Memories
My first avengers/captain America fic! And it's the obligatory Bucky Barnes feels fest! Please R&R ((Because I'm very nervous.))
Memories
For a long time he remembered nothing but the cold. And blood.
He remembered nothing but the bliss of the cold and the faint copper tinge of the blood that would always spill, always, always. It was either his own blood or someone else's, but the blood would always spill.
He would never really fail, for failure meant pain and pain was something he never wanted to be reminded of again.
For a long time he thought he had no other memories, other than that of the cold of cryofreeze and blood, opposite in every way, icy and cold and hot and warm as the blood would drip down his arms.
He thought he had no other memories, because he wasn't allowed to hold on to them, assets had no memories, they only were there to serve their masters...
But sometimes, sometimes when the asset let his guard down ,the memories would return ,fill his mind with warmth -so different from the icy cold of cryofreeze and the heat of the blood ,something that was never felt before ,because they would always find out-the asset is malfunctioning –put him on ice-he's been out of cryo for too long-then wipe him and start over again- so even if they were the self-same memories, the asset would think them as new, Bucky would understand that after he finally broke free, when he finally stopped being the winter soldier, but his favourite memories (from those which he could remember anyway) where those memories ,those memories that the winter soldier would remember ,and exude in their warmth before he was ripped apart again .
Memories of warm tomato soup on cold days, memories of mom and pop and Stevie at the dinner table saying grace, memories of a tough brown uniform that fit perfectly, of a set of dog tags pressing up his chest ,of Sargent James Barnes 32557-of a young black haired girl hugging his legs and crying "Don't go Boo-Boo !" And of a Big blond man looking at him as if he had seen a ghost and saying "Bucky?"
He would remember these memories and let them warm his soul when the cold and the heat would threaten to suffocate him.
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