Ever since I was little… I decided that the only thing that would make me happy is my mother's approval of my existence.
This was all I ever wanted and all I will ever hope to achieve. I couldn't even think of a smart way to do such a thing. All I knew was that she hated my grades, dancing, and my existence. Every day I practiced to perfect myself so that she would never feel that way about me.
I studied hard and became a straight 100 student. Whenever I got a 99 mom would scold me and tell me that she wished she'd had an abortion. Whether she knows I'm in the room or not, my mom says to herself all the time how she wishes I was never born.
I glanced out the window to see a smirking boy walk up to the front door. For a split second I thought it was my best friend and first love Deidara but instead it was a new boy with white hair and purple-like eyes. (if I got Hidan's eye color wrong please tell me… im relying on google images.)
I rushed downstairs knowing mom was away on a business trip leaving me the entire mansion to myself. If my mother worried about cleanliness then I would be scrubbing everything in sight right now, but she's not. Before I could get to the door my best friend Deidara waltzed in through the front door.
"Where is the boy with the white hair?" I asked making Deidara look at me oddly before glaring at me.
"Quit acting like such an idiot, yeah." He growled and pushed me back a bit so he could run upstairs to his room. My mother made him his own, full of every kind of thing imagined by him that he may desire at any time. Deidara is a famous singer in a band called Art Blast. The only other members are Itachi and Kisame so it's small but sweet.
"Why did you come here today? Shouldn't you be working on one of your new songs?" I asked chasing after him. He's one of mother's company's best singers since my mom works for a talent agency. She actually owns the whole studio.
Deidara has always been a fan of music ever since we met when he was eight and I was six. He never takes me seriously but I always do my best to help him with music and anything else he needs help with. My mother scolds me for this as well. All she does though is call me a retard who can't compare to him, so I don't know what stupid thing I'm doing that's wrong.
"And shouldn't you be working on your dancing for your stupid recital, un?" Deidara retorted and began to play video games. I smiled and nodded. He can be harsh but the boy helps me to remember what my goal is. It's to make mother smile at me.
I've been dancing ever since I turned six. It was a way I thought that I could succeed in to make my mother happy. Instead she told me that I don't compare with the older girls in dance. I didn't get discouraged though. Here I am at sixteen and I'm still dancing.
"Your right. I'll begin practicing in the entrance hall!" I grinned and ran down the steps to the hall and played the song I will be dancing to. The song is I Need You To Love Me by BarlowGirl. I was hoping beyond hope that the song would touch her but I'm not sure if it will.
"Sakura! You got some dude coming over to tutor you in dance, yeah!" Deidara shouted making me nod with a light blush and smile on my face. I care about Deidara a lot. You could call him my first love when he hardly cares about my existence. I was wearing a plain white dress that from the torso was plain and tight but when it came to the waist the dress spread out with petal-like flaps of white cloth bound together so that my butt or front wouldn't show. I also had on white tight ballet slippers.
I began dancing in a slow sad form like a fallen angel then slowly sped things up as the song began to link into the chorus. I could feel the different emotions I was portraying and also the bitterness that hinted with each move. "Very good." A voice said as a man walked up to me. I didn't hear anyone enter the house and this boy looked scary somehow. He also looked to be Deidara's age. "My name is Sasori. I'll be your tutor." The man smirked.