I was a fucking idiot, a grade fucking 'A' asshole! There was no way in hell she would ever forgive me for this. I had heard from Jasper that everyone was talking about it and the reactions were a mix of amusement to vicious delight.
I burned with embarrassment as I kept remembering how I had not moved, had not even bothered to help her up. I had just sat there staring at her like a mentally challenged fucker. In all honesty I did not understand how this could have happened today of all days. This was supposed to be a good day, Bella and I had worked tirelessly to get this new client and this was the culmination of all our efforts. I had started this day a bit sad because I probably wouldn't be spending as much time with her anymore but happy that we had gotten a good result at the end. Not once did I ever envision that everything would spiral into such a shit fest. My skin felt tight, and my palms twitched as the memories of only an hour ago stampeded through my brain making me re-live the moment of my utter destruction in vivid fucking Technicolor.
Shit that was melodramatic… I was turning into a fucking girl! Still didn't change the truth of it. She was everything I wanted. It had taken me one glance to realize this and that had been six fucking months ago. My fucking 'manwhore' reputation had managed to make me 'undesirable' to her. A reputation that until then I had pretty much ignored and deemed unimportant. What did I care what other people thought… I knew the truth and so did my family.
I had tried to ask her out but the 'skank squad' had beaten me to the punch. Tanya, Lauren and Irina all women I had, in my opinion, delicately refused their offers that varied from sucking my cock in the broom closet to letting me bend them over my desk and take them for a ride, had made it their mission to concoct my whole 'manwhore' persona.
Bella had been sweet though, telling me that she didn't think 'dating' someone who was practically her boss was a good idea. I had of course told her that the company did not have any policies regarding interoffice dating, but to no avail. She had kindly declined once again and proceeded to be nothing but professional since. I had done all I could to prove to her that all the rumors were, just that, rumors. I was not the fucking player everyone made me out to be.
For once I was not happy about winning the genetic lottery. Women seemed to be drawn to my looks, sometimes to which I had enjoyed to a certain extent. There were times though that 'certain' women did extremely ridiculous things to get my attention. Over the years I had built immunity to some of the crap they sent my way. My fucking looks that had nothing to do with who I was as a person, looks that most women thought were the extent of what I had to offer, well that and my wealth. Almost everyone assumed that because nature, DNA, genetics or the fucking higher power had made me into an attractive package had also made me a soulless player. I wasn't a monk but neither was I a fucking skirt chaser. I was too fucking picky. Having a doctor as a father put a very different light into what careless sexual activity could do to you. He had, at my mother's insistence, scared the shit of me and my brothers, Emmet and Jasper with tales of sexually transmitted diseases complete with pictures and lists of complications and treatments for any one of us to take sex lightly. Again, not that we were celibate but we didn't spread it around as much as the fucking office rumor mill made it out to be and when we did do anything we were fucking careful.
To her credit Bella did not ignore me or treat me in any way but courteously. Not once had she ever gotten further than professionally friendly. Personally she wanted nothing to do with me and this latest disaster would make everything a million times worse. Shit! Fucking Mike 'Fucking' Newton! Bella Swan was never going to be mine and I wasn't sure I could live with that!
Two months ago we started working together to land one of our largest clients, Black Wolf Explorers. They were a survival camp that catered to both families and corporations; they offered a good variety of expeditions from nature hikes to camping trips for all levels of experience. They were a great company and I was personally looking forward to taking one of their two week 'Expert Excursions'.
Bella and I made a great team putting together one of the best proposals and ultimately winning the account. Though it helped that she had also known Jacob, the new owner, who happened to be the son of her fathers best friend Billy Black the previous owner. Still it was business and though we had a slight advantage with her relationship with them ultimately they went with what we had to offer. It had been a blissful two months of late nights and business trips to Washington. Always professional, though now with a hint of a budding friendship. I was patient, I didn't push, I opened doors not to impress but because that is what she deserved. I listened to what she had to say because I was desperate to know as much as I could about her. I never looked anywhere but at her eyes and would only gave in to caressing her body with my gaze when I was absolutely sure I could get away with it, fucking shit I'm human! Night time was another matter all together. Fuck! My dreams were fucking pornography, in them Bella and I were the stars of a fucking sexy times marathon. In my dreams I was able to look, touch and taste her.
