Well, this is my first fanfic. I just registered recently. Yet I have been reading this site for a long, long time, and have read basically every NGE fanfic. Let me just rant a little about what I hate.
Rei-Shinji fanfics. Did anyone forget that she's part Lillith part Yui Ikari? It's incest. Also, I believe, she possesses no genitals. And they have her so OOC. She'd never really be able to get into a real romance.
Kawuro-Shinji yaoi. Well, I just don't like these. Mainly because, I also believe that Kawuro possesses no genitals like Rei. So much for those damn lemons...
Asuka-Rei yuri. Well these stories just make me sigh. Especially how OOC they are, and how they overuse the "fire and ice" symbolism and metaphors. retch
I also hate when new pilots are introduced, and they always happen to be German or Russian, and be 2D and be paired off with Rei or Asuka for no reason. (Although I'll be foolishly and hypocritically breaking this one and making a new pilot. )
I also despise Rei-Kensuke, where the Shinji-Asuka author is like, "Duh, I guess I need to pair everyone off. Although there's no reason for them to be together, guess I'll just lop them in". sigh
But I'm not one to talk, I haven't written a fanfic yet. Anyway...I guess I see Asuka as the only one for Shinji, only because she's the only feasible mate. Everyone else is either genital-less, homosexual, or family.
Disclaimer: I don't own Evangelion or its characters. Gainax does, and they rock. Who else could create both Evangelion and FLCL.
Zankoku na tenshi no you ni
Shonen yo, shinwa ni nare...
Aoi kaze ga ima mune no doa wo tataitemo,
Watashi dake wo tada mitsumete
Hohoenderu Anata
Sotto Fureru mono
Motomeru koto ni muchuu de,
Unmei sae mada shiranai itaikena hitom
Dakedo itsuka kizuku deshou
Sono senaka ni wa
Haruka mirai mezasu tame no
Hane ga aru koto...
Zankoku na tenshi no te-ze
Madobe kara yagate tobitatsu
Hotobashiru atsui patosu de
Omoide wo uragiru nara
O-zora wo daite kagayaku
Shonen yo, shinwa ni nare
Zutto nemutteru watashi no ai no yurikago
Anata dake ga yume no shisha ni
Yobareru asa ga kuru
Hosoi kubisuji wo tsukiakari ga utsushiteru
Sekai-ju- no toki wo tomete
Tojikometai kedo...
Moshi mo futari aeta koto ni imi ga aru nara,
Watashi wa, sou, jiyu- wo shiru
Tame no Baiburu
Zankoku na tenshi no te-ze
Kanashimi ga soshite hajimaru
Dakishimeta inochi no katachi
Sono yume ni mezameta toki
Dare yori mo hikari wo hanatsu
Shonen yo, shinwa ni nare
Hito wa ai wo tsumugi nagara rekishi wo tsukuru
Megami nante narenai mama
Watashi wa ikiru...
Zankoku na tenshi no te-ze
Madobe kara yagate tobitatsu
Hotobashiru atsui patosu de
Omoide wo uragiru nara
O-zora wo daite kagayaku
Shonen yo, shinwa ni nare
Neon Genesis Evangelion: Episode 24
The Beginning of the End
Ruins of Tokyo 3, Japan
A young girl lay in stagnant waters, staring up through the ruins of a building which must once have been inhabited with happy people. She mumbled to herself as the tears she wanted to shed did not come.
"Mom! Mom! They selected ME! I'm an elite pilot now! Number one in the world. I musn't tell anyone, but I'll tell you, mommy! Everyone is so kind to me, and they make me feel so special and I'm not lonely, even without daddy...Look at me...Mommy...Momma?!"
A gruff voice preceding footsteps upon ruined gravel. "Are you Asuka Langley Sohryu?"
Tokyo 3, Japan
NERV Headquarters, Control Room
"Section 2 Intelligence has just located and taken the Second Child into protective custody", Makoto spoke, facing Misato in NERV Command. "Although it's odd that it took them a week to find her".
"Something must be going on", responded Katsuragi, "The Fifth and Sixth child do arrive tomorrow. I've been told this Nagisa boy will pilot Asuka's Eva, but about of the Sixth?"
Makoto looked down and then responded, "Well, I haven't heard much, other than the fact his Eva hasn't been delivered yet...so I'm not sure. As for now I guess they're making him backup".
Tokyo 3, Japan
Misato's Apartment
Shinji lay upon his futon, gazing up at the ceiling which was supposedly "familiar", yet he had not yet grown accustomed to this place, even after all this time.
"Rei...Ayanami...I feel something about her, something motherly. My mother, Rei...". Shinji pictured his father's cold gaze piercing through his body. Light glinting off his shades as he folded his hands in front of his face, perhaps hiding a malevolent smirk, or something worse.
Tokyo 3, Japan
NERV Headquarters
However, Dr. Ritsuko Akagi was actually looking at that right now.
Gendo stared at her, revealing no emotion but an intense anger.
"Did you know my cat died? I hadn't seen it in a long time but".
"Silence. Why did you destroy the dummy plug system?"
