Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!
I don't know what it is about you that has captivated me so. Is it your golden hair or daring brown eyes? The way you smile and the way you show your every emotion without thought? The fact that you are so free, with little to worry your heart, is that it? I cannot say.
I watch you with your friends and my heart grows numb, like it can't decide whether it's overjoyed to see your smile or if it's shattered to see that smile is not directed to me. I wish you would smile at me like I was a friend instead of an enemy. No, not just a friend: something a little more. Please… I think to myself at moments like this, Smile at me like that…just once…please.
What makes me want your smile so bad? What makes me want you so bad? You and I are so different. Just like fire and ice. You have everything: friends that care, goals to achieve, and a life to live… and I'm jealous. Just like you are jealous of me for being rich and powerful, but trust me, it's nothing compared.
What stops me from being like you? What is it that keeps me from you?
Pride.
I make fun of you and your little friends because of it. I work endless hours to keep it and in reality, I hate it. In truth, and it hurts me to say, I can't bring myself to do without it. Pride is what keeps me from embracing that word, "love". It keeps me from saying those three words. Why can't I just say those three simple words?
I love you! I love you, I love you, I love you!
…Damn it, I love you…
Why can't I say that? Is it because pride is greater than love?
I hope that one day, I can throw away this pride that binds my heart. When this day comes, I'll say those three words to you. I'll say them and hope you accept them…pray that you accept them.
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This is a moment to celebrate! This is my first one-shot and my first yaoi fic and my first completed fic! dances happily I was really bored and kind of tired this morning when I began this (I always write best when I'm tired…but it's never very long before I fall back to sleep). I'm still struggling on if I should keep the last paragraph and if I should continue and write more chappys. What do you guys think? Well, I hope you enjoy this little ficcy! Read and Review!!
-B.