A new life

Chapter 1

I don't own Bleach (God I wish it was my idea)


The last thing I saw was blood. It was my blood and it all around me and then I saw nothing but darkness. I was alone in that darkness for what seemed like years with nothing to do but think. Thinking about how I ended up here alone with nothing but my thoughts and nothing to live for. For some reason Captain Hitsugaya was on my mind a lot scene the darkness took me. Life had taken us on very different paths, we had come a long way for me calling him Lil' Shiro and him spitting watermelon seeds on me because he hated me calling him that. Although I have no right to call him that now, not after I put my Zanpakutō to him when I attacked him

I still couldn't believe that the reason that I'm here alone in this darkness Aizen my Captain, if I can even call him that any longer. I really should angry at him after he betrayed me for his own needs. But he was part of the reason I worked as hand as I did while I was training I wanted to be just like him. If only I know that he was really a puppet of Gin's Ichimaru that's the only reason I can think of for him to stab me with his Zanpakutō. I think about the moment when I realized what Aizen had done and I find my way out…if I find my way out of this darkness I'll have a scar from where the the blade pierced me. But it's not the scar that I'm worried about I have plenty of them. I'm more worried about how this is going to affect me mentally. I did greatly admired that man and he was forced by Gin into using me and betrayed me.

I kept hearing Captain Hitsugaya voice in the distance. at first it was just telling me "I'm here Momo" or ""you're safe now" and then it became begging "Please wake up, please open my eyes" and as much as I want to open my eyes for him I can't. Or maybe I wouldn't I don't really know. I don't want to see the world that is on the other side of this darkness. Because I know that it would be full of pain. I would have to face what was done to me and try to rebuild my life and relationships that where destroyed by my actions. And yet Tōshirō voice sounds so sad like he's sad. It's almost my actions don't matter to him, he's still my friend. I wounder if I don't open up my eyes will he ever be be happy ever again. I want him to be happy more then I want to hind from everything and that is when I realize it's very cold in the room…wait room.

I felt weight in my legs and arms then everything else and I know that I am awake. I want to put off opening my eyes as long as I can out of fear but I know that I need to just do it. I feel my eyes flutter open and the first thing I see is a soft light and the back of a man's head. I am grateful to see light again but it's the man's head that surprises me it's white spiky hair and I I know who that is.

"Captain Hitsugaya?" I crock my mouth being very dry

He jumped a little turned around and looked at me with a smile on his face. I haven't seen him smile in a long time, I sometimes wounder if I was ever going to see him smile but there it was.

"Momo!" He breathed in surprise "you're awake!"

He took one long step and was right by my side. He took my hand giving it a little squeeze, I wanted to smile but everything was sore. looked up into my eyes I swear that it looked like he was about to start to cry. Tōshirō never really showed emoticons unless he was angry and here he was fighting to keep tears from spilling from his eyes. I looked down at our hands feeling tears of my own well in my eyes.

"How long have I been in 4th Division?" I asked blurting the first thing that popped into my mind and pulling my hand away from his "what happened? The last thing I saw was blood that I think was mine and then opening my eyes and seeing the back of you're head"

I took my hand again and I forced myself to gave him a small smile but I had to looked away from him green eyes. The bed moved so that I was in a slight sitting up.

"A while You remember that Aizen stabbed you?" Tōshirō said to me as I nodded my head "Well I know that you left your room with Gin so I followed you and showed up just as Aizen was walking away with Gin. At first I was shocked to see that he was alive and he told me that I showed up earlier then I should have, but that was because I was able to get past Izuru and he had no idea that he was a diversion. I demanded to know where you were. In one flash step I found you, on the floor in a pool of your blood."

I felt all the color drain from my face I had no idea about that happened after I fell into darkness. I didn't want him to tell me anymore but I know that he was going to tell me everything.

"It turns out that Aizen and Gin had been working together from the moment that Aizen became captain." Tōshirō kept telling me "this whole time he's been using us all to get what he wants. When I confronted him with the fact that you looked up to him, worked yourself so hard so you would be useful to him and was so happy when she finally became your lieutenant. He had the nerve to say that because you admired him so much you where so easy to control. And that was why he pressed so hard for you to be his lieutenant in the first place. And because you looked up to him so much you had no idea who he really was."

He stopped talking letting his words sink in. I was grateful that I had be unconscious for all of that I don't think I would have wanted to have survived if I had been awake for that.

