I Shall Not Merely Die
'I love you.' Those words, it's always those words. They have the power to rip me up, to tear me apart.
Because they are lies.
They do not love me, they love him. The real Ritsuka. The one I am not.
Seimei says I'm real. I used to believe him.
Mother says I'm not. I believe her now.
Father ignores me. I don't know what he thinks.
Yayoi will comfort Yuiko, they don't need me.
Kio will keep going with his life.
And Soubi…
Will always stay with Seimei.
"You aren't MY Ritsuka!"
Crunch. That's all I feel as her fists pound into my torso over and over again.
"You can't be!"
Splat. That's my red blood hitting the walls and floor as she cuts me over and over.
"MY Ritsuka would never say such a thing!"
Th-thmp, th-thmp.
That's my heart, it's still trying to push blood through my veins.
What blood is there to push?
I'm dying.
With that realization I felt no fear.
Because I shall not merely die.
I shall be with her, my mother, forever.