Faithful Desire
Disclaimer: I own nothing :0( (only what happens to be in my imagination) "Chloe" is based on the film "Nathalie" which was written by Anne Fontaine.
I have to give a special "Thank You" to Hate Being Abducted By Aliens...Girl, you know your thought are in this, as well as mine. Your pretty little head is full of wonderful, inspiriring idea's... so thank you so much :)
Unknowingly she had caused the girl to fall in love with her…
Knowingly the girl had caused her to fall in love with her too…
But was she in love?…or was it purely a deep wanting desire? What difference does it make? Is love not a form of desire? Is to love, not to want? Desire is wanting. Had their situation made way for craving what they could not have? They had both been lonely, empty. Emptiness creates longing… longing to belong, longing to survive, longing to be loved, to be needed. To be wanted. The girl had desired Catherine, and Catherine had, in turn, made Chloe her own forbidden desire. Some of our desires are secret and sometimes our secrets come from our desires. And Chloe? To Catherine, Chloe was both. A desired secret and a secret desire.
Chloe belonged exclusively to Catherine. Catherine had now accepted what she had been blind to previously. Chloe had tried, in vain to make her see what she saw, but her attempt had ended in tragedy. For both of them. Chloe lost her life and Catherine lost Chloe, the person that she depended on, needed, more than she cared to admit to at the time.
Her betrayal was never physical. So, because of that Catherine didn't feel any guilt concerning her continued relationship with the pretty blonde. She welcomed her dreams, she willed the night to hurriedly seduce the sunlight of the day so that Chloe would return to her. That isn't to say that Catherine was proud of what she was doing - dreaming of a girl that would never now be anything more than a memory, but she wasn't filled with self loathing, wasn't disgusted. Was she was going to announce it to whoever cared to listen? No, she wasn't going to do that.
Putting to one side, their night of forbidden pleasure, Catherine and Chloe had shared nothing more than stories and…exactly two kisses. If only the second kiss had ended differently. If Michael had not re-entered her bedroom, had Catherine not seen his reflection, would she have stopped the kiss? Or would she and Chloe have ended up in the bed that was still warm from her "lover" sharing it with her son moments before?…Would Chloe have died? Catherine knew Chloe was meant to save her, and by her death she did so, but had she lived… would her Angel have saved her still?
She knew that David was well aware of that one time, that one night…but of the multiple meetings that they shared in her mind? Of the hours that Catherine spent worshipping her own private Aphrodite in their rented by the hour temple? Of all the times Catherine wished Chloe wasn't dead?
Of all of this David knew nothing.
And he would continue to know nothing because Catherine was going to remain faithful. To the girl that meant so much and so much more.
To Chloe.
The End