"It wasn't the dummy plugs, it was Rei...", Ritsuko stated.
"You will answer my question, I am disappointed with you".
"You never expected anything of me!", screamed Akagi, heart wrenchingly. Gendo simply stared forward and ushered for the guards to take the sobbing woman out of his office.
Shinji Ikari stood in front of a familiar red Eva, gazing at it as if he were gazing at its pilot. He mumbled to himself. "Asuka...where are you? I need you...".
Need her? But what would you talk to her about if she was here?
"Well...I...I don't know".
You see now, besides she hates you. You remember...after that angel did that to her mind
Shinji struggled with the memories, but simply responded with one word. "Asuka...".
"Awww, my little Shinji, are you wasting away for her? Don't worry, she's been found".
Shinji spun around as the blush rose up his cheeks, and was face to face...well, perhaps chest to face with his guardian Misato. "Oh hey Misato...".
"You seem awfully down", Misato said, as if she did not know the reasons behind his depression, "But don't worry, they're bringing Asuka back to the apartment, and the Fifth and Sixth Child are arrive".
"The Fifth....and Sixth?".
"Yeah, but don't worry, the Fifth has his own apartment. The Sixth will be taking the guest room next to your room, although I advise both of you stay away from Asuka. Teenage girls are difficult to understand".
Shinji nodded and walked away, leaving his guardian worried and confused.
"Don't worry Shinji, you're not the only one experiencing pain...".
Ruins of Tokyo 3, Japan
Shinji stood next to the water, staring at the ruins of the city. With them had gone Toji and Kensuke, his best friends. He couldn't speak to Rei anymore, not after that...
Shinji could see the Rei's giggling as they heard his voice, staring at him with their piercing red eyes.
And Asuka was beyond, him, beyond his bravery, beyond his energy, he couldn't take it anymore. He thought so little of his life that he wouldn't even expend the energy to end it, although sometimes he did think about suicide earnestly.
A humming pervaded the silence as the water slowly lapped against the shore.
A gray haired boy sat upon the shore, humming what seemed to be "Ode to Joy". It was almost beautiful, simply because of its contrast to the utter silence.
He turned to Shinji and grinned. "The song is good, it brings up great emotion. I think it is the greatest achievement of the Lillum culture, don't you think so, Shinji Ikari?"
"Lillum? Wait, how did you know my name?".
"I suppose you are unaware of your fame, Mr. Ikari. I'm the Fifth Child, Kawuro, Kawuro Nagisa".
"Ah, the Fifth? Well, you...don't need to call me Mr. Ikari, just call me Shinji, Mr. Nagisa".
Shinji shivered at the thoughts the name Ikari brought to his mind. Kawuro giggled, "Call me Kawuro, Shinji".
Kawuro and Shinji had been walking for quite a while, and Shinji was feeling quite odd.
I feel something when he is around, something radiating from him, like an intense light
"Something wrong Shinji-kun?".
Shinji blushed and stuttered, "N-No, nothing".
Kawuro grinned and then nodded, as if in complete understanding, then he turned towards the door of his apartment.
I can't stand to go back there...I can't talk to Misato or see Asuka...
"W-Wait..."
"Yes, Shinji?", spoke Kawuro, his back still to Shinji.
"C-Can I stay at your place for the night?".
Kawuro smiled inwardly and then spun around, ushering the Third Child in.
"Sure...".
Neon Genesis Evangelion: Episode 24
The Fate of the Pilots
Tokyo 3, Japan
NERV Headquarters
Gendo Ikari sat behind his desk, his hands folded characteristically in front of his face. Fuyutsuki broke the silence uneasily.
"The Fifth seems to have made contact with Shinji".
"And the Sixth has arrived".
"Indeed....", Gendo smirked behind his hands.
"What do you make of this Ikari", spoke the older man, somewhat frustrated by Gendo's silence.
"It appears, Kouzo, that they have sent us two harbingers, one a harbinger of death, and the other of rebirth".
"Yes", muttered the Sub-Commander as Gendo continued to stare from behind his hands.
Finally Gendo stood up, and spoke to Fuyutsuki.
"Contact the Fifth Child, and have him brought in for a synch test with Unit 02".
Kouzo stared at Ikari, visibly moved.
"Ikari, surely you jest? What is the meaning of this?".
Gendo simply sat back down in silence, once again folding his hands in front of his face, his orange shades glinting in the dull light".
Made uneasy by the silence, the Sub-Commander realized the seriousness behind Ikari's words and went off to make the Commander's orders a reality.
Tokyo 3, Japan
Kawuro's Apartment
Kawuro lay on his futon while Shinji lay on his back, on the floor.
"I think I should sleep on the floor"
Shinji smiled slightly.
"No, I'm staying at your place, I'm fine. I'll be okay on the floor".
Kawuro folded his hands behind his head and looked quite content.
"What did you want to say to me?"
Shinji glanced at the Fifth Child uneasily.
"Wha?"
"You wanted to tell me something, didn't you?"
"So much has happened, since I came. Before this, I lived with my teacher"
Shinji lay completely still, pausing for a few seconds.
