Like we never loved at all
Chapter 1
A/N: songfic for all you SS/HG fans! I love this song. And it just fit.. Warning, its long. Lyrics in italics. This will probably be a couple chapters long, because there is a lot here, kind of like a long songfic. by the way, i dont own harry potter or this song!
Severus and Hermione had been sneaking around for almost a year when Severus had broken up with her for her "own good," but he still loved her more than life itself and he wishes he'd never done what he did. Hermione is heart broken and when she sees that Severus has "taken an interest" in a woman she has never seen before, it breaks her heart.
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"How dare he!" She whispered as she watched the love of her life court another women. No one had known of their secret relationship, but he had moved on too fast.
FLASH
"You can't honestly say you don't love me!" she cried to him, not a week earlier.
"I can, and I have." with that he left her, heart broken and miserable.
END FLASH
You, never looked so good, as you did last night, underneath the city lights, there walking with your friend, laughing at the moon, I swear you looked right through me.
She watched them, laughing, talking, an holding hands. As they walked by Hermione, she tried to look as if she hadn't noticed them or cared. She did notice that he didn't even look to her though. Severus shook his head, he had been wrong to do this but she looked like she was dealing well. Hermione let a tear fall and glanced back.
But I'm still living with your goodbye, and you're just going on with your life
She let the tears fall as she punched the nearest building, and then collapsed crying. Her hand was pouring blood. She didn't see him glance back at her, or the worry in his eyes. Rom and Harry ran back to her and stood her up, whispering kind words to her.
'That should be me' he thought, 'or was it me, that made her do that?' he looked back at his date.
Hermione finally made it into the Three Broomsticks, but as fate would have it, "they" walked in, "Fuck!"
"Great!" Harry said. "Snivellus"
These words would have hurt her a week or so earlier, but now, just knowing he was in the room made her want to cry.
How can you just walk on by, without one tear in your eye, don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Their eyes met for a brief moment, and Hermione fled to the sanctity of the bathroom to cry and throw up.
"Kyra, my dear" Severus said pulling a chair out for his date, and sat across from her, right where he could see Hermione, but when he looked her way, she was gone. Kyra was in some deep lecture when Hermione returned pale and sickly looking, but when she saw him looking at her she stiffened up and walked back to the table.
Maybe that's just your way, of dealing with the pain, forgetting everything between our rise and fall…
"I'm going to go back to Hogwarts guys, I'm not feeling very well, enjoy your day. They said their goodbyes and she turned to leave.
"Miss Granger," she cringed, where was the tender Hermione she used to hear.
"Are you feeling well?" He looked a little worried.
She stared at him, anger flying through he veins, oh, now he cared!
"Why the fuck would you ask, you don't care how I feel." Even Hermione was surprised at the language coming out of her mouth, but she didn't show it.
Severus was shocked, he wanted to scream that he did care, that he loved her. "20 points from Gryffindor for cockiness and foul language."
Hermione turned to leave, and as she shut the door she looked back at him, there was pain in his eyes, but she knew there was in her eyes too. "Well 30 points from Slytherin for being a limp dick bastard!" she slammed the door.
Severus was speechless.
A/N: good enough place to stop. Don't worry, the whole thing should be out tonight, you just need a break between, this is a long song. Please review! Ill update faster!