Hey Peeps well here's another story 4 you, sorry I haven't been here for a while but there's been a lot happening so anyways I will continue the others but I'll just write this for now ^_^

So yeah, this story is based on Harry/ Luna-

They are so perfect for each other^^ ever wonder why at the end of OotP Harry only opened up to Luna? It so tells you something. So basically it's just a kawaii coupling fic

Anyways on with =^.^=

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::DISCLAIMER:: Of course I own Harry Potter I'm even the Queen no wait, I AM THE QUEEN -_-0 so not likely, all J.K's

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Summary: After Sirius funeral Harry feels alone, well except when he's with Luna Lovegood. [Harry/ Luna]

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Here Without You

By: Irish Pixie*

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"It happened so fast, how could anyone stop it?

Let alone say Goodbye

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That is a regret I shall always carry

Never being able to say goodbye

He deserved more

So much more

And now I look around the room today

To see they think so to

It's hard you know

Not being able to love anyone,

In fear that your love will kill the next person

Like it has today

But why should you care?

He's dead your safe

Worked out perfectly didn't it?

I mean he's an dangerous escaped convict

But did you, any of you

Take the time to think, "Hey maybes he's innocent?"

Well he was

And he suffered you're cruelty for it

But I'm not here to point fingers

I'm here to say Goodbye

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Sirius was my friend, my Godfather and my father

He was always there for me,

Weather running from the law

Or in the middle of important business

Now I may have not know Sirius as long as some of you

But I can say I have never turned my back on him

He said that was the one thing that hurt the most

Walking into a room,

Knowing that they rather be somewhere else

Like all of you right now

I suppose you all rather be at home with your families

But you came anyways

And for that I thank you

Now why you came I'm not sure

But I won't hold it against you,

If you go up to Sirius grave and spit

I just ask not to disrespect Sirius

You can disrespect his image

His memory

Everything he stands for

But don't disrespect him

Cause he won't want that

He just wanted to have a good time

After all he was Sirius

Prankster to the bone

Could never handle anything to serious

Which completely baffled me, Cause wasn't that his name?

Sirius

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All I know is that he was a good person

And loved to smile.

Every time I went over, I had to be smiling or I wasn't allowed in

He could always make me feel better

And when I was down,

He put aside everything to make sure I was better

He really was a good friend

And I think it's unfair that he was stuck in a world with people like you

You couldn't understand him

You couldn't open your ears

Or your heart

To listen to his pleas

You couldn't even take the time to put this funeral together

And I know where ever he is now

He's be smiling

He'd smile at our misfortune

He'd smile at our ignorance

Hells he's just smile for the sake of smiling

And look at me,

Look at us?

Fretting over nothing

He would laugh if he could see us

All he wanted from me was to be his Prongs Jr.

Graduate

And live life to the fullest

I'm not sure about you, but that is not the words of a guilty man

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In his letters Sirius always told me a couple things

To take nothing from no one- and to stick up for others

To take care of myself

And to expect the unexpected, and when that happens to welcome it with open arms

I'm not really sure what that meant, at the time

But now I'm here standing in front of all of you

And I guess it just shows to prove how little we can control life

And I'm not really sure why you even asked me to speak

And I'm not sure if I even helped

I just wanted everyone to see Sirius in my eyes

And not in some ridiculous article in the Daily Prophet

And to Sirius I hope you create as much hell as you did here,

Up there

Good Bye"

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After saying his speech Harry Potter backed down from the bench, away from the thousands of people all crowed into the field in Hogsmeade, all here to say good-bye

Sitting in the first row he sat, away from everyone and listened

He couldn't believe he was gone

Or most likely couldn't except

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Albus Dumbledore, head master of Hogwarts School of witchcraft and wizardly- stood as he looked at his star pupil. Smiling sadly he strode over to the podium before beginning his speech

"Now I'm not sure if my speech will be as effective as Mr. Potter's but I'll try-

At this he earned many nervous laughs from the crowd, all probably watching Harry as the moved.

