Coraline,
You were young,
many years younger than I.
You left before I could say goodbye.
I remember,
I came home,
and you were sick.
Mommy carried you to the car,
and to to the hospital.
Leaving your Great-grandma and Daddy to take care of your 2 big sisters.
They put you on IV's and a breathing machine.
They mercy-flighted you,
to a better and bigger hospital.
They kept you from slipping into a coma.
Mommy was there to comfort you.
When you cried for her she was there.
When you wanted reassurance, she was there.
When they put you to sleep she was there.
And Mommy was there when you slipped away.
Mommy and Daddy cried a lot.
Daddy said he would never forgive himself if something happened to you.
They kept you alive for a couple of days,
it seemed like you were getting better,
but something went wrong.
The doctors said, "She's gone into a brain bleed. There is nothing we can do. We can keep her alive for a few more hours."
I remember,
Daddy woke me up,
it was the middle of the night.
He said,"I have to go to the hospital. Your sister has gone into a brain bleed."
I asked, "They can't save her?"
Daddy replied, "No."
And he was gone.
I went back to bed thinking about you.
The next morning,
I woke up to hear crying.
Ena and your mom's good friend were crying.
They said, "She's gone."
They both hugged me and cried but I didn't cry.
I tried to keep some spirits up,
but nobody even seemed to care.
They stared into space as if your sister and I were never there.
Your Daddy was home first.
He just stared at his computer and didn't talk.
Later I went to the doctor and came home to see Mommy sitting on the couch,
crying.
I went to comfort her but I didn't cry then.
Then I went to our room to have a little time to myself.
I grabbed my DS,
as I had a picture of just the two of us,
smiling.
That's when the tears began to fall.
Thick and hot, they ran down my face and onto the floor.
Mommy came in and asked why I was crying.
I continued to cry and showed her the picture.
She began to cry and we cried together.
It was unlike any pain I had ever felt before.
She handed me your beloved blankie and left.
I snuggled with it and cried a little while more thinking,
Why did you have to leave my world?
I loved you with all my heart.
I cried with all my heart.
I love you Coraline.