I don't own blue seed, or it's characters ( yet :-) )
This Fanfic has nothing to do with either Momiji, or Kusanagi. Gasp! Ok, I lied, maybe a little bit of Momiji and Kusanagi, BUT NOT MUCH! This fanfiction is for Ryoko Takeuchi. Reason #1 because she's one of my favorite characters, #2 no-one knows a whole lot about her in the first place, so I can let my imagination roam a bit, and #3 because I want to. There are 3 perfectly good reasons and I am very proud of them, now...to the story!
Ryoko's POV
Remembering the first day I joined the TAC is like thinking of a nightmare I try every day to forget. It wasn't that others were cruel or intentionally judgmental, but I could see right through them. I felt so unqualified, so immature; some of my new co-workers had even been in business longer than I had been alive; that's what made them angry. I was to be 2nd in command of the TAC and I was only 25 years old.
I can't help but think that if they had only given the position to someone older, someone with more experience, someone else, that Kaede wouldn't have left. I blame myself so much for that day, for everything following that day she left; but I could never let anyone know that. I have to prove I belong here, that even though I'm young, I can do my job better then anyone else. I have to prove that to everyone, and I have to prove that to myself.
Some nights so many thoughts rush through my head so fast, it's like I'm not thinking at all. I get lost in who I am, and who I'm suppose to be. Those are the nights that I can't sleep, and the day that follows is like a car crash; everything just breaks down at the same time. This is one of those days. I don't have these days often, but when I do, memories flood every thought I have; until I'm reliving them one by one.
Today I have the day off, and I can just sit here and wait, though I know nothing is going to happen. Until tomorrow, I'll probably do nothing else but think. It's not as boring as it sounds, I haven't had a day where I could just, think, in a long time. I don't know what needs much thinking about, I can't change choices I've already made, and I can't think about a choice that hasn't yet been presented. But, you never know, maybe I really do just need a day to do nothing but think.
OK if it sucked tell me (nicely). If not, review anyway…………..
I know it was short, but most of my opening chapters are.
More chapters to come, don't know how many, it depends.