-Sirius Jackson Black, was a friend of mine and was on of the most loyal people I now today-

As a boy he defined the hat demanding to be put in Gryffindor where he acts of friendship was one of the greatest I have ever seen-

But it was that gift that got them killed-"

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At that Harry looked up from his perch to give Dumbledore a murderous look, both he and Remus seemed to notice cause Remus put a comforting hand on Harry's shoulder and Dumbledore's brows furrowed

"Clearly I am upsetting some people -he glanced at Harry- so I'll just skip to the point, for his acts of bravery Sirius Black has been awarded a Order of Merlin first class. Along with the Merlin staff, and as June 24 three days before Mr. Blacks death, Sirius was cleared of all charges and reinstated a citizen of the magical world." Said Dumbledore as he looked around the enormous crowd to see many blank faces

Maybe Harry was right; some people just came to see if the ex-convict was dead or not. Looking back at Harry and Remus in the front row- he saw Harry slouched in his seat. While Remus eyes brimmed with tears as Harry shrugged him off

He watched as Harry stood up and walked away from the podium, from everything

Down the hundreds of rows of people he walked head held high, ignoring their stares

And out the door

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Dumbledore sighed as he handed the awards over to Remus [in a professional manner] and the ceremony continued until finally Sirius coffin was lowered into the ground

There were many tears, from the order, from the Weasley's, and from old friends. It was a beautiful ceremony, it was only a shame Harry walked out on it all

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Harry sat on the top of the hill, watching the town below. Well one part in particular- the ceremony. He was honored that so many people came.

Probably over 3000 but it didn't really matter, what good would it all be without Sirius?

None

That's why he left

He couldn't stand to be in a room with thousands of people all pretending to like Sirius-

Then there was Dumbledore,

The fraud, he WAS the one who helped Sirius get into jail

And now here he was today acting all high and mighty

He hated it

Not only that, but the Weasley's: his favourite wizarding family

All pretending to care- he knew they didn't trust Sirius

They believed the lies

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He knew what would happen next they would all say their goodbyes and then go over to him and try to comfort him

They would say it was not his fault

They would say that Sirius went on his own

That his sacrifice was for the greater good

But he didn't want that,

No

He wanted to be told it was his entire fault

That he should get cope and get over it

Partly the reason why he was looking so forward to seeing Malfoy this afternoon

But even he, the cold-hearted Slytherin

Was walking on egg shells around him

He grit his teeth,

His fist clenching so tight that his knuckles turned white

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He watched as a blob of red went over to Sirius grave- the Weasley's

How he wished to see that up close

But he wouldn't chance it

Not to be dragged into THAT world again

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Where was Sirius when he needed him?

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He was loosing it,

He knew it

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But it really was his fault that Sirius was gone

Why couldn't anyone see that?

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Would he be locked up in Azkaban?

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He couldn't take it anymore

The guilt was building up

Eating him from the inside out

Savoring the taste

He could feel it

Rising from the pit of his stomach

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He felt a salty liquid drip from his eyes

Tears

He hadn't cried since he was 4 and Dudley threw him down the stairs,

He was in the hospital for three weeks for that

He had cried cause he had lost temporary feeling in his legs for a week or two

And here he was

The guilt and anger weld up inside

Until he couldn't take it anymore,

And there was a catastrophic explosion

Combust from the inside

It felt so good,

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Curling up into a human ball, he rocked back and forth

Trying to sooth his worries

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Sirius

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No one should have to got threw this

No one should have to feel pain

No one should have to suffer

No one

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He remembered her; her long blonde locks, her dazed blue eyes. That sense of uniqueness, her odd sense of fashion the beer cap necklace

All forming into an image

Luna Lovegood

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"You shouldn't cry you know?"

"Why the hell not?" asked Harry annoyed by her calm voice that silkily flowed off her lips

"Dunno, it just doesn't suit you" she said as she sat up in the tree above, her legs swinging as she looked down at him

"Yeah well a lot of things don't" said Harry as he sat up his eyes were dry, as he had run out of tears to cry- his elbows were perched on his knees as he leaned against the tree trunk- straining his neck to look up at Luna

"I suppose so"

"Yeah" said Harry as he looked back at the field- which was slowly emptying

"I liked your speech, it was very well composed- had the characteristics of Sirius all in the right places" he heard her say

He felt his heart ache - Sirius

But then it felt better as she smiled - Luna

"Well it was written for him, wasn't it"

"Right again- are you sure you're Harry Potter?" asked Luna jokingly- well Harry supposed she was joking but because of her tone he couldn't really tell if she was serious or joking, maybe neither

"I changed" he said simply as he looked away- though there was no cold meaning in it [as he had been giving everyone] no tension, just a blank

Just how he felt

"Yes you have, look a lot like Sirius with that new hair do- I mean some of the people even thought You were Sirius" said Luna giggling, though tit was in more of a manner of talking to her self

Luna, was certainly one weird witch

"Well then they're blind" said Harry

"Maybe - but you really do look like him, looks like you walked into his body and came out him. Well except the eyes of course. No those are your mothers, am I right?" asked Luna

"How'd you know?"

