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I don't know why I'm writing this. Not many people care what I think, and those that do already know what happened...I guess I'm just trying to get my feelings out. Nothing makes much sense any more, everything we believed in disappeared in a puff of smoke, poof! All gone. All the happy endings and safe escapes...just made up. I think we're all beginning to realize that now. Heroic rescues in which everything comes out better than it was before...I wish everything was like that, so simple. But it's not. Sage is taking it harder than anyone, he blames himself totally even though we all played a part in it. I think that it shattered his ego more than anything. No, that's not fair. I'd be acting the same way if it were Kento.
After Tulpa was defeated, we all let our pride get the best of us. Even though he's my friend, I have to say that Kento was the without a doubt, the worst. He acted like a king for months; it was actually kinda funny to see him walking down the street, flexing whenever a person of the opposite gender passed, almost expecting ordinary people to bow down to him. Sage tried to keep his ego in check, but eventually it got the better of him. He became an even worse flirt got very materialistic. Ryo didn't change much; he just stood a little straighter, walked a little faster, stuff like that. Rowen got a bit more outgoing but other than that stayed the same. I'm not sure what I did really, but I know I felt haughty. We were "heroes" and knew it, but I don't think we were the right kind of heroes. Maybe if we all had been less into "Saving the world" and more into "Saving the people" it would have turned out different, better, more like a fairy tale than like reality. But it didn't end like that and it's too late to change anything.
I'm angry. I don't believe I've ever been this furious at, well anything. Actually the more I think about it; the less it seems like anger. Maybe its confusion or frustration...there's defiantly some anger. I'm angry with Sage for being so upset, and that dumb kid for being to stupid to know how to use a fire escape. I'm angry at Rowen for being so damn brave, with myself for not doing anything. I didn't know I could dissever my feelings this well. You learn something new every day I guess.
Yesterday I went to the apartment and sat among the ashes thinking about everything that happened. I remembered the look on Rowen's face when he said he wasn't leaving that little girl to die alone. It was a calm, and excepting look. Sage protested furiously, but to no avail. Rowen was staying with the girl. I thought of Sage and his expression just before he fell through burned out floor. That look held more pain and confusion than any look I ever had, or will, see. And then the floor collapsed and we both fell...I don't remember much after that. All I know is that Rowen never came out of that fire-ridden building. Sage wont talk about it, he hardly talks to anyone anymore. I guess he's one of those people who are in constant need a best friend or they lose all self-confidence and security.
I never thought the invincible Ronin Warriors would start to come apart like this, after all we've been through together. It doesn't add up but I guess most things don't.
I should start dinner. Ryo and Kento will be back soon and Sage needs to eat something before he starves to death...
I don't know why I'm writing this. Not many people care what I think, and those that do already know what happened...I guess I'm just trying to get my feelings out. Nothing makes much sense any more, everything we believed in disappeared in a puff of smoke, poof! All gone. All the happy endings and safe escapes...just made up. I think we're all beginning to realize that now. Heroic rescues in which everything comes out better than it was before...I wish everything was like that, so simple. But it's not. Sage is taking it harder than anyone, he blames himself totally even though we all played a part in it. I think that it shattered his ego more than anything. No, that's not fair. I'd be acting the same way if it were Kento.
After Tulpa was defeated, we all let our pride get the best of us. Even though he's my friend, I have to say that Kento was the without a doubt, the worst. He acted like a king for months; it was actually kinda funny to see him walking down the street, flexing whenever a person of the opposite gender passed, almost expecting ordinary people to bow down to him. Sage tried to keep his ego in check, but eventually it got the better of him. He became an even worse flirt got very materialistic. Ryo didn't change much; he just stood a little straighter, walked a little faster, stuff like that. Rowen got a bit more outgoing but other than that stayed the same. I'm not sure what I did really, but I know I felt haughty. We were "heroes" and knew it, but I don't think we were the right kind of heroes. Maybe if we all had been less into "Saving the world" and more into "Saving the people" it would have turned out different, better, more like a fairy tale than like reality. But it didn't end like that and it's too late to change anything.
I'm angry. I don't believe I've ever been this furious at, well anything. Actually the more I think about it; the less it seems like anger. Maybe its confusion or frustration...there's defiantly some anger. I'm angry with Sage for being so upset, and that dumb kid for being to stupid to know how to use a fire escape. I'm angry at Rowen for being so damn brave, with myself for not doing anything. I didn't know I could dissever my feelings this well. You learn something new every day I guess.
Yesterday I went to the apartment and sat among the ashes thinking about everything that happened. I remembered the look on Rowen's face when he said he wasn't leaving that little girl to die alone. It was a calm, and excepting look. Sage protested furiously, but to no avail. Rowen was staying with the girl. I thought of Sage and his expression just before he fell through burned out floor. That look held more pain and confusion than any look I ever had, or will, see. And then the floor collapsed and we both fell...I don't remember much after that. All I know is that Rowen never came out of that fire-ridden building. Sage wont talk about it, he hardly talks to anyone anymore. I guess he's one of those people who are in constant need a best friend or they lose all self-confidence and security.
I never thought the invincible Ronin Warriors would start to come apart like this, after all we've been through together. It doesn't add up but I guess most things don't.
I should start dinner. Ryo and Kento will be back soon and Sage needs to eat something before he starves to death...