Chapter 1- This got cheesy

I find myself in the middle of my room thinking about my accomplishments. I have a room full of shelves full of awards I have won. Teen Choice Awards, Emmys, Golden Globes and many more.

Tonight I am attending the American Music Awards. I am nominated in two categories and am also presenting an award for Album of The Year. For my two years in Hollywood I certainly have come far. Oh, I forgot to mention that I am also performing my new single Sexy Dirty Love.

I am on my way to the hotel where I am getting ready. Where I would be getting ready if I wasn't stuck behind a car slower than a snail. And of course there is no chance to get past it because everyone decided to drive somewhere right now. Fucking red lights.

I finally arrive and go to my glam team. They start working while I rant about traffic. Soon my hair and makeup is done and I'm ushered to put on my dress. It is a red dress with a cutout under my boobs. There are small cutouts on my waistline, too. The dress is very flowy and looks amazing. I quickly slip on my shoes and a red ruby necklace.

"God, you look amazing," my stylist and best friend Tessa says to me as I walk out the bedroom, where I changed.

I look in the mirror and see that she indeed didn't lie. I do look amazing.

Next thing I know, my bodyguard is walking me to my car. Oh, my beautiful black custom made BMW. I love this car. We drive to the red carpet and after waiting for a little while I am given the signal to walk the carpet.

Jordan, my bodyguard, opens the door and I step out of the car. As soon as I do that, there are cameras flashing at my direction and I feel at peace. I love it. I start walking the carpet as they give me directions as to where I should go or step. I then make it to the interview area and give a few interviews

"Clary, as we all know you are nominated today and also performing. How does it feel?" asked Lydia Branwell, a reporter who I've talked to so many times I've lost count.

"It feels great. It is my first time being on the red carpet of the AMAs and I am of course a little bit nervous but I'm sure it'll pass," I answered.

"So your performing your newest single Sexy Dirty Love. I have to say that that song has an amazing vibe to it and is definitely a chart topper," Lydia said.

"Thank you and it really is. My manager called me this morning saying that my single is number one on Billboard Hot100," I said happily.

"That's amazing and good luck tonight."

"Thank you and you too."

I walked to the next interviewer and talked a bit more about my single and my outfit.

Soon the madness of a red carpet was over and I sighed with relief. Someone knocked on my sholder and I instantly jumped a little. I turned around and saw Will, one of my songwriters.

"Hey," I said smiling.

"Hey," he replied, "how's your album coming together. You have recorded the songs we wrote?"

"Yeah! And I have to say they are lit. This album is going to break some records," I said confidently.

"I am so proud of you," he said hugging me.

"I'm proud of me, too," I answered sarcastically and he started laughing. I joined him a few moments later and went to find our places.

I got to enjoy a few performances before my category came up. Emma Carstairs and Julian Blackthorn walked up on the stage.

"This category is definitely one of my favourites. It shows how many new artists there are every year. I really enjoy watching who wins this category. That way I know, who to write my songs to. I like new talent and I hope you do, too," Emma, a famous sonwriter said.

"Here are your nominees for Best New Artist..." Julian added and videos and pictures of all the nominees for this category started on the big screens.

In the bacround of my video, my first single Games was playing. Photos of me performing and stills from my movies ran on the screen. Soon the video ended and the attention was back on the best friends standing on the stage.

"And the winner is..." they said while opening the envelope. My heart was beating so fast that it had to be heard by someone.

"CLARY FAIRCHILD," they announced loudly in the microphone. I think my heart stopped beating. I stood up shocked and Will hugged me tight. As I started walking towards the stage they announced that I also won in my other category- Summer Song Of The Year with Sexy Dirty Love. All this time my song Games played in the background.

"Wow! I don't know what to say. To say that I'm shocked is an understatement. I'm thrilled and so overwhelmed that I... Wow! Just wow! Well this is awkward. It's like I'm supposed to say something inspiring right now but my brain just isn't working. Well here goes nothing.

I wouldn't be where I am right now without the people supporting me and having my back. I never in my wildest dreams could've thought that I'd be standing here and recieving an award in music. I'm an actress for God's sake. But here I am and I want to thank every single one of you in here and out there. For believing in me.

This got cheesy. I'm gonna stop now before I make things even more awkward or start crying. Wow! Thank you guys!" I said and gave the audience an air kiss.

I stepped backstage and they handed me my second award and started taking pictures of me. I posed for a few minutes and then I had to go change.