"It was calm and boring in those days…I wasn't really doing anything. B-But, I think I was fine with that, there was really nothing that I had to do"
"Did you hate dealing with people?"
"More or less, I guess... But I didn't really care as much. However, I really hated my father…"
Why am I telling all this to Kawuro?
Shinji fidgeted uneasily on the floor and took a glance at the Fifth Child.
"Kawuro, why do you pilot Eva?"
Kawuro paused, and then grinned, "But Pilot Ikari, I have not as of yet piloted an Eva. I am a backup pilot".
Shinji stared at the ceiling and then continued.
"I-I don't know why I pilot this thing…at first I thought it was for my father's respect".
"Good job, Shinji".
"But he was just using me like Misato and Asuka and all the others…betraying me…"
"Only infants need parents…and you are no longer an infant. Stand on your own two feet and walk…I learned to do the same".
"He only called me because he needed me…."
"Don't try to think we can understand each other. For some reason, people think that they can do that". Remember that they can't…Never completely. Never enough….
"…needed me to pilot Unit 01".
"…People…are such sad creatures"
"And then he made me do that to Toji…and after all the things he's done to Asuka, Rei, and I, I don't think I can ever forgive him".
"Good job, Shinji".
"Sorry", muttered Shinji, breaking out of his daze, "you probably don't want to hear any of this anyway…"
Kawuro simply grinned and turned to his side, locking eyes with the Third Child, causing Shinji to blush slightly.
Then the Fifth Child did the unexpected, reaching out and touching Shinji's hand, softly, making him blush even more.
"You try to avoid personal contact of people even in touching. Why are you scared? Is it because that if you don't get to know the other person, that person wont be able to betray you or harm you in anyway? But if you don't interact, that feeling of sadness won't pass away, you must endure. Humans, no matter how they try, they will never completely drive sadness away because all men are fundamentally alone. But you know, you can forget sadness for a while if you interact and that makes life worth living."
"Kawuro…"
"You know, pain is something man must endure in his heart…"
Kawuro grinned as Shinji fidgeted nervously.
"And since the heart senses pain so easily some believe life is pain. You are delicate like glass, that is, your heart is"
"It is?"
"Yes, this is worth my empathy"
"Empathy?"
"I'm saying I love you"
"…"
Shinji stared at Kawuro as the boy smiled warmly and released Shinji's hand.
"I think I was born just to meet you."
Tokyo 3, Japan
"Kawuro Nagisa, Kawuro of the seashore. Records erased just like Ayanami's...".
"Born on the same day as Second Impact", continued Makoto, "The Marduk Report on him was highly classified but I think I can hack into it".
"What, that's".
"Don't worry", Misato's aide-de-camp cut her off. She conceded and looked at the next folder.
"I'll call Shinji and have him greet the Sixth Child at my apartment, and have him move in. What do you know about this, Nao-".
Tokyo 3, Japan
Misato's Apartment
"Naota Kiriyama, glad to meet you. You are the Third, Shinji Ikari, I presume". A tall, gaunt boy stood in front of the door of Misato's place, grinning at Shinji warmly as he stuck out his hand to shake.
Or is he leering at me? He seems friendly enough.
Shinji took his hand, and took a moment to slowly examine the boy in front of him. The Sixth was tan and lean, with odd shades and a blue turtleneck with a black jacket.
He's like a younger version of...father, except he seems friendly...
"The quiet type eh?", spoke Naota as he released Shinji's hand, "So, ready to show me around the place?". Shinji nodded as his hand reached for the doorknob.
He'd spent the night at Kawuro's place, and it had all been confusing to him, he didn't know what to feel about Kawuro. And now another Child? Shinji felt exhausted.
Kawuro and Naota. At least only one of them is coming to live here, I'm not sure what Asuka would think.
"Wait...Asuka", mumbled Shinji under his breath, reprehensively, "Don't tell me she's hom-". A yellow sneaker answered his question, as the redhead tread into his view and peered at him opening the door.
"So, who's this? Could you be the Second perhaps? Your beauty and skill has been rumored of, and I suppose they were true", Naota nudged Shinji friendly, "Shinji you dog, don't tell me you and-"
Naota's question was answered with a harsh slap across the face from an angry Asuka, while Shinji stared, quite frightened, only taking consolation in the fact that the slap hadn't hit him.
His stare wasn't only in fright however, he had been worrying about Asuka ever since she had returned, she seemed rather odd, at times returning to her fiery previous self, at times becoming even more violent, and sometimes she slumped around and hid herself like a hermit, completely devoid of energy
"Asuka..."
Fly me to the moon,
And let me play among the stars.
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.
In other words, hold my hand!
In other words, darling, kiss me.
Fill my heart with song,
And let me sing forever more.
You are all I long for, all I worship and adore.
In other words, please be true!
In other words, I love you!
Fly me to the moon,
And let me play among the stars.
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.
In other words, hold my hand!
In other words, darling, kiss me.
Fill my heart with song,
And let me sing forever more.
You are all I long for, all I worship and adore.
In other words, please be true!
In other words, I love you!
Author's Notes:
Yeah I suck, but first try. And don't worry, it'll get better. I hope.