They see me
pretty phony face
dim-witted
just another career
my parents
never truly valued me
shimmer was the victor
my twin sister
won last year
so I volunteered
this year
74 is my lucky number
but I was injured
by their scathing words
never loved
always worshiped
because of shimmer
she used
to love me
everyone did
but shimmer was
my best friend
watching her games
tore me
ripped me
clawed me
hurt as though
it was me there
instead of her
the day I came home
from school
and saw her
cut that 12 year old
apart mercilessly
I ran away
when she came home
I cheered
but my 16 year old soul
was so scared
I was scared
of my own sister
I couldn't stand
that victor's house
so I didn't go home
I got drunk
and slept in alleys
so scared
just a week ago
I volunteered
to get away
I want
someone truly good
to win
like rue
innocence
must be
protected
because the day
my sister won
was when I
when my sister killed
that girl
was when I
shattered
I can never
be whole
again
so now I
just let my
heart
stop
do you miss me?
You murderer
you killed me
with your cold
soul
(A/N: if you are confused, in the last 5 lines, she wasn't talking about katniss, who physically killed her. She was talking about her sister who killed her heart.)