I really blamed my current situation on Mike 'Fucking' Newton, from Accounting, who had pushed her into me. Fucking Mike Newton, if I hadn't been in such a state of… well mostly shock, at least that's what I was going with I wouldn't have acted like such a douche and helped her up. I was trying my best not to acknowledge the fact that my body had reacted so enthusiastically to her. Fuckity, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck! I slammed my fists into the desk sending the stack of files Jessica, my barley dressed assistant, had left a few minutes ago crashing to the floor.
Mike 'fucking' Newton had been trying to get her attention, I knew this because whenever Bella was anywhere within twenty feet of me I would practically memorize everything about the moment. She hadn't heard him and kept walking towards me in order to greet Jacob. Mike, the fucker, tripped over fucking air running into her, which pushed her forward onto her knees and the momentum of it had sent her head right into my fucking lap. Shit! It all happened so fast she wasn't able to catch herself fast enough before her face ended up on my thighs. If that had been the extent I'm was pretty sure everyone would have laughed it off. But NO! Mike 'Fucking' Newton, in an attempt to fix the situation, at least that's what I hope he was trying to do, moved forward but fucking tripped again sending her into my crotch where my hard as a fucking rock, cock practically impaled her face.
Jesus, it was like the nightmare version of one of my fantasies. When her face had landed on my thigh I had been in shock but my body had reacted instantly. My hands had almost, Jesus! My hands! I shook my head at the memory, I had almost put my hands on her head to move her a little more to the left, which because of Mikes fucking clumsiness happened seconds later anyway. I was such a fucking asshole! It had taken everything in me not to beg her to do some very dirty, dirty things to me. Right there in a room full of clients and co-workers. I was such a fucking asshole!
Though one look at her face had pretty much stripped all sexual thoughts from my mind and junior withered and almost died. Bella had been livid. Her eyes practically burning holes through me, not once did she look me in the eye. Fucking Mike Newton! Pansy Ass Mother Fucker! Because of him and my inability to be coherent around her, Bella would probably never talk to me again. I had done nothing but stare at her while my very obvious hard on saluted her eagerly, I hadn't helped her up or apologized, I'd just sat there and stared at her and to be honest I wasn't sure what the expression on my face had conveyed. Only now as I sit in my corner office looking over the Seattle skyline did I think of all the things I 'could have' done to make the situation better. Instead she had gotten back on her feet with the assistance of her friend Rosalie who was shooting daggers at both myself and Mike, muttering things I could not hear. They had walked out of the conference room, Bella with head held high and fists clenched.
Bringing myself back to the present I pinched the bridge of my nose, inhaling deeply and wishing this was all just a dream that would go away once I woke up. Just then I heard a knock on the door, and without thought and with all the ire of my current emotional state practically roared in reaction. "Jessica! What the FUCK do you not understand about hold EVERYTHING for the next hour!"
The door opened and I gazed at it in shock! Jessica was never this brave, there must be something incredibly important for her to step through that door. As I turned around to face her my jaw practically fell to the floor and my body that should have been on a semi-permanent fucking vacation due to current events buzzed to life instantly. Bella Swan just walked through the door and closed and locked it behind her.
"Well, that's an interesting way to address your PA" she spoke to me a smile on her face. My mind was blind with confusion. Wait! Isn't she mad at me? Didn't she want me burned alive or something?
"I… Jesus… Sorry, Bella… I'm just…Shit" Nothing coherent could come out of me in that moment because as much as I knew I needed to apologize to the goddess coming towards me all I could focus on was the way her hips swung sensuously and her breasts bobbed delicately, behind her cream silk blouse, as she walked towards me.
"Edward?" She asked as if confused. I was staring at her again like the mentally challenged, I was sure. "I wanted to apologize for earlier…" her voice trailed off as I continued to just stare. "The situation, though out of my control was incredibly embarrassing…" She stopped as her gaze slid to my fisted hands lying on my desk.
Finally after what seemed like hours, but was probably less than a minute I found my voice. "Bella, stop… I apologize, I realize that I should have done a lot more that sit there like a moron watching the comedy of errors that was that particular situation" I chanced a glance at her face then, dragging my eyes away from her chest. I was a fucking pig!
