A/N This is my first Vampire Diaries Fanfiction so I hope you like it. Reviews are welcome!

Chapter 1

I hated lying. I hated being lied to and I also hated having to lie to other people. Matt puts his arm around my shoulder and kisses the side of my head. I force myself to smile but I keep my eyes on the television in front of us.

Bonnie gives me a sideways glance and purses her lips. She had seen my feeble reaction to matt's affections and she didn't approve. Luckily Caroline was still making out with Tyler in my kitchen so I wasn't getting any condescending looks from her.

I swallow and stand up quickly, unable to be in Matt's embrace any longer. 'Anyone want a drink?' I ask as I scurry towards the kitchen. 'No thanks babe,' Says Matt and Bonnie just glares at me.

Caroline is sitting on a worktop, her legs wrapped around Tyler's waist and her arms flung around his neck. He was whispering things in her ear and she was giggling like a 12 year old.

I pour myself a glass of soda and hastily gulp it down. I look at the back of Matt's head from the kitchen. His messy blonde hair looking dull in the dim light. He laughs at the television not having a care in the world, thinking everything is fine.

Bonnie snaps her head around to me and stares at me mouthing, 'You have to tell him!' I sigh and mouth back, 'I know!' I angrily put the glass into the dishwasher banging it closed and storm up to my room.

Why was Bonnie being so pushy? I would tell Matt in my own time when it suited me, it has nothing to do with her. I close my bedroom door behind me and sit on the edge of my bed with my head in my hands.

I didn't think it would be this hard. It's not that I didn't love Matt he was perfect. We had known each other since kindergarten and been best friends ever since. And, when we first got together I was only 16, he was cute and I already knew him so when he tried to kiss me I let him.

I have always enjoyed spending time with him and I don't want to lose him but things had started to get serious. He had started the whole, 'I love you and want to be with you forever' thing and talked of going to college together and having babies and getting married and I can't do it.

The problem was that I am not in love with Matt. When we're together its comfortable and I like it but that's all there is. I don't get nervous if he doesn't call, I don't get jealous if a girl flirts with him and I don't feel lightheaded when we kiss.

I had told all of this to Bonnie a couple of weeks ago and I knew I had to end it with him. I run my hands through my long brown hair and stand up to go back downstairs. I guess Bonnie had every right to be angry with me. I had felt like this for months now and I've been stringing him along, unable to tell him truth as to not upset him.

Just as I open my door there he is. His kind blue eyes glittering and his all American smile shining. 'Hey, what's the matter?' He steps inside closing the door behind him.

I open my mouth to speak but no words come out. Instead my eyes well with tears, tears of guilt. He takes hold of my hand and pulls me close to him. 'Hey, Elena what's happened? Are you ok?'

I bite my lip and push myself away from his embrace and shake my head. He frowns and looks at me confused. 'Elena you can tell me anything you know that right?'

I sit back down on the bed still not speaking a word. I guess it has to be now. I can't lead him on any longer.

He sits next to me and puts his arm around my waist. I wriggle out of it and already he looks hurt. 'Elena?'

I take a deep breath and look down at my lap. 'Matt, I, I have to tell you something.'

He nods, 'Ok, what is it?' He still has that tone of concern in his voice and I can't bring myself to look at his face.

'I'm so, so sorry Matt. And it's not that I don't love you because I do and I always will. We've been friends forever and I don't want that to change. But, we have to change. This, us,' I shake my head and bit my lip.

'Are you, are you breaking up with me?' His voice rises at the end and I close my eyes a small tear falling down my cheek.

As he sees this he knows it's true and rubs his forehead. 'Elena, I don't understand. Is there someone else? Is it because I cancelled our date the other night to be with Miranda? I know you don't like her but her grandfather had just died and I swear there is nothing between us!'

I shake my head and turn my body to face him. 'No, no Matt it's not that. It's me. This is all my fault and I'm so so sorry. I just, I just don't feel like we have that kind of connection…' I hold my breath in anticipation.

I watch his face crumple in disbelief, to him everything was fine. He was the football captain and I was the popular girl and we fit together like a jigsaw piece.

He shakes his head and stands up, 'So you don't love me? All those times you said it you were lying?'

'No Matt! I do love you! It's just not the kind of love you want and I'm sorry that I can't give it to you I really am.' I look down onto my lap again and wipe my tears with the sleeve of my top.

Matt stays silent but I can feel his gaze on me. Just then Tyler opens the door and steps in. 'What's going on?' He takes in my expression and Matt's then frowns.

'Nothing, let's go.' Matt pushes him out the room and leaves me alone on my bed. I hear Tyler asking him questions as they go down the stairs. But Matt simply says, 'I just want to go home, let's go.'

The front door opens and closes and I sigh sadly. In one way there was a weight off my shoulders. I had done the right thing and ended it. Matt knew how I felt and I no longer had to pretend when I was with him.

On the downside I had upset him. Big time. And now I would have to deal with the consequences. Plus, even though I was never in love with him, breaking up with him was still a loss. We had had so many fun times together, he had always looked after me, stuck up for me and most of all loved me. And that we certainly something I would miss.

