Prologue

Return; Illiana Blackwell

Only months ago, my best friend and lover was killed by the hands of Kira. At that same time I learned that I was pregnant with his child; L's child. Sure to be a prodigy and bring about peace like his or her father. But seeing as how the world needed that hero now, it was up to me to travel to my home, Whammy's and choose L's heir, something I'm not exactly sure I can do.

But I have to, and as it comes down to the sheer fact that I myself need a hero. Well, maybe I'll just have to wait for my child to be born. Maybe then, it won't hurt as bad.

I was next in line, but I refuse to put myself on that pedestal when I know the other successors can do better, when I know that it was L's plan all along to skip over me, to keep me safe. If you're really wondering, yes, it is hard. Hard to travel to the place where my life truly began and deliver the news that killed me, in turn, possibly killing the people who will hear it.

My little brothers are extraordinary human beings, all of them special in their own way. Little Near, he should be no more than eleven now. My quiet little angel. He had always loved to sit alone and toy with his puzzles and games. He's so much like L i find myself wondering if they are related, i guess i'll never know. Near is tied in placement with Mello. My chocolate monster. If he had a choice that's all he would eat. That little blond is sneaky though, using his brain and tactics that would usually be frowned upon to get the job done. But I'm still proud of him. And Matt, my Matty. That boy is a technical genius, for someone with his face in a video game all day, he should be. This kid is too weird. One day he was rummaging through the toy chest and found a pair of green goggles, hasn't taken them off since.

I look forward to seeing them again, letting their love ease my pain a little. A still find it hard to sleep most of the time but maybe once i'm home i'll slepp fine.

I leave this for myself, to remind myself of what needs to be done. Also to remind me that Kira is out there, possibly right under my nose, and i will catch him.

"Are you sure you don't want me to go with you? I can, I'm sure Light won't mind. I mean, I really don't want you to go alone…"

Matsuda, this man has been with me since it happened, even before then he's been my loyal friend. Even when I rejected him and wanted no one around me. I closed my laptop and tucked it away, standing up from my seat. "Matsu, you're rambling."

He blushed, "Sorry." He gently took my hand, "But I mean it. I don't want you to go alone."

I felt myself blushing; I sort of hoped that Yuki would hurry up before I turn permanently red. "I have to do this alone Matsuda. It's the only way I can get through it."

He kissed my forehead, still blushing, "Be careful."

"She'll be fine you big baby." Yuki gently moved the man out of the way, this woman was truly my best friend. She broke rules and hopped a military jet to come take care of me; only a really good friend would do that.

She put some pills in my purse; "Here's some Dramamine just in case ok? I brought you some water and candy too. There's a nurse on board in case you need anything and Light pulled some strings so you'll be first class all the way there and get whatever you need."

"Now your rambling." I hugged her, thankful to have people watching over me like this, "I'll be fine, I promise."

Another warm hug from Matsu and I was on the plane. "Here's goes something."