This is how my life turned out being a mess until I found a friend that has deeply loved me since he first saw me but never admitted that he loved me but now I feel more alive, no more into a depression mood, never going back into my old life where it was messy and boys getting cheated on me and to go with Trisha, she always slept with them and then sends them away, she didn't care about them all she wanted is to sleep with them but for me I have a very nice life with the man I married and especially that I'm in my early forties now but still stable to make love with any man but I won't do it, even if my husband has passed away from a car accident I still love him, yes it is foolish but even if he is in heaven calling me to join him someday I just want to see my youngest graduate from High School and my older one to be a parent, one day as I came towards the grave of my love one tears has slowly started to slip from my eyes as I started to speak, "Oh Jude, I just wished you were still with me and the kids"
I just stood there as my children was suddenly behind me which I spun around and gasped at the children with tears, they felt terrible for losing their father but they wish that he is having a happy life in heaven while I smiled weakly and nodded but more tears has escaped from my eyes but I wiped them away as my mascara had smeared a little from my eyes but I didn't care, it just felt I lost something dearly and I did, Julie who is me and Jude's oldest and nineteen year-old daughter just asked, "Do you think dad is waiting for you?"
I came towards her as I placed my hands on her shoulders, "Yes my love, dad is waiting for me to go up there but not right now… but someday"
Carl, our second child and only son just bend down towards his father's tombstone as tears slowly slipped down his face, "Dad, I have won the contest in skateboarding… you see I'm a skater just like you" then sobbed uncontrollably with his two younger sisters comforting him, Carrie who is aged fourteen just stared at her father's grave and wept while our last child, our ten year-old daughter just ran in my arms and started to cry on my pants, "Mommy, why did daddy have to die? He didn't deserve this at all"
"I know baby but there is some people who are cruel and cold" I answered as I felt my throat getting bubbly. This isn't how I wanted it to end for Jude, he was such a kind man, a lovable husband and a father who cared very much but hey I will meet him up someday in heaven so will our children when they will get old and die of nature.
Our four children was now looking towards at me as Julie and Carl has echoed through the sky, "You are sure going to join dad someday" and our youngest has looked upon me and smiled through tears. I smiled weakly and looked at the sky, "Yes my children, I will be with your father again… someday"