All I ever truly wanted was to be loved. I didn't know it at first, all I wanted was revenge for my precious Luka. Taken from me for purposes I will never understand, my wish was nothing to what he had meant to me. But then…After years of suffering to at the hands of that sick monster Trancy, you had come into my life. Given me purpose, I was no longer Jim Macken, I was Alois Trancy, I had a name, I had a reason to be. I was more than a toy, I was the head of a family, and I was the leader of my own life. With you at my side I could have had it all, I could have done anything. I surrounded myself with you, with other demons, trusting my entire faith in you alone.
All I wanted was your love, I wanted to feel the compassion more than just butler and master. The way you looked at me that day, the way as if all that mattered was me, my life, my soul, my being. Down in the deeps of my being you had shifted something that hadn't been alive for many years. You woke my heart, you made me feel again. You don't know the feeling, the feeling you had caused me in, you never will. You would think me a stupid child. A naïve, stupid, child.
All I wanted was your love. The way you looked when you tasted his blood, the feeling of betrayal deep inside of me. You looked at me that way again, the way where nothing else matter, just me. This time though, it was different, it sent a shock of fear down my spine. I was afraid to love you at that moment, I should have listened to that. I didn't, I continued to love you, and I took that foolish step. The betrayal I felt at that time, that time I felt so safe, so…warm. I felt as though everything was going to be alright, as if my life would continue to have meaning. I didn't think you would harm me in this way…
All I wanted was your love.