FULL SUMMARY:
Life for Rosemarie Hathaway has never been easy. Once a run-away, turned disobedient student who went rogue after the forced awakening of her beloved mentor. All to do the impossible-turn a Strigoi back to there original state- and be rejected. Then Accused of murder and on the run. There she found love all over again - only to have it ripped away all over again.
It has been 4 years since LS. Dimitri and Rose have broken up and Dimitri went to Russia while rose was sent out to Montana to teach at St. Vladimir. But not all is as it seems. When Rose is sent to retrieve Dimitri from Baia, he notices that she has changed. Her fiery temper is gone, she no longer laughs or has snarky comments. She flinches when he moves too quickly. Lissa has all but abandoned Rose due to spiritual darkness. Christian won't go against Lissa. What happened to Rose?
"Maybe I just ran out of band-aids, I don t even know where to start. Cause you can bandage the damage. You never really can fix a heart." Fix a Heart - Demi Lovato
The term 'dying' has many different meanings. It can be literal, in which the person in question becomes deceased, or it can be figurative. The figurative meaning can be emotional or perhaps it s meant to be more of a loose term. Bent to fit the momentary meaning of the user. . . much like the words love or hate. You can 'love' something simply because you feel the joy of possessing it. Or you can 'love' a person or a place or even a thing just because you can. The actual emotion doesn't need to be present in order for one to use the word. Same for Hate .
I learned what it felt like to emotionally die the day the love of my life left me. I remember the emptiness of how it felt when he told me he would always 'love' me before turning away and walking out of my life without so much as a backwards glance or a moment of hesitation. That was the day I learned that he may have claimed to 'love' me, but the actual emotion was never really there when he lied to me. And that's what he did, because how do you consistently break the person you 'love'? That s easy enough to answer because there is no such thing as love.
My mom 'loved' my dad, but she left him. My mom 'loved' me, but she abandoned me. Dimitri 'loved' me, but he left me. Christian's parents 'loved' him, but they became soulless monsters and tried to turn him into the same. Lissa 'loved' me but she threw me away. And I thought some small part of Adrian 'loved' me, until the day he hit me.
Someone once said that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
I have to say that I disagree.
Because I learned the hard way that LOVE is a four letter LIE.