Last Resort
I don't own Gundam Wing or this song.
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a f*** if I cut myself bleeding
As Trowa stood in front of the board and Catherine threw the knives at him, he wished that she would miss and get his throat or his wrists, or he'd do it himself. Sometimes he wish he could die.
While throwing the knives at her brother, Catherine wondered if she should be using them on herself instead.
After she did another mission, Midii longed for her death besides the lives of those she was trained to hunt down.
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a f*** if I cut myself bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outa sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Heero hated himself for all the mistakes he's made. He was in his gundam again, wondering if he should throw his life away now or just try to live with it.
Relena sat with her back against the window. She wished she was stronger. Sometimes she wondered if she was better off dead.
Cuz I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fne
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
As Duo sped faster and faster on his motorcycle, it bothered him how everyone who got closed to him died, whether it was on a battlefield or in relationships. Love is a battlefield, he told himself. First his young friend, Father Maxwell, Sister Helen and he almost lost Hilde. Why couldn't he die instead?
Hilde was in the same boat. She wondered how she ever fell into OZ's trap and believe all the lies they told her. If it were'n't for Duo, she'd still be living this lie or die by the gundams. She wasn't' sure what was worse. If she died while giving the data to Duo, it probably wouldn't have mattered.
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry!
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils.
Quatre was playing a song his piano to help with the pain. This time, it didn't work. He got up and slammed the door down on the keys and picked up his violin. He couldn't play it either and he slammed it onto the piano, breaking it.
Dorothy hated the way she felt with war. If she thought it was so beautiful, why she didn't she fight herself? Was she afraid? Afraid of losing her life or taking the lives of others?
Cuz I'm losng my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind.
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
Wufei knew he had no right to pilot Nataku. He knew he wasn't all that strong for the mission. He couldn't even save Merian from dying.
Sally wondered, for the life of her, just what the heck she was doing helping the gundam pilots when she got nothing in reutrn. Especially when she started to have feelings for Wufei.
I can't go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a f*** if I cut my arm, bleeding!
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Millardo wondered how he ever got the nickname "Lightning Count." He wondered how he would go against his father's wishes and displease him. Instead of ruling the country toward peace, he cost the lives of so many people.
Noin wondered if she really did have what it takes to get the job done and do what she was supposed to. How she could grow close to Zechs and fight with him at the same time, wondering if his motion was correct or not.
Cuz I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying.
His Excellency Treize Khushrenada picked up his glass of wine and sat it back down. He wondered why people called him "Your Excellency". What was so excellent about him? He only talked and never acted. He gave orders that he wouldn't do himself.
Lady Une couldn't make up her mind. She was two people in one body. Why couldn't she just die and end both of the souls inside of her?
I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's alright
The End. This songfic is dedicated to whoever has contemplated or knew someone who has contemplated suicide. I hope you can find a way to ease the pain without taking your life.