AN: A little one-shot that came to me the other day, not the best I know, but thought I'd share it. Warning, time skips at random. Meh.

I tucked a stray curl behind my ear, staring into the sky with sadness.

He would come back right?

I gently scolded myself for just the thought.

He would. I knew he would.

I don't know what I would do if he didn't. He was my life.

Just the waiting seemed to be getting to me. Hardening me.

The thought made me shiver with fear. Why my mind was dead bent on this depressing subject…I don't know.

I wondered if he thought of me.

Maybe…

I guess that's when the wall started to form. The way the world looked now was so much different. Duller.

Would it ever get better?

I didn't think so.

I couldn't even control myself.

He was never coming back was he?

No.

My life, my love, part of him. Gone.

But not all of him. Some part lived on.

In his son.

The sudden force of this change in mind impacted me with a hard deadliness.

So I guess you could say now all our love was now was memory. A happy, distant, thin memory in this cruel world.

No one would have guessed.

I wondered if he thought of me in that far off place. Simple, troubled me.

I could only wish.

But the thought comforted me.

Our love would never be gone. Not really.

I could see him, sense him, everywhere. No matter where I was.

He was in the sky, the hills, the sea, and especially in his son.

His kindness, love, patience, it lived on so strongly it hurt me sometimes.

The change hurt but comforted me.

Just the thought of his non-existence made me break down. My mind slip away even further into the nothingness.

But I didn't want that. No, I suppose no one did.

The sad thing is I had no say in my sanity. My steady aging. My leaving of this world.

I could be with him again. My love, my life, him.

But I would also be leaving a piece of us behind.

The thing was, though he may not see it at first, this was best.

It had been like this for so long. Touch and go.

Now it was just the wait. Waiting for the final go.

The last say in love and life as far as I was concerning

AN: Depressing. Yes. But I'm pleased with it. Like I said one-shot, but I appreciate any reviews or favorites :) Love you guys!

Write on,

Jordy