I'm sitting in my dressing room and watching the screen. I'm wearing black sheer pants and a matching "coat". It has red flowers on top of it. Underneath I am wearing a black bodysuit. I am also wearing black high heeled combat boots. Tessa put my hair into a high and voluminous pony tail and reapplied my red lipstick. I am waiting for my signal to go backstage to get ready for my performance. Ah! There it is.

I walk backstage and take my microphone. They announce the next performer and I walk on stage. The stage lights up and the music starts. I start singing and am lost in my music.

Hittin' me up late always be blowin' up my phone

I'm lying awake wonderin' why I'm still alone

Lord knows I am sinning, please forgive me for my lust

Sending pictures back and forth

Babe, I'm craving your touch

You're my new obsession

Let go of any hesitation

Baby, be my new addiction

Intoxicate me gently with your loving

You got me so high

Pull me closer into you and watch our bodies intertwine

I feel so alive

You know what I'm thinking of

Got me dreamin' 'bout that sexy dirty love

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Now you're teasing me and I can't help but do the same

Whispering through your phone, now you're driving me insane

It's like you're getting off on messing with my sanity

Hang up, come on over

Let's play out this fantasy

You're my new obsession

Let go of any hesitation

Baby, be my new addiction

Intoxicate me gently with your loving

You got me so high

Pull me closer into you and watch our bodies intertwine

I feel so alive

You know what I'm thinking of

Got me dreamin' 'bout that sexy dirty love

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

You're my new obsession

Let go of any hesitation

Baby, be my new addiction

Intoxicate me gently with your loving

You got me so high

Pull me closer into you and watch our bodies intertwine

I feel so alive

You know what I'm thinking of

Got me dreamin' 'bout that sexy dirty love

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

Sexy dirty love (dirty love) (sexy, sexy, yeah)

I finished my performance and I was welcomed with an applause so loud that I just stood there on the stage with a goofy smile on my face and tears in my eyes. Soon it started dying down so I walked off the stage.

Another outfit change awaited me since I was also presenting th Album Of The Year. Now I am wearing a pink crop top sweater and matching sweatpants. I had nude high heels on and Tessa opened my hair and sprayed some hairspray to make it have more volume.

I yet again walked backstage and took the microphone they handed me. I walked on the stage and everyone cheered for me.

"As you all know, albums give us a little insight to the feelings of the artist that releases their album. I know it all too well since working on my upcoming album has been stressful but still a fun experience. All of us, artists, like to spill a little bit of our own thoughts into our songs. Wheter it's about a bad breakup or feeling confident. Here are your nominees for Album of The Year." I said and yet another video edit started playing.

"And your winner is..." I said while opening up the envelope. I read the name and smiled seeing who had won.

"JULIAN BLACKTHORN FOR HIS ALBUM RUNE MAGIC" I said happily in the microphone. Julian walked on the stage and I handed him his award. He hugged me tight and whispered

"And we meet again. You did great. Proud of you" in my ear.

I laughed and congratulated him. He then started his speech and told the little joke he told me about meeting on the stage yet again. He finished his speech and we walked off the stage.

I went back to my dressing room, took my clothes and awards, grabbed my phone and car keys and walked out of the building to the parking lot to my car. Luckily the parking area was away from the cameras so I didn't have to worry about papparazzi following me. I didn't have anything against them I just sometimes was not in the mood for them.

I got home in half an hour because I quickly stopped by at a grocery store to buy some food. As soon as I got home I put my clothes in my closet and went to my award room to place my newest achievements on the shelves. Before placing them I opened my Snapchat to post there.

"I can't belive this but I won two categories tonight. Look at these two shiny babies. Ok, let's put you away now."

I grabbed one of them from the ground, stood up and placed it on the shelf I bought for my music awards. I then took the other one and like the proud mom I am I placed it gracefully next to the other. I then stepped away and finished the video and put it on my story.

I snapped a picture of them and wrote the caption "wow" before adding it to the story.

I then started to enjoy my night by wiping my makeup off, going to bed and watching the award show again on my TV. God, my speech was so awkward.

I quickly went on my Instagram to post some pictures from tonight. First, the one from after receiving my awards. They sent those pictures fast. Second, a picture of my performance when I stood on the stage teary eyed and smiling. And lastly, when I was in my dressing room wearing the pink outfit and laughing as Tessa tried to tame my hair.

I closed my eyes and thought about me moving to New York next week. I haven't told anyone that yet because I want it to be a surprise. With that thought in mind I fell asleep.