I walked down the lane felling fried out of every step, my head was hung low not bothering to see what was infront of me. My teal hair covering my eyes, the freezing cold wind passed me leaving me shivering to myself. There was no one in sight, every one was inside their cozy home enjoying themselves. I glanced into someone's window to see a girl with short brown hair smiling happily at her PDA. I signed and kept walking. It was nearly Christmas, lights were hanged up on every corner of this cruddy town. I felt as if I have to carry all the pain of the world.

My adopted dad passed away unexpected last Christmas, avoiding Christmas isn't an option since I'm reminded of it where ever I go .He was the only one that loved me since everybody just see me as a worthless child . The sound of thunder filled up my ears, I stopped walking and looking into the grey clouds. Little droplets of rain started falling on my pale face. I'm been depressed ever since my adopted dad's funeral, I can't remember the last time I smiled. It wasn't soon until I was completely soaked, the weather was mild. Rain hitted down on my skin like rocks.

I continued walking the same slow pace, the harsh weather was nothing to me. I would freeze to death if I don't find shelter, but I have no home. My mum left me since I was born, i was now in the middle of a shopping center car park. I was shaking unbearably, I ran up to a car and with my both hands tried to open the locked car door. " DAMMIT!"

I ran up to another car, the sound of my heart beating fast was taking over the sound of rain and storm. I ran up to cars after cars hoping one of them is unlocked and let me in, does God hate me that much ? I could feel tears rolling down my hot tears , it was hard to tell since I was crying in the rain. My pale hands were dead cold, I can't feel any muscle in my body. This is how I'm going to die I thought This is how I'm going to DIE, in the rain.

My teeth were chattering out of control, I ran up to a big black van. God answered my prayers, the door was unlocked. I was too shocked,I just climed in slamming the icy cold door behind me. I sat in the backseat curcled up to a ball. I dugged my head in my knees and whimper softly to myself. I ran my numb hands through my wet hair, I looked out the window to see it was hailing. Thank god so much I wasn't out there. My heart rate did not slow down , I have a feeling I should leave before the owner of the car come back . I stared up in the sky, tears were forming in my eyes, but sucking them them in were possible.

Why I did I have to be alone ? Why don't I have a family who cares for me ? I prefer being stabbed than this, this type of pain doesn't heal. It just like being stabbed right in the heart but you have to live with the pain for this enternity. I was so tired and shocked from everything, the last thing I remembered was crying before I blacked out.

Where am I ? Why am I so comfortable ? Am I dead and now finally resting in heaven ? I couldn't open my eyes, I didn't want to. I was afraid that I was still in the owners car. How long have I been sleeping ? I slowly moved my right arm to firgure out wear I am. My fingers connected with the strangest thing ever, I felt like a soft cotton filled cube. I sat up with my eyes open , my hands was holding the object in my hands. I was holding a pillow ? I can'tbelieve it , am I still dreaming ?

I looked to see me under a pink clean blanket surrounded with a bunch of pillows. My heart was pounding hard, I usually sleep on the street and steal food after my adopted father's deah. How I miss a comfort of a bed. Everything was unbelieveable. This had to be a dream , I pinched myself hard to a point where I bleed. How am I here ?

I looked down to see I was wearing a black shirt and sweat pants instead of my wrenched gothic dress. I had no idea what was happening, I was filled with mixed emotions. Suddenly someone bursted in the room, I was startled. I wasn't used to company I moved to a corner with sweats rolling down my neck. Before my stood a girl with brown hair. I recognised her from before, she was the girl my age who was smiling at her PDA from before. I had no idea what to do.

" Thank God, you're awake " the brunette signed with a heartwarming smile on her face.

Is she going to send me to the orphan? Cause it was hell there. I wasn't used to this caring thing, I glanced quickly at the window ,maybe I could make an escape from this messed up situation. I leaped and took a dive but was stopped by the brunnette. She jumped on me, I let out a scream. She pinned me down, I had no energy from what just happened. Fear filled my dark charcoal eyes.

" Never DO that again! You could of killed yourself " said the brunnette to my face with a sincere tone.

" What do you want ? " I screamed harshly, she rolled her eyes and yelled " DUUUUNNCAAANNN!" with her head facing the direction with the door. I tensed up, is she calling for back up ?

" Let me go ! PLLEAASEE! "I begged shaking, she just watched me squirm under her.

Out of nowhere a guy with a mohawk bursted in the door, what is going on ?

" Courtney,let go off her " montioned the dude.

Courtney aka the brunnette jumped off me with her hands on her hips. I quickly managed to stand up without tripping, I walked backwards a few steps, my heart was pounding fast, I could feel it throbbing out of my chest from fear.

" W-What D-do you want ? Y-you can't take me for h-hostage, my family is dead " I somehow managed to chocked out but my voice cracked.

" We're not going to hurt you " Courtney said trying to be understanding.

I never trusted anyone in my life before, I just had to do something, I kicked Courtney in her stomach making her clunched to the floor, and I headed for the window. Dude with mowhawk was caught off guard, he immediately reacted. I felted someone squeeshing my pressure point on my shoulder and before I knew it I blacked out again.