Everywhere I Am, There You'll Be
A CCS Fanfic
by SyaoranSword
Disclaimer: I do NOT own anything related to Card Captor Sakura. CLAMP and other companies I may not know of own it all. This is a fanfic and not part of the "official" storyline. The story is only meant for the enjoyment of the author and any would-be readers.
Notes: Ah, yes. This is my first attempt at an angst fic. S+S angst no less. As you can tell by the title, this is what happens to me from listening to that Pearl Harbor song way too many times. While reading, you can think of this as a very twisted soap opera. It starts out sappy, but this is about 90% angst, and definitely 100% drama. This is nowhere near close to the kawaii mushy fics I've written before, so don't say I didn't warn you. Main characters are 17 at the start of the fic. If you're ready, then let us begin…
~~~ (place) ~~~ = scene change
" " = dialogue
[ ] = thoughts
( ) = commentary
Chapter 1: Pierced Through the Heart
A boy and a girl walked along the city streets, their hands held firmly together, their gazes fixated onto each other with love in their eyes, their mouths turned upwards in smiles just for the other. Anyone who saw them had no doubt in their mind that they made a perfect couple. This was lost on the lovers as they made their way to their usual spot, under a cherry blossom tree in Penguin Park.
Sakura sighed happily as she leaned back against her one and only love. Syaoran was pushed against the trunk as his girlfriend got herself comfortable on his lap. He wrapped his arms around her slender waist, and she placed her hands on his as she nestled her head in the crook of his neck. They stayed in that position for nearly an hour, content just to relax and be near each other.
[Syaoran, I'm so happy you came back to me.] After their ordeal with Eriol, Syaoran went back to Hong Kong, promising that he would return, and she promised to wait for him forever. Two years passed…
~~~ Three years ago ~~~
Sakura hurried on her way to school, still not outgrowing her tendency to be late for everything. She had however outgrown her rollerblades. Right now, she wished she hadn't. Rounding the final corner, she spotted him. He wore the uniform of her school, had messy chestnut hair, and held a teddy bear with wings in one arm. Sakura blinked a few times, making sure it wasn't her imagination. "Syaoran-kun?" she asked shakily.
He smiled warmly at her. "Sakura, I'm back. I'm finished with everything in Hong Kong. I can stay in Japan now."
She could feel tears rolling down her cheek. "No more letters or long-distance phone calls?"
"Yes."
Sakura couldn't hold in her happiness as she ran up and hugged him. "You kept your promise."
"So did you."
"Aishiteru Syaoran."
"Aishiteru Sakura."
~~~ Back to the Present ~~~
Sakura felt hanyaan after remembering the day she and Syaoran were together again. Although she was the Mistress of the Sakura Cards, life had been pretty normal for the two as their relationship grew over the past few years. They were just two regular high school students, who happened to have some magic on the side. Eriol had come back a little over a year ago, along with Nakuru and Suppi-chan. Sakura tried to ask Eriol what happened to him and Mizuki-sensei, but he always ended up saying he didn't want to talk about it. However she did start to notice that Tomoyo and Eriol were together a lot.
She turned her head so that she was face to face with her boyfriend. A smile curved her lips as she saw he was asleep. Sakura then moved her hands around to the back of his neck. Seeing he still didn't wake up, she carressed her lips against his. She smiled inwardly as she felt him turn his head to kiss her back, finally awake. They parted a little, taking in the joyful shine of each other's eyes. "Syaoran…"
"Sakura."
"We'll always be together, ne Syaoran?" She ran a hand playfully through his thick chestnut hair.
"Of course we will Sakura."
She held up her pinky finger. "Promise?" He chuckled at the sight of her still wanting to do pinky promises. Even at 17, she still had the heart of a child. "Mou, Syaoran."
"Gomen, Sakura." He locked his pinky with hers. "I promise." She beamed at him. They then shared a passionate kiss, under the cherry blossom tree.
(I know what you're thinking. Where's the angst? It's coming…)
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The happy couple walked back toward Sakura's house. They stood on her doorstep. "I had a great time today, Syaoran-chan."
"Me too, Sakura."
They slowly closed the gap between them as their lips met. As they were losing themselves in the kiss, the door swung open to reveal a smirking Touya. "Do you two have to kiss after every date?" Syaoran and Touya had reconciled their differences. It took them a while, but for Syaoran it was worth it. Now he didn't need to fear Touya's wrath whenever he took Sakura out on dates.
The teenagers abruptly ended their kiss. "ONII-CHAN!!"
"Gaki, why do you insist on kissing a kaijuu anyway?" Even if he didn't have anything against his little sister's boyfriend, he liked teasing both of them.
"I AM NOT A KAIJUU!!!" She gave him a good stomp on his foot.
"ITAI!!" he yelped hopping up and down while holding his foot.
"I'll see you tomorrow Sakura," Syaoran said as he brushed his lips against hers.