She was smiling. What did that mean?
"Edward, I also wanted to apologize for something else…" She blushed then making it even more fucking difficult for me to stay on my side of the desk. Shit, everything about her made me want her. "When I first started here, I allowed… well…" she seemed nervous and unsure but squared her shoulders and continued. "The thing is Edward, you indicated an interest in me when I first started… well an interest that I didn't completely understand… I had been warned that you were not all that selective or particular about your…." she blushed again and I almost groaned but managed to just grimace which seemed to fluster her even more. "About your dating habits, and well, I am… particular that is" she looked down a the desk "I'm not a one-night-stand kind of girl and… well… as tempted as I was when you first showed an interest… I just couldn't" she stopped abruptly and I realized I was staring rather obsessively at her lips. "Edward? Are you Ok? Oh my god! I didn't hurt you earlier did I?" She looked panicked now.
"No!" I almost shouted "I'm fine… I'm just… please continue" I smiled, hoping it didn't look as ridiculous on my face as it felt from the inside out. I was holding on to my self-control, as her scent had reached me all strawberries and cream and all I could see were pictures of my head between her legs as I lapped her up and she screamed my name. I was a fucking pig! Mostly I didn't understand because I had Never! Ever! Had this strong of a reaction with any another woman before Bella.
Bella was my fucking kryptonite she had complete power over me. At the same time I knew that I wanted more than just sex. I wanted her! I wanted a life with her. I wanted to love her and show her the world, wake up with her, grow fucking old with her! She was 'the one' as my sister Alice would put it. But… after six months of explicit dreams my self control was at an all time low. I wanted her so badly, had wanted her for so long it was like my control was around her was tenuous at best. The pull to her so strong everything else seemed to fade into the background. Even though I was listening to her in the back of my mind all I could think about was the fact that she had walked through my door and 'locked it'!
"Edward, I've gotten to know you over the last few months, and to be honest, nothing that was shared with me coincided with what you have proved through action… I guess what I'm saying is that Tanya and Lauren were full of shit!" Her eyes got darker and I saw her tongue dart out and moisten her bottom lip and I growled, I fucking growled. Bella shifted in her seat which distracted me as I glanced down to see her rub her thighs together and as if mirroring her every movement I couldn't help but do the same. "Fuck!" She whispered as she caught me in her gaze once again. "Edward… what I'm trying to say is that…"
Then something happened that I never expected. Bella Swan stood up and walked around my desk swung my chair to face her and straddled me. Her skirt rode up her thighs and God help me but I was no longer in control of my actions. My hands grabbed her ass and pulled her into me as she fucking threaded her fingers through my hair and kissed me. It wasn't delicate or soft it was hard, white-hot passion. My hands trailed up her back pushing her hard against me. My dick was vibrating trying to tear through my trousers. Her right hand or maybe her left to be honest I'm not sure but a hand moved down my side sliding between our bodies and scratched their way down to my pants.
"Edward…" my name on her lips practically set me on fucking fire, I couldn't count how many times I had fantasized hearing my name from her lips. "Edward… I have wanted you so badly for way to long…" she whimpered as she swiveled her hips into me and I fucking pulled her in harder wanting desperately to skip a few steps and just fucking bury myself into her. "I just shit!" she almost screamed as I finally took a breast in my hand and pinched her nipple, her back arched and all sorts of delicious contact was made as she writhed in my arms.
There was no talking after that, I'm pretty sure I attacked her, but my memory was hazy for a few moments there. I do remember that she had to stop me from ripping her blouse off and she took over making quick work of the buttons and let it slide off of her arms and onto the floor. I was struck dumb by the site before me her bra was a masterpiece of lace and I stopped for just a moment to admire her fucking breasts they looked like a work or art, but when she arched into me my cock practically screamed for skin to skin contact. I'm not sure how it happened but in less time than I thought possible we were both naked and on the fucking floor behind my desk I was laying over her hoping to every God and every deity that ever existed that she would not want to stop because I was pretty sure it would fucking kill me.
I wanted to slow down to enjoy every fucking moment of this first time… because as I looked into her beautiful face I knew that this was only the beginning, and this, moment, this everything was worth the wait, she was worth the wait.
