I'm sitting alone, reflecting on the recent events that had changed- and ended my life.

I died helping others.

My father said he is proud of me.

My mind wanders to the finale moments of my life.

I can't believe it, Coin is actually allowing me to be a paramedic.

I'm only 13 but she said I was ready. I didn't exactly protest, I was itching to get out of district 13. The place isn't exactly a ray of sunshine, plus I would be doing what I love most. As a little girl, I would observe my mother as she helped the sick and injured, the whole time I would think to myself

"One day I'll be a doctor, just like mommy"

And now I have my chance.

I regret my choice, but I also don't.

Some of those children made it out alive, others I know did not, but now I understand, my death was not in vain. If I saved just one life that day, I had completely succeeded in my job.

But I will miss certain things in my old life, buttercup snuggling up next to me, purring softly. My mother, always encouraging me to try my hardest, and that one day all my hopes and dreams of becoming a doctor would come true. My sister katniss, she probably blames herself, I don't want her to think that way none of this was her fault. She will be grieving, they all will, but I know one day when their time comes, we will meet again.

I look to my right, the afterlife is so beautiful. If I look into the distance I can see Finnick, he's sitting on the beach looking forward, deep in thought. He will miss Annie, as I'm sure she will miss him too.

On my left I can see the town, lined with shops that have no price on their products. Cinna has his own line of clothes, he says his inspiration is the flame, fire, Mockingjay and a certain girl on fire. But where I am now has to be one of the most beautiful and sumptuous landscapes I have ever seen. The trees look as if they can touch the sky, the sun dances along the river, reflecting its light. There is movement in the trees, singing and laughter, I know who it is, Rue.

She's flying through the trees, without a care in the world, singing her little heart out. Everyone may seem as if they have moved on, but we are waiting, waiting on the rest of our loved ones to join us. We won't have to wait long says my father, they'll be with us before you know it.

I know he is right, in order for them to move on so must I, but until they join us in this life,

I primrose Everdeen, shall be waiting up on heavens boulevard.