Innocence

Hey people , this is actually a personal narrative that I wrote for english class. It's from Yuki's pov and it's set before he tells Shuichi that he killed someone. Anyway, if the details are sparce it's because I don't really know exactly what happen except that Eiri killed Yuki and Eiri was raped, so anything that's not exactly like the manga is well... different so deal!

Disclaimer: If you really think I own Murakami-sensei's work you must have hit your head on a wall one too many times! Therefore go hit your head on a wall once more to see if you can get your good sence back! JK (Just kidding) On the other hand I REALLY DON'T own Gravitation so don't sue!

Warning: If you hadn't guessed yet there will be mentions of shounen ai, strongly implied rape language and murder if this dosen't suit your taste well then why don't you leave?

Well, I guess that's allI have ta say! start reading the fic now!

Japanese words translated at the end.

Shuichi was to innocent for his own good. Someday that pink haired baka will regret being so trusting. Like, I do. Yes, I was so naive.

I was a little otoko in Big New York City. Everything was so strange, different and kind of scary in comparison to my quiet suburban lidfe and I clung to sensei like a drowning person will to a raft. How foolish could I get? I was pursuing my dream sensei at my side and I couldn't imagine a better life. How could I have bought sensei's lie? Was I so stupid? I guess, I was.

That night, I was going to confess my love to him. But, he got home late.Drunk. His breath smelled like alcohol and he was smoking a cigarette. He was laughing at a drunkard joke when he came in with people I had never seen before.

His greeting was strange and I knew something was wrong. I had never seen him this drunk before." Do you love me Eiri-kun" he asked. Something in the way hesaid that made me nervouse, I was afraid but I told him the truth. This was sensei, nothing could go wrong, ne?

"So you love me..." he half whispeared to himself with a strange smile on his face"Then you won't mind what I have planned ne? Because... you love me... ne" He continued.

Then the men who were with sensei appraoched me."Now,now this dosaen't come for free! Pay Eiri-kun for his... services..." Yuki, my sensei, said. So they threw a ten dollar bill at me, laughing as hey ripped my clothes off.

I fainted long before they finished marking my body. But I remeber them laughing as they left, a few hours later, thanking Yuki for the good time theyhad. Yuki was laughing too. Just that broke me. More then the strangers. Yuki's laugh at my tendollar experience broke me. I felt like a cheap paper doll.

I don't know how I got the gun. And I don't know how I managed to shoot Yki, my sensei, the person I trusted the most. "Did you have fun krei otoko I hope you remember me fondly in Hell" I remeber him whispering in my ear before he died. Perhaps he tried to shoot me and with some unknown reservoire of strength and will too shoot I grabbed the gun and shot him.

But, I don't remember. All I know is I woke up a week later and Yuki was dead; a shot threw the heart. After, I went throught therapy sessions where a psychologist (I wonder where she got her diploma. In a cereal box?) attempted to 'help' me (get in my pants) and then I became a famouse novelit known under the name Yuki Eiri. Ironical... isn't it?

I wonder what that pink haired gaki would think if he knew. Would he leave if he knew his 'lover' was a cold blooded assassin? Poor baka, someday the world's going to hurt him and I won't be there to help, because, I'm already dead. Like Yuki-sensei in his grave.

So my reviewers how was that? I hope that Yuki wasn't too OOC But really I think that's how Yuki would react personally. Anyways, I hoep that you enjoyed it ! And if you did why don't ya review it's always nice to know you're appreciated!

anyway ciao,

MyuMyu-chan

Japanese/English lexicon

baka: idiot, stupid ect...

otoko: boy, male, ect...

sensei: teacher (Yuki-sensei: Professor(Teacher, Mr) Yuki)

Kun: suffix used between close friends, mostly for guys.

ne: right? no? ect...

Krie: pretty or beautiful (kirei otoko: pretty boy)

gaki: brat