Positive

by uncomplicatedButterFLY

AH, a little OOC. She's just taken the most important test in her life. It could make or break everything that she's worked so hard for. What happens when the results aren't what she was expecting? Will she be able to deal with the consequences? One-shot.

AN: Hey guys! I had some free time and had this urge to just write. I know it isn't much and is probably one of my worst so far, but whatever. I just needed to get it out of my system. So read and review. And try not to hate me so much, yeah?

Positive?

My whole world was crashing down on me. I couldn't breathe, couldn't believe what I was seeing. I continue to stare down at the insulting piece of plastic, silently willing it to turn negative. I don't know what went wrong. I did everything right. So why is it all going wrong?

My brain refuses to think any thoughts at this moment. My peripheral vision is all but gone and the silence is now so loud that it is unbearable. It felt as though the world had forgotten all about me. I felt lost and confused. Time was still ticking and the world was still spinning yet here in the cool space of my bathroom, nothing existed. My hopes of spending a happy and normal Christmas with my family had just gone down the drain, along with the hope that I was not currently creating and providing life for a little human in my womb.

All hope was gone.

Yet somehow it didn't matter; the pregnancy, the complete and utter feeling of loss and confusion not even thoughts of what the future may bring. I was pregnant. It was the cold hard truth. I couldn't tell my I definitely couldn't tell Abe.

I knew exactly how he would handle this, in fact he might even romanticize the pregnancy, make it seem more 'endurable'. Telling him wouldn't just ruin his life, it would condemn him. He would drop his whole life. Forget about all his hopes and dreams and move here to Ireland with me. He would love me, care for me and support me through every stage of this pregnancy. He would dedicate his whole life to me and this child we were bringing into the world. We'd probably be married before the end of this month. He would be the best father and husband.

That's why I couldn't tell him.

Despite the fact that Abe would give up everything for me in an instant I couldn't tell him. It would be the end of everything he'd worked for, it would ruin him. He doesn't deserve to have to permanently put his life on hold. Abe needs to be happy because his happiness is my happiness. I could get through the next 9 months of my life alone and miserable as long as he was happy.

He'd never need to know...