Faith Hill - You're Still Here Lyrics print version

(Aimee Mayo/Matraca Berg)

Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
And I know it couldn't be
But my heart believed
Oh it seems like there's something everyday
How could you be so far away
When you're still here
When I need you you're not hard to find
You're still here
I can see you in my baby's eyes
And I laugh and cry
You're still here

I had a dream last night
That you came to me on silver wings
And I flew away with you on a painted sky
And I woke up wondering what was real
Is what you see and touch or what you feel
'Cause you're still here
Oh you're everywhere we've ever been
You're still here

I heard you in a strangers laugh
And I hung around to hear him laugh again
Just once again
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away

"Last call for flight 917, all passengers for flight 917 should now be on the plane," blared over the airport loudspeaker, but Meredith still couldn't move. This was it. If she got on that plane, it was all over. Her entire life for the past 7 years would be over, just like that. No, actually her entire life had ended exactly two weeks ago on a night that had started out perfect but quickly turned out to be the worst of her life.

"Meri, do you really have to stay at the hospital tonight? We were supposed to start trying for our baby tonight," her husband asked.

"I'm sorry baby, but I have to stay and monitor Mrs Rosegreen. She almost didn't make it through the surgery."

"Well, why can't one of your interns stay and do it? Why does it have to be you?" he whined.

"Because this was my first major, solo brain surgery, and I really want to see it through. Why don't you run and get us some dinner, and we'll start that trying here in our on call room," Meredith said as she leaned in and kissed him on the lips.

"Well, I can't say no when you ask me like that. I'll run to that little Italian place that you like so much and pick us up some pasta. I'll be back as soon as I can," he answered as he gently kissed her lips.

"I'll be waiting," she replied in her best seductive voice. Her husband didn't answer, he just grinned at her, blue eyes shining, and took off at a run out of the hospital.

The rest of the evening passed in a perfect blur. Dinner was left to become cold, as baby making took over as soon as he returned. It was this next decision that will haunt Meredith for the rest of her life.

"Baby, why don't you go home and get a good nights sleep. There's no point in both of us being tired and sore in the morning," Meredith muttered in her post love making haze.

"I'll just stay here and sleep with you," he muttered back.

"No, go home and rest. I'll be there first thing in the morning and we can pick up where we left off," she said as she gently kissed his lips.

"Once again, I can't say no to that. I guess I'll see you in the morning. Love you baby"

"Love you too"

If she had known those would be the last words she would ever speak to the love of her life, she would have expanded, told him how she never wanted to live without him, but instead she answered as if she would be telling him she loved him every day for the rest of their lives. She still wasn't sure exactly what occurred in the following hours. She was unable to remember the exact way the next events unfolded. All she could remember was realizing the love of her life was gone. Just like that, she would never look into those deep pools of blue again.

Meredith was broken out of her reverie when an airline attendant asked her if she was boarding the plane or not. She just nodded and walked silently through the door, down the hallway, and onto the plane that was going to take her to her new life.