Trinity's War
Disclaimer: You think I own this? I think I heard that psychiatrist down the road calling your name. The song is Christina Aguilera's and the characters belong to those brothers with the weird name (Wachowski?). And also I think Warner Bro's. But not mine.
Title: Trinity's War (prev. I Remember)
Author: That oh so wonderful person writing the story- hmmm, I wonder who it could be. Oh, wait- me!
A/N: I'm not sure if this is going to work, as at the moment I don't have a clue what I'm going to write- I'm pretty much sat here listening to the song and hoping something will come to me. Well, I lie, I know it's about Trinity. But I don't know when to set it- before or after Neo, before or after she's unplugged? I guess if you're reading this I've figured some of it out. Please R&R, I have trouble keeping the peeps in character so if I've done anything wrong there just kindly point it out and I'll sit down and study it again. Anyway, I've just made this two pages only by writing this so I'm gonna get on with the story now. Enjoy!
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I'm sitting in the mess hall, a cup of water in my hands. I'm shaking. It's those dreams again- the ones that bring back my fears, my pain- my past. The ones where I remember.
Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in the war that she called home
Never knew just where to turn for shelter from the storm
It hurt me to see the pain cross my mothers face
Every time my father's fist put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon
I remember my father, his fist meeting my face. I remember lying awake at night, listening to the screaming, the crying. I remember see the bruises on my mothers body when she said we'd be ok.
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday
And I'm ok
It still hurts. The bruises have gone but the past is still fresh in my mind. Every night I dream. And every night I cry inside.
I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
People ask why I don't talk to others more, why I don't let people in and hide myself away. It's your fault. You made me afraid; showed me how to scream inside and whisper out.
Echoes of a broken child screaming please no more
Daddy don't you understand the damage you have done
For you it's just a memory for me it still lives on
You don't understand why I screamed. You don't understand the pain. You've forgotten what you did but I still feel each bruise. It makes me angry.
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
I still remember how you kept me so afraid
The strength is for my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I pray I look back at yesterday
I miss my mother. She loved me. She protected me. She felt the pain and she knew the tears. Together we knew them like our best friends. So I pray she's ok.
It's not so easy to forget, all the marks you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And everyday afraid to come home in fear of what I might see, next
I remember when she died. I remember the knife. I remember the blood, the blood on her, the stairs, the floor, the ceiling, on me. I remember the fear.
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday
And I'm ok
I never cry anymore. If I cried I'd never stop, the pain flowing forever out of me. But now I have Neo. He doesn't understand right now, but one day I'll make him. And one day I'll be ok.
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A/N: That's it, hope you liked it. It's not the best I've ever done, but I love the song so I figured I should post it. PLEASE review, as the other songfic I did (which was way better) has two reviews, which I think are by the same person. So review this one and then go check out my other fic, I'll hit back (prev. The Pain)