Hi, this is me again and my always depressing Kiliel fics, lol. I am so sorry. This one is super-short and I think not as good as the other two though, but I hope you like it. Please review!

I don't know why it should be only the two of us.

I don't know why I was the one there to see when the orc ran its weapon through you and dropped you to the ground, and you were there, fighting for life, gasping for your last breath. The usual flicker of fire in your eyes, gone. I can still remember every detail, so vividly, no matter how much I tried to forget, the many times I pretend that it didn't happen.

There were tears on your eyes that time, Kili.

What was it for? Was it the pain?

Sometimes I wonder how dying feels like. Maybe I will experience it one day, before seeing you again at last.

You are somewhere safe now. Nothing can harm you anymore.

But I still don't understand. Why should it be me that you were trying to save? I would rather die for you, a thousand times; than having you do it for me.

I have nothing to live for, Kili. As soon as the realization dawned on me, that I don't even have anything left for me anymore, not even you; I know I have lost my will to continue on living.

I lost my place among my kin. I'm sure neither yours will accept me. I have no home to return to, you were the only thing I have. Your arms were the only place I could call home.

Return to me, Kili.

Our moment together was so brief. I'm starting to doubt whether even fate had allowed us to meet or not. And neither of us expected it to end so fast.

I miss seeing that mischievous twinkle in your eyes. I miss seeing you smile. I miss your recklessness. I miss being able to talk to you, when we were back in Mirkwood. We could go on for hours, talking and laughing about nothing.

I want to spend all of my life with you.

I know even if you had lived, our moment together will end one day, with you leaving me; but then I will live the rest of my numbered days in peace.

I want to travel to distant places with you. To meet new people. Have new experiences. We could see a firemoon, you told me that you saw it once and how beautiful of a sight it was. I want to take you out on a walk beyond the borders of the forest, to sit somewhere secluded at night and do nothing but talk and gaze at the stars. And you can tell me everything. Your dreams, your secrets, your fears, your deepest and darkest thoughts...

You gave me your runestone, Kili. You gave me your promise. A promise that you will return to me, that for once you will forget about your recklessness and be responsible because for the Valar's sake, you have me waiting here, for you.

Return to me, Kili, amrâlimê.

I told you I didn't know the meaning that time, but now I think I do.