My first story, so please don't be too harsh. This story is based off of something that's happening in my real life. It's kind of an emotional outlet, so once again, constructive criticism is appreciated. This is sort of a trial before I decide whether or not to continue posting.
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans
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Have you ever had a feeling of longing so strong that it takes over your entire body? You want so badly for someone to tell you that you are beautiful and that you are loved, but they seem to be too scared or disinterested to notice. He looks at me and smiles and I wonder if my heartbeat will ever return to normal. Will I have a heart attack just looking into his eyes? I hope not, but then again, I would die happy.
He is showing me how to play guitar, a hobby he recently picked up, and his fingers brush mine. Our eyes lock for a moment as he pulls his hand gently away. Why? Why do I feel this way for him? Why does his every glance, his every light touch send shivers up my spine and practically send me into cardiac arrest? How could I fall for someone like him? Oh Azar, I don't know what I'm going to do.
I'm in my room and my emotions are going haywire. We had another guitar lesson again, but this was different. It seemed like we had broken some unseen barrier. He's normally so shy and reserved when we spend time alone together. This time, though, it was different. You see, we had been talking about going to a concert, but I told them I refused to leave the sanctity and silence of my room for hours on end to listen to people try to burst your eardrums with loud bass and even louder guitars. That afternoon, in our lessons, he told me that he wouldn't go unless I went. That stupid grin of his! Since when has it had the power to leave me like a puddle of goo in my seat? I agreed to go, but he never showed up. Why? A better question, why did it hurt so badly? Get it together, girl, he doesn't mean that much to you. He's a friend, a good one, but nothing more. Why, though? Why can't we be more than just good friends? Star seems to think we can. She tells me that he has been acting strangely whenever my name comes up in conversation. He gets this strange far-away look in his eyes and then a goofy smile spreads across his face. What does that mean? Does it mean anything at all?
Here he goes again, talking and flirting with Terra. I don't care that their friends, but why does he flirt so much if he likes me like Star said he does? He smiles at me again and that stupid fang is visible above his lip. Why do I love that stupid fang, that stupid grin, that stupid Beastboy! Here he comes again. I wish that for once I could here him say...
"I love you, Raven."
As his arms snake around my waist and his lips slowly lower to meet mine, my only thought is, 'Well that was unexpected.'