Why Didn't You…?
By: MasterMind v.2.0
Pairings: Err…I guess there could be some…somewhere.
Warnings: OOC Crawford alert. The bastard has to have a heart SOMEWHERE!
Disclaimer: I now have $10.00. Getting closer to Schuldig's pants!! XD
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Why?
Why didn't you
Tell me?
You could've told me
Anything.
Why didn't you?
I would've helped.
I'm helping now,
Aren't I?
The voices were plaguing you
I knew that
They've destroyed you though.
Not even I could've seen that.
My Schuldig.
Why didn't you
Fight back?
I walked into
Your room
And hear your
Voice
Inside my mind.
It's never been this
Weak before.
//Bradley…what do ::cough:: you want…you…damn American?//
I lost it upon hearing
Your common referral
To me.
Even on the edge,
You still keep
Your attitude.
Brad, you damn American
How many times had I heard
That one?
Quite a many.
For once,
I have a return.
//Schuldig,//
My voice cracked here
I remember that
Too choked up
Too full of emotions
//You damn German, don't give up.//
A statement, not a question.
Your voice rung
Just a bit louder
Then
Within my mind.
//I won't Brad.//
I wont.
Then
Why couldn't you've
Told me these things
Sooner?
You've now caused us all
Pain.
Nagi's desperately
Unfocused.
Everyday, other broken object.
I can't see
Anything
Now.
And
Farfarello
Has a
Headache.
You'd be laughing now,
Joking about how you
Caused Farfarello pain,
Therefore you must be
God.
But you aren't.
See what you can do?
Don't fall, Schu.
Don't fall.
You're standing on the edge.
Don't fall.
You fell once
And we helped you
Then.
Now it's your turn to fight.
Who would have thought.
The carefree, manipulative
Telepath
At the mercy
Of
A 16-year-old
Child.
Her life for
Yours.
She's awake.
And you're almost gone.
The doctor just left.
You'd fallen into shock.
At what, I wonder.
First shock.
And then,
A coma.
What happened to you?
The 'all-powerful' Schuldig brought down?
What happened that night?
I watched you break
Down to your very
Soul.
Waking her up
Killed your shields, and left
Your mind unprotected
The voices took over.
What were they saying?
Your screaming hurt.
But your anguish hurt more.
I stared at you,
Just laying there
In bed.
You looked fine.
Then you quivered once,
And lay still.
You'd tried to talk to me.
//Brad…I…//
Then you faded.
You fell.
That was a week ago.
I sit,
Next to you,
Watching you sleep
Just like I did
Last week.
Just staring.
There is no need to talk.
I glance at the machines
Keeping you alive
They're so cold,
Next to your warmth.
Not that I would know.
Those machines are
Unbearable to be around
Every beep
Reminding me of you.
I leave,
I had to.
I found myself in the living room,
Just staring at your CD's.
Quietly, my mind goes over
What song you played last.
It won't leave me alone.
Dragging everything
Back away,
I put the music on.
And cry.
Yes, I cried.
What happened to that
Carefree life
We had
And that look in your eye,
'I'm innocent'?
It's been replaced with
A dull gleam
A dull pain
A mechanical existence.
I let the music
Flow over me
Wrapping me
Up in my
Memories of
You.
There was something I wanted to,
Was going to,
Tell you.
But I couldn't.
Now I can't.
You're still alive,
But am I?
I bang my head
Against my wall
And stay there.
Why didn't I tell you,
Schu?
Why couldn't I?
Why didn't I?
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Yes! Rampant OOCness. Sorry, but when I think too hard people tend to change personality. No, sadly Schu never calls Brad a damn American, but it seems a very Schu like thing to say. So…love it? Hate it? Call it miso, and eat it?
Tell me!
~MasterMind v.2.0