There's one person who has always been there. She's my best friend. Took me into her home when I had nowhere else to go. She always had my back and I know she always will. I just hope she knows she could come to me if she needs it too. I'll be there for her as long as she'll have me. She's my best friend, but lately I've been feeling something new. Something very confusing to say the least, because I've only ever been with guys that way, but I can't help it. She's always on my mind. She's just so Damn perfect! Everything she does! She can absolutely do no wrong! Wow.
Maybe I have more than what I thought was a crush on her, but can you blame me? She sings like an angel and looks like a dream. This is insane! I could literally have any boy I wanted, but I can't take my mind off of Ms Mercedes Jones. It's not like it matters though. She's dating some guy named Shane and Sam has been chasing after her ever since he got back from Kentucky. She wouldn't want me anyway. I'm damaged goods. Getting pregnant at sixteen. Dating guys I didn't love just so I could stay at the top. Cheating on those guys with other guys I didn't even care about. Why would she ever consider me? Plus, she's straight! She would probably laugh if she knew about my feelings. Well, no not laugh.
Mercedes would never laugh at someone because of thee feelings, but she would feel sorry for me. I don't want that. She'll start acting all weird around me and I don't want to damage our friendship. We've barley even talked ever since she left New Directions for the troubletones. I can't say I blame her. She's been pushed into the background for two years and all she wants is her time to shine. I couldn't tell you how pissed off I got when I found out Mercedes didn't get the part of Maria in west side story. Anybody could of told you that Mercedes was better, but just like Mercedes said it's the Rachel Berry show around here. Now thanks to Mr Schue and Rachel, we only have three girls left in New Directions.
I almost quit, but Shelby wouldn't allow that. Somehow she found out about me trying to get Beth back from her. I know it was stupid, but I wasn't thinking clearly. I was too busy trying to get her back that I didn't realize that she was exactly where she's suppose to be. Mercedes helped me realize that. When I'm at my best or my very worst she's always there. Even now that we're about to compete against each other at sectionals. She's wished us good luck even though I know nothing would make her happier than to beat us. She was disappointed to hear that Rachel wasn't allowed to compete at sectionals, because I know she wants to prove she's better than Rachel.
In all reality everybody knows that Rachel Berry is destined to do great things. Everyone knows she's going to get out of this town, but so is Mercedes. Mercedes is just as talented and she's going to be a star one day. I would bet my life on that. I just finished watching the troubletones perform a mash up of Survivor and I will survive. I'm a little worried about losing, because they were that good, but I'm also so proud of my friends. They were amazing! Especially Mercedes! What? I got it bad ok? Like I said before though, it doesn't really matter. She has two guys all over her right now, one of those guys being my ex-boyfriend, so she would never be with me.
"Mercedes!" I turn around to see Sam following Mercedes backstage, so I follow quietly behind to see what's up. Only as a concerned friend of course "You sounded amazing out there."
"Thank you, Sam." Mercedes smiles shyly
"I miss you, Mercedes."
"Sam, please." Mercedes says raising her hands "I'm with Shane."
"I already told you I don't care how big or bad your boyfriend is." Sam says as he grabs Mercedes hands "I'm going to fight to get you back."
"Sam," Mercedes sighs pulling her hands away "What we had was great, but it's over."
"I'm not giving up so easily." He smirks before running towards the stage "Quinn." He smiles when he notices me "We should probably get put there."
"Right." I say wearing a fake smile "Let's win this thing!"
"Yeah!" He shouts before running towards the rest of the New Directions
"Quinn?" I turn around to find Mercedes smiling at me "Good luck out there."
"Thanks, Mercy." I smile back "We're going to need it after the way you just performed. Especially since we don't have Rachel."
"I'm sure you guys will do great." Mercedes says before hugging me "You're extremely talented, Quinn. Don't you ever compare yourself to Rachel Berry. I spent too much of my time doing just that." She chuckles "I use to think 'I'm good, but I ain't no Rachel Berry.'"
"You're amazing, Mercedes." I assure her as I hug her tighter "If someone tells you you're no Rachel, it's because you're not. You're Mercedes Jones. That's much better in my opinion."
"Thank you." Mercedes says as we pull apart "Now go out there and win second!" I glare at her playfully "What? Toy guys are good, Quinn, but did you hear us?"
"Yes I heard you." I roll my eyes "We might as well throw in the towel now."
"That's the spirit!" Mercedes laughs. God I love her laugh "Now get out there!"
"Ok."
To say that I was surprised that we beat the troubletones would be an understatement. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy we won, but I'm also very upset. My girl worked so hard for this and she was amazing out there. But, I guess you could say that everything turned out fir the best. The girls are back in New Directions, thanks to Mr and Rachel allowing the troubletones to perform one song per competition, everyone is all together again! After our entire group performed We our young, I noticed something.
Sam couldn't keep his eyes off of Mercedes and I wanted to slap him for looking at my girl. Then I realized, she's not my girl. She's dating Shane. It's then that I decided that Mercedes would be happy with me. I could make her happier than those boys could ever dream of. That won't happen if I just sit back and let these two guys fight for her love. I have to fight for her too. I will fight for her. Mercedes will be mine. Whatever it takes! I will get my girl.