"Edward…" She whispered her voice low and seductive "Edward… baby… we can do slow and easy next time! Get you head out of the clouds and please FUCK ME!" she punctuated her words by biting me gently on the shoulder. I shuddered fucking loving the feel of her teeth against my skin.
"Baby, I have waited way to fucking long not to at least enjoy this" I sighed into the valley between her breasts. I licked and sucked the skin as I pinched each nipple with my fingers. I was in heaven, lying here between her legs so close to her wet center all I had to do was align and push through. I needed her to come first though because I knew that I was way to fucking close and I was afraid that if my dick made contact with her pussy this would be over way to fucking fast.
I made my way down her body licking and sucking a trail as I went. When I finally got to the place I really wanted to be I was salivating she was waxed, my beautiful goddess was fucking bare and it was beautiful. I couldn't stop myself I went and licked at her wetness pushing my tongue between her lower lips and tasting the essence that was all Bella. She whimpered and put her fingers into my hair and massaged my scalp as I feasted on her. I licked and sucked her pussy, I gently bit her clit and when she pushed my face hard into herself I bit her a little harder and she mewled which drove me fucking wild. I took a finger and pushed it inside her and my dick twitched. Jesus! I wanted to be inside her but I had a mission, to make her come at least once before I went there. I pumped my finger a few times before adding a second and then a third. By this time she seemed to be incoherent writhing and moving her fingers through my hair. Shit! It felt good, she tasted so fucking good. I felt it then the fluttering my signal to start sucking on her clit, which I did and then she fucking came and it was glorious to behold. She whimpered and her face… her face was beauty personifies. I moved up her body quickly as her orgasm moved through her. I kissed her without thinking, for a split second I was afraid I had made a mistake not sure if she would be ok with tasking herself on my lips. She quickly took over the kiss deepening it and making me loose all sense of time and place.
Bella is deceptively strong, before I knew what was happening, I found myself on my back with a beautiful Bella straddling me. She nipped and licked her way down my body, and before I could register just what she was doing my cock was in her mouth and I felt myself hit the back of her fucking throat. I took everything I had not to fucking cum right then and there. She sucked her way up and let me go and before I could say anything she spoke. "I have wanted to do that since our little incident…" her voice was husky setting my blood to a slow simmer. "I almost licked you before I saw the look of shock on your face.." She was blushing as she gave my dick little kisses. Shit! I couldn't take much more of this. "I'm sorry baby, if you want me inside you do it quick because I'm about to fucking blow… I promise that I will make this better next time but…" I felt nervous hoping that my lack of control wouldn't drive her away "but shit, baby I've been hard since I've met you and I need some fucking relief" I moved to my pants to get a condom. She noticed what I was doing and stilled my hand. "I'm on the pill and I haven't been with anyone in over a year, I'm clean." Her eyes were dark as she looked at me.
"I'm clean" I choked out the thought of sliding into her with no barriers was making my fucking cock twitch and knocking on her ass asking permission to come the fuck in. "I've haven't been with anyone in six months." I pulled her face to me. "I fucking couldn't be with anyone else once I met you" I kissed her hard, shoving my tongue into her mouth, she responded with the same ferocity.
Bella pulled herself up giving me one last soft kiss and the slid onto me, and fucking kid you not, I was fucking home. I was Fucking home! She was hot and tight and my cock was doing the fucking dance of joy as she slid herself slowly up and down my shaft. It was the sweetest fucking torture. Then she changed the movement when she ground her self up my body her breasts sliding over me the sweetest fucking feeling in the world! She slid up to where I almost slid out of her before she slammed back down rubbing her body against mine as she went. She rolled her hips taking me in deeper she repeated this several times and I begant o feel my body tighten and get ready to fucking explode. Finally I felt it again the tightening of her walls around my cock, the fluttering pulse that brought me to the brink. "Shit… Shit… Shit… Bellla… baby! Shit I'm goint to cum!" I almost shouted.
"Then cum baby, fill me up" she whispered into my ear before biting me again on the shoulder. I fucking felt my cum shoot into her as the tension that had been gathering let loose and I pumped into her body a few more times. Fucking perfection. I held her to me breathing in her scent molding her body to mine and wondered briefly if it was to soon to ask her to move in with me…. Marry me… bear my children…