"I lost it" he said as he held my hands really tightly "I summoned my Bankai and I told him I was going to kill him and I had ever intonation in doing that. However he lied to us all about that his Zanpakutō could do. And when I thought that I had killed him he had in fact got to me first and I passed out myself because of the wounds he inflected on me. Apparently Captain Unohana and her lieutenant arrived and learned the truth about Aizen's Zanpakutō. It has the ability called 'complete hypnotism' and that was how he fooled us all."

I realized that Tōshirō had gotten hurt because of me and I found that couldn't look him in the eye without new found guilt and also they made me feel from not opening my eyes sooner so that he know that I was alright. I made a face that I hoped looked like I was in pain anything to get him to stop talking about that had happened.

"I'll go get Captain Unohana" Tōshirō said letting go of my hands "I'll be right back."

I watched him walk out of the room and I released the breath I seemed to have been holding. I felt so guilty I don't know why but I felt a little better now that he was gone. I was just starting to relax a little when Captain Unohana walked into the room looking very pleased to see me awake.

"Welcome back Lieutenant Hinamori" she said to me with a worm smile "How are you feeling"

"Momo, I'm no lieutenant" I corrected her looking at my hands "I feel okay I guess"

I looked up and saw Tōshirō walk in behind Captain Unohana. He looked sadly at me and walk out of the room as everything got colder in his wake. I looked down and felt myself start to cry, it was all just too much for me.

"He hardly ever left you're side" she explained to me kindly "and it would seem the two of you have a lot to talk about once you are healthy enough to leave the 4th."

I nodded my head as she started to exam me. Captain Unohana was really genital with me as she pulled back my robe and examined my wound that Aizen had given me. It's almost healed but I will have a scar but I already had a feeling about that.

"I'm not going to clear you for work for a long time" Unohana explains to me "you have a lot of healing to do and it's not all going to be physical thought. If you're hungry I'll have some soup brought to you."

my stomach made a sound as if demanding said soup.

"Please" I said with a slight smile "I do have a request to make I don't want to go near the 5th division any time soon please don't make me."

"No one will make you" She assured me "not until you are ready, I give you my word"

I felt myself relax Captain Unohana just gave me a small smile and she put her hand on my shoulder have it a little squeeze and then left the room. I pushed myself up a little higher so I could look out the window. It was a beautiful day out in the Sereitei but to me it was just the sun shinning. I wasn't paying attention when Tōshirō walked back into the room carrying a tray with soup on it. He gave me a small smile and sat down next to me putting the try on my lap.

"here" Tōshirō said "They told me you could eat this"

"Thank you" I whispered

I ate a few spoon fulls both of us not saying a word. That was normal for him but not even a little for me. If I wasn't feeling as guilty as I had I would have been talking to him.

"Captain Hitsugaya?" I asked

"Yes Momo" he said looking at me like I had said something funny

I know that he was getting a kick out of me calling him captain every time I addressed him.

"I'm sure you have better things to do then sit here with me and watch me eat this" I said as I took the spoon to my mouth "I'm just going to go back to sleep"

He just sighed at me and looked out the window as if knowing that I was trying to get him to leave. He then put his fingers under my chin and tilted my head up so that I was looking at him.

"I did leave Matsumoto with the paper work." Tōshirō said to me looking me in the eyes "Finish you soup and get some sleep. I'll check on you in the morning alright"

I gave a small smile because I couldn't nod my head because he still had his fingers under my chin. Tōshirō stood up and walked to the door but then stopped and looked at me.

"When you're able to leave the 4th you're going to come to the 10th division to stay" He told me "I'm not letting you go back to the 5th anytime soon."

"I have no other place to go Captain Hitsugaya" I said "I too want nothing to do with the 5th"

Tōshirō nodded once and walked out the room leaving me to my soup and my thoughts. I finished the soup and was thinking about asking for another bowl when of all people Rukia Kuchiki walked into my room.

"Look who's awake" She said as she stopped in front of the bed "I know Renji will be happy to see you up and about."

"That would be nice of you" I said to her "I'm glad that they didn't kill you, that would have broken Renji's heart."

She smiled at me and a slight blush crept across her cheeks.

"It's a shame a bunch of us are going to be leaving for the world of the living" She said to me "or I'd have you come and stay with me until you're ready to rejoin. Although Tōshirō has already put his foot down and you're going to be going to the 10th"

"anywhere is better then the 5th" I started feeling my eyes droop

All she did was smiled at me and it made me feel so much better.

"Good news is you'll have Tōshirō rooms all to yourself " Rukia smiled as she picked up my tray "do you want another bowl?"

"Please" I smiled at her

But I had no idea if she came back because I feel asleep as soon as she closed the door behind her.


I hope you enjoy the rewrite of the story if not please don't tell me I do this for fun and don't need anyone negativity.