Bonnie and Caroline run into my room and see my tear stained face. As I see them a whole new wash of tears begin to cascade.

'Oh Elena…' Bonnie sits next to me and pulls me into a hug rocking me gently. I knew Bonnie had just wanted me to tell the truth. Now I had she would stop giving me glares and be back on my side.

'I'll get the tequila.' Caroline says and she goes back down to the kitchen.

'Is it over?' Bonnie asks as I sit up straight again and wipe my tears. I nod. 'Yeah, and I'm glad it is but I still feel bad Bonnie.'

She nods and rubs my back. 'You did the right thing Elena, trust me, Matt will get over it. Soon enough you'll be back best friends again I'm sure of it.' She gives me a convincing smile and I smile back at her.

Caroline comes back in and we all sit on my bedroom floor. 'Are you ok?' She asks pouring the tequila. Bonnie had obviously already told Caroline my intentions of breaking up with Matt.

'Yeah, I think so.' I smile again at Bonnie. 'You know Elena there are plenty of guys out there so don't even worry about it.' Caroline says as she pours salt on the back of her hand.

'I don't expect to be getting into another relationship anytime soon Caroline.' I answer as I put salt on the back of my hand too.

Caroline wasn't purposely being insensitive she was just very, outspoken. She rarely ever thinks before she speaks and sometimes it can sound rather horrible when actually she's just being honest.

She smiles at me reassuringly, 'Well you need one for the Halloween dance which is only 8 weeks away!'

I roll my eyes. Typical Caroline thinking of the school dance before we've even go back to school which unfortunately was tomorrow.

'Right, is everyone ready?' Asks Bonnie and we nod picking up our shot glasses.

'1,' I say. '2.' Says Caroline, '3!' says Bonnie. We lick the salt off our hands take the shot and quickly bite into a lime that Caroline had already cut up for us.

Ergh. The liquor burns my throat and I shake my head. Bonnie coughs and splutters whilst Caroline is already pouring us another.

I laugh at Caroline who seems to be perfectly fine even after the shot. 'Are you planning to be hung over on the first day back at school?'

She rolls her eyes. 'No of course not. We'll only have a couple.' We take another shot just as the front door opens.

'Elena we're home!' Shouts Aunt Jenna obviously back from the movies with Jeremy. She had decided that instead of letting Jeremy get himself into trouble every night with drugs and who knows what she would keep him busy by taking him out and trying to bond with him.

'Shit! Hide the liquor!' I whisper and stand up to go out onto the hallway. She see's me and I smile innocently.

'Hey! Yeah Bonnie and Caroline are here but they're just leaving now. How was the movie?' I lean over the bannister still smiling.

Jeremy doesn't answer but simply walks past me straight into his room. I look down at Aunt Jenna who closes the front door behind her. 'Yeah, it was fine.' She looks at me exasperated and sighs.

I smile at her reassuringly. 'I'll be down in a minute.'

I go back into my room and Bonnie and Caroline have cleared all the evidence of our underage behaviour.

'Thanks guys, for everything.' I hug them both. 'It's what we do Elena we're your best friends.' Says Bonnie and Caroline nods along with her.

'Right well we better go,' Says Caroline slipping on her jacket. 'Yeah,' I nod and lead them downstairs.

'Bye Jenna!' They shout as they leave. 'Bye girls!' she shouts back from the kitchen.

'I'll see you guys tomorrow,'

'Yeah I'll pick you up at 8:15! Don't be late!' Say's Bonnie getting into her car.

I wave them off and go back inside. I close the door and lean against it sighing. 'Everything ok?' Jenna walks back into the hallway.

'I broke up with Matt.' I look at her and give her a weak smile. 'Oh Elena,' She hugs me. 'I'll make us some tea.'

We spend the next hour or so simply talking. I tell her how I felt about him and how we broke up and how even though I'm glad it's over I can't help but feel sad. She listens and gives me advice, telling me stories of herself as a teenager and how she dealt with her boyfriends.

I loved Aunt Jenna. She was only in her early 30's so she understood how to connect with me. Ever since my parents had died 2 years ago she had been there for both me and Jeremy. However, it was times like this I wished my mom was still alive so she could tell me about her life at my age and how she dealt with her boyfriends.

When Jenna first started looking after us she had no clue what to do. That's why it was so easy for Jeremy to go out and get himself messed up in drugs. I always abided by her rules and some of the rules I had to help her make up. But she was getting the hang of it. Jeremy was a difficult case and neither Jenna nor I have any idea how to handle it but, we are and I can only hope Jeremy lets us help him.

When we were both tired we went upstairs into our own rooms. Jenna insisted sleeping in the spare room, still not able to sleep in the bedroom of her dead sister and brother-in-law. My mom had been her older sister, always taking care of Jenna but now it was Jenna's turn to take care of us.

As I changed into my shorts and tank top I smiled to myself. Her pot of tea and honest words had really helped and I was lucky to have her. I drifted off into a deep sleep unsure whether Matt would talk to me tomorrow or not but for now I was ok and I would try my best to stay friends with him.