"Mmm, bye Syaoran-chan." Sakura waved farewell.
Just as he was leaving, Syaoran stopped in his tracks. He started to look around quickly. Sakura also started to look at her surroundings. "Sakura, you felt it too, didn't you?"
"Yes, it's… very strong… and dark."
The warrior sighed as he transformed the amulet he still carried into a sword. It had been so long since he had used it, that he was surprised at how short it looked now. "I hope you're not rusty, Sakura."
She changed her key into her star staff. Unlike his sword, the staff had grown to fit her grown up form. "No, but I didn't want to have to use this ever again."
Touya saw them preparing for a fight. He had already told them he knew all about their adventures. "Wait, I thought the whole cardcaptoring business was over five years ago!"
"It's never over," Syaoran said matter-of-factly. "Not as long as Sakura holds the Cards."
Kero flew out of Sakura's window to join them. "I thought I sensed something."
"Kero, do you know what it is?" Sakura asked.
"I've sensed this before, but I can't place it."
A bolt of black energy shot through the air, hitting Touya, and causing him to collapse on the spot. "ONII-CHAN!" Sakura and Syaoran rushed over to him, while Kero transformed into his true form. "Is he…?"
Syaoran saw that Touya was breathing. "No, he'll be fine. That wasn't a lethal shot. Whoever did it only wants us."
"Where did it come from?"
"From me," an unfamiliar, but sinister voice said.
All of them looked to see a young man clothed in black and holding a staff similar to Eriol's except there was a crescent moon at the top instead of a sun. "I am Maseo. I seek the Master of the Cards."
"Maseo!" Cerberus whispered to himself.
Sakura stood up clutching her staff. "I'm the one you want!"
The sorcerer's eyes widened momentarily before returning to normal. "Clow made an interesting choice to pick such a beautiful girl to be the new master." He glanced at Syaoran. "Although I always thought one of his direct descendents would be the one."
Syaoran had smoke coming out of his ears. He stood by his girlfriend's side with his sword up. "What are you doing here and why do you want Sakura?"
"I want the Cards."
"Wrong answer!" Syaoran took out a charm. "Fire! Come to my aid!"
As the burst of flames approached him, Maseo swung his moon staff, and the fire was extinguished. "You'll have to do better than that."
"Kero, do you know who he is?"
"Maseo was one of Clow Reed's best disciples. However, he grew envious of Clow's power after the Clow Cards were made. Knowing that the cards would soon be sealed away, Maseo wanted them for himself. He challenged Clow Reed and lost. I thought Maseo was killed in that battle."
"So now he's back to take them from the new master," Syaoran concluded.
"Very good, boy. Cerberus, I'm glad you remember me. Now give the cards to me before I do something you'll regret."
Syaoran looked over at Sakura. Fire, representing her rare anger, visibly blazed in her gemlike eyes. He knew that Sakura didn't get this mad easily, but when she did, she was a force to be reckoned with. "You hurt my onii-chan!" Taking a card, she called out, "Wood, bind Maseo!" The spirit obeyed her mistress and started to wrap Maseo in vines.
It looked like it was working, until a black mist penetrated through the gap in the vines. The Wood Card returned leaving a black mist cloud where Maseo stood earlier. "I warned you, Card Mistress." The mist was talking! "Say goodbye to your boyfriend."
Before anyone could do anything, the mist moved quickly into Syaoran's mouth, entering his body. Sakura was horrified as she saw her beloved convulsing. "NO!" she screamed with tears threatening to fall. "You leave him alone! It's me you want!" She watched helplessly as the boy she loved continued to have spasms until he stopped and just stood there with his back to her. "Syaoran-kun?" Sakura looked at him as he turned to face her. Fear gripped her as she saw the hard glare and the grin that didn't belong to him. "You're not Syaoran-kun!"
"Oh, but I am," he said in the voice that belonged to Maseo. He raised the sword in his hand up. "Don't make me have your boyfriend kill you."
Cerberus breathed a fireball in his direction. "Kero, no!" pleaded Sakura. She was relieved to see he had easily dodged it. "We can't hurt Syaoran-kun!"
"But he's possessed by Maseo. My duty as your guardian is to protect you and the cards, Sakura. If he becomes too much of a threat, I'll have to stop him."
"What's the matter? Afraid you'll do something terrible to your precious Li?" He smirked. Sakura would have given anything to wipe that smirk off his face, if only it didn't belong to the person she loved the most. She saw him reach for a charm. "This one will do nicely. Wind!"
A strong gust came out of the paper and headed straight for Sakura. "Sakura!" Cerberus leapt in front of her and was swept high up in a twister. The guardian beast landed hard on the grass. "No, Kero!" She ran and knelt beside him. "Are you ok?"
Cerberus struggled to move. Only being able to lift his head up he answered his mistress, "I'll be… fine." He fell unconscious as he rested his head back down.
