50 years of freedom, she ended back up in their house, a house that once pained her to look at. Now she called it her home.
In all actuality, she enjoyed being back. It kept her closer to Rory and Logan. But she was also able to care for her aging parents. Each one still as stubborn as ever, but with recent ailments daily chores were becoming harder and harder to accomplish. Lorelai felt needed again, she felt the love she had been missing for the last few weeks.
And as she walked, she thought about all of this. She thought about all the joys and pains she went through to become the woman she is now. As she always had, she could sense the snow. She knew the day before that today would be the day it would snow, so she kept up her traditional first snow walks, it had changed ever so slightly to include her late husband, but it was a welcomed change. In some cases, Lorelai was able to sense it a few days in advance and Rory would join them but for the last 5 years it had been her and Matt. Now again, however, it was just Lorelai.
She was reminded of her last walk in the snow alone. Rory has started college, buried into her school with no time to share with the woman who birthed her. There was no Jason, Alex, Max, or Luke. Just good ole Lorelai walking by herself. And when she thought of that place, Stars Hallow her eyes weld up with tears. She had left so long ago, she really hadn't even said goodbye. Things with… him… was so bad she didn't have much choice. But she had decided she would take her first walk this year, in that old beloved town. She was pulled out of her thoughts just in time to see she was directly in front of a friendly little diner.
