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I let him touch me, and it was okay. For the first time I felt something, something other then pain. He was the only one who made me feel anything. When I would see him I would feel my heart flutter in my chest. My heart would dance and sometimes even miss a beat. Then he hit me and I felt so many emotions: I felt, I truly felt. It was what I asked for, it was all me. Not him, me, all me. Then I felt his heart. I felt his heart beat and he felt mine. I was no longer a little girl twirling aimlessly, going nowhere. He found me and stopped the spinning of the world. He stopped time, but not for long enough. I guess I had had my share of happiness, my share of feeling. I felt too much for too long. I got greedy and God let me know. He saved me in a way. I'm fine now. I'm with Moritz; we play pirates nearly everyday and I feel…I feel so alive. But still not near as alive as I did with Melchior in the hayloft. I don't think I can find that feeling again, unless it's with him. So I will just keep turning again and again; endlessly twirling, until Melchior takes my hand and pulls me from my constant rotation. Then I will feel again. I will be freed from this endless stage of numbness, and all because of Melchior. When I look down on him, from up here, my heart will flutter and skip, like when I was little, but for now when my eyes are closed at night I just lie here, feeling nothing but the wind. The whistling wind. It seems to be every where I go. I feel it on my cheeks, but it isn't enough to wake me up.

A/N: Yeah this was a random one, I don't know how I feel about it, but I figured I'd post it anyways. Thanks for reading! Please R&R!