"Kero…" She turned her attention back to the possessed Syaoran. Sakura had gritted her teeth and shot her best glare. "I won't let you hurt anymore of my friends!"
He seemed amused. "So what are you going to do about it?" He took a step toward her as he took out another charm. Sakura immediately recognized it as 'lightning'. [Jump can help me dodge it, but how can I defeat him without hurting Syaoran?] She was about to use the Jump Card, when she heard him scream in pain. The possessed Syaoran had fallen to his knees, clutching his head.
"Stop it right now!"
Sakura couldn't believe her ears. "Syaoran-kun?"
"You're out of your league boy!" She heard him say in Maseo's voice. He was going into convulsions again.
"Syaoran-kun! Can you hear me?"
"Yes, ergh!" Sakura realized that the convulsions were caused by Syaoran and Maseo fighting inside his body.
"Is there anything I can do to help you?"
"No, stay back!" Syaoran continued to struggle. He finally managed to get enough control of his own body to throw his sword away from him and Sakura. No sooner had he done that did he revert to his spasms. Moments later he said, "Lightning!"
Sakura braced herself expecting to get hit. Instead she heard the yells of pain from both Syaoran and Maseo. She saw him on his hands and knees panting. He suddenly lifted his head. Sakura looked into his eyes and cried out, "Syaoran!" She wanted to hug him.
"No, don't come any closer!"
"Syaoran-kun?"
"Maseo is still inside me, but weakened. I don't know if I can hold him off anymore though."
"How are we going to get him out?"
"Sakura, listen to me carefully. KILL ME!!!"
"NO! There has to be another way!"
"HURRY! I can't hold on… much… longer…"
"No… please don't make me do this."
"If you don't kill me, I'll probably be gone forever, and Maseo will try and get the cards."
"But… I… can't…"
"I don't care what happens to me, as long as you're safe."
"Syaoran…" Tears were streaming down her face.
"Please, Sakura." His eyes were shimmering with unshed tears.
She choked down sobs as she said, "Sword Card." Her staff became a sword. She walked slowly toward him, tears falling at every step, until she stood over his supplicated form. Their gazes met. "I love you." She pulled the sword back.
"I love you, too." He gave her one last smile.
Sakura closed her eyes. She didn't want to watch any of his suffering. Gathering more strength than she thought she ever had, she lunged forward.
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Sakura knelt beside the resting-place of her beloved. The funeral had long been over, but she had stayed for the whole day, never wanting to move. The autopsy had revealed what she had already known. Syaoran Li's death was caused by a stab wound through his heart. How ironic, she thought, that she was the one who felt like a dagger had gone through her heart, and yet she was cursed to live through the pain. Her eyes were puffy, red, and dry. She had already exhausted all her tears. Sakura didn't care that her throat was parched or that her legs were burning. She just wanted to die right there. At least then her suffering would end, and she could be with her Syaoran.
Standing a little away from her was the whole group, still there concerned for her, because they knew she would suffer the most.
Her father watched as his little girl poured out her grief.
Touya felt sick, knowing the one who he always thought would take his sister from him, was now taken from her.
Yukito comforted Touya. He wanted to relieve Sakura of her anguish, but he knew that she was the only who could convince herself to move on.
Tomoyo shared every bitter moment that her precious Sakura experienced.
Sonomi never thought she could be sadder than the time Nadeshiko passed away, but seeing Sakura like that drastically changed her mind.
Eriol was in a rare somber mood, as was Nakuru.
Kero and Suppi watched while hidden in Nakuru's handbag. Both had lost their appetites.
Coming all the way from Hong Kong, Syaoran's mother and his sisters had attended. The four younger women had wailed their sorrow. His mother however had been the quietest during the entire proceedings, the Li discipline of not showing her emotions evident.
Her closest friends Chiharu, Naoko, Rika, and Takashi were there. Terada-sensei, Mizuki-sensei, as well as others that attended her high school were also there. It was general knowledge that they were a couple. What they didn't know was how deep their love ran.
Sakura would have felt embarrassed from everyone staying there with her, if she could get her mind off the fact that she was the one who killed her one and only love.
"Sakura?" Touya broke the heavy silence as he came up behind his sister. She looked up at him with her puffy, bloodshot eyes. It wrenched his heart to see her look like this. "Do you want to go home yet?"
"A little longer please," she forced out.
"Alright." He sighed as he paced back toward the others, shaking his head.
Unseen by everyone else, Sakura clutched Syaoran's amulet close, a part of him that she would keep. The other was in her heart. "Syaoran… we… promised…"
To be continued…
IMHO, angst sucks, but none more so than when you're the author. I was crying when I proofread this too. Please tell me what you think. Review and/or send me something at
In the works:
The Magitech War: Chapter 10: The Fall of Hylan
Everywhere I Am, There You'll Be: Chapter 2: A Ghostly Reunion