"Ginny told me, were friends you know" she said and he could detect a sense of proud ness in her voice, he just had to let out a small smile

"Ginny eh? She can't keep a secret if it killed her, she's as bad as Lavender and Parvati" he said

"Oh don't say that, she was drunk- you see she likes to get drunk a lot. That's how I made this necklace for you so fast" said Luna as she hopped down from the tree. Landing perfectly on her feet she stood in front of Harry.

Straighten her outfit; which was a long black suede skirt, that went to her knees and a black tee that was v cut and there was also gloves that went up to ¾ of her arms just below where her sleeves ended. But the fingers had holes so they poked threw. She had a long navy blue silk scarf on that was for fashion wise. Her butter beer cap necklace, and socks that were stripped black and white and hid under her skirt. So Harry couldn't tell where they ended and she wore black leather army boots with a 3-inch heel.

Her hair was a whole different story as the normal waist length platinum blonde hair was in a side ponytail on her left side of her head as she had a purple ribbon in her hair.

It was defiantly made into Luna style, but it looked good on her. Well at least Harry thought so

Shuffling threw a bag that was slung over her shoulder her produced a butter beer cap necklace "here" she said as she held it out

Harry was baffled as he looked at her out stretched arm with the home made necklace, smiling he took it and slipped it over his head so he now wore an identical one - next to Luna's

"Thank you Luna"

"It was nothing really, I just didn't want Ginny wasting all those caps" she said as she got that dreamy look in her eyes again

Harry was glad she wasn't wearing those fake glasses; cause Luna really did have beautiful eyes

"So you staying with the Weasley's still?" asked Luna as she looked at him with her haunting eyes

"Yeah, till the house elves clean out Sirius old house. I've been permanent moved from the Dursley's when they found out the abuse they were giving me" said Harry as he looked out over the hill again - the sun was setting

"Well daddy's going on a trip this summer so I'm staying there for the next little while until they can find me a better place you know with Voldemort and all" said Luna as she drifted off, she seemed to do that a lot

"You could always stay with me after, cause I mean I know I don't like to oppose on the Weasley's when ever I have to stay there, and Sirius mother's house had like 60 rooms" said Harry also drifting off

"I couldn't besides Ginny and her family has already been so nice to me already" he heard her protest but he was to busy memorizing every detail on her.

From her clothes to her hair to her body and last her features.

He felt his heart thump twice as hard as his stomach did little flops

Could he be falling for Luna?

I mean he knew he had a small crush,

A sense of protection and admiration

But actually be falling in love?

He was only 16!!!!

But then again just one look at Luna proved all theories of age wrong

He loved her,

Hells that would take some getting used to - he could just see it now "Um hey Luna you would of never guess but I love you"

He laughed at the thought

"Excuse me? " Snapping out of thought he saw Luna hanging in the tree again but upside down, her hair falling over her face - how'd she get there?

"What?"

"You said something, I'm sorry but you were mumbling I never heard" said Luna

"Oh I said nothing" said Harry

"Are you sure cause I heard you say something..." she began but Harry shook his head

"Hey Luna what did you say about the Weasley's?" asked Harry

"Oh well I wouldn't want to hurt their feelings by leaving" said Luna as she swayed her body back and forth like a giant pendulum

"Yeah that's true but I would really like it if you stayed" said Harry as he put on his pair of meaningful eyes and Luna sighed

"Oh alright, as long as you go down there with me to tell them" said Luna as she hopped down again, but her landing wasn't so great cause she landed right on Harry - well more like he ran and caught her

"Um thank you" she said blushing as he put her down. Meanwhile He could also feel the heat rising up from the back of his neck

"You're welcome" he whispered as he watched her fiddle with her necklace and he looked down at his owned with a small smile

"What's wrong? "He asked with a tint of concern

"Well I also made Sirius one - as he said he liked my necklace when I met him that one time, so here it is" as she pulled out another necklace and Harry fingered it with his forefinger

"Thank you Luna" he said softly and she smiled slightly

"Anything for you" she whispered as he looked up and engulfed her in a big hug, tears streaming down his face

Only this time she said nothing as she slowly hugged him back,

And for a minute everything seemed perfect

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Well that's the End of Chapter 1 ^_^ and I know it might not make sense but you'll have to wait for next chapter for more explanations ^_~

So please review and you'll get another chapter soon I want at least 5 please

Till next time

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Irish Pixie*