Chapter 1
I had always denied that I like him but my mum knew, I couldn't hide it from her. 'Melissa you can't hide your feelings forever' she was lecturing me on it and I was so tired of it 'mum I have for about six years!' I protested, since I was twelve I had liked him but we were just friends and I knew that it was all we would ever be. 'sweetie why didn't you tell me!' it was only as I was in my mid teen years that she had noticed, I couldn't put all my energy in it, and I was getting my grades tomorrow! Grrr life is stress full. Let me explain, you know the famous band Connect 3? Yeah well me and Nate are cousins and so I got to know them. We all used to hang out when we were little and stuff. But Nate and Shane were best friends and Jason and me are best friends. I never fitted in with girls, I only had boys as friends they didn't give me dirty looks. I was slimly built, dark brown hair that gently waved and I had almost black eyes. I had a heart shaped face and absolutely hated anything girly. Strange yeah? I was 18 now, Jase was 19, Shane was 18 and Nate was 17. Technically I was about a week older than Shane and wouldn't let him forget it. I smiled, and my phone vibrated in my pocket. The first thing Jase had bought with all his new money was an iPhone for me and him so we could video chat. I pulled my phone out of my pocket wanna see a movie? It was Jase yeah sure I texted back 'who you talking to?' my mum asked 'mum! Private!' I said and angled my phone away from her but she grabbed it 'you going out I take it' she stated 'mum you don't even know how to use a phone so give it back before you break it' I said taking my phone back. 'I know how to use a phone…ish' she said and I rolled my eyes
It struck me, what would I wear. I dashed to my wardrobe and looked in. I pulled out a white vest top, a baggy short cut grey jumper that hung off one shoulder and a pair of light grey skinny jeans that had a chain attached from the front to the back pocket that hung loosely. I grabbed my mink ankle boots and looked at the outfit, it would do. 'I didn't know you had half that stuff' my mum commented and I laughed lightly 'Jase buys we lots of stuff mum and it makes him happy when I were it, he knows what I like better than I do' I smiled and she looked at me and tilted her head 'now, details-' she started and I held my hand up in a stop motion (I) 'mum I need to change, privately' I added and she walked out my room I locked my door, I hated dressing up but if I had to I would do it without interruptions. I put my clothes on and brushed my hair, getting frustrated when the loose ringlets that occasionally appeared naturally in my hair would brush straight. I gave up on that and just pulled a little from the front back and clipped it down. I only even wore three bracelets, one leather one that said angel in training on it another that was a Pandora thin gold cuff bracelet (present from Jase0 that had about 8 or 10 beads on it and a gel RAF bracelet that was red, blue and white to support my dad who had died while serving the RAF. I hated make-up but I decided a bit of expensive mascara wouldn't hurt. I only applied it on the edge lashes as the were the longest (yes my eyelashes are different lengths on my top lid). I looked at my self and sighed, I looked normal. I had perfect skin, genuine Spanish eyes, full rosy lips but it didn't fit together, it was annoying.
I got up and shoved my purse in my pocket along with my iPhone. I knew Jase wouldn't let me pay but I still brought it anyway. I sat on my bed fidgeting nervously. When I was little I sang a lot but I can't remember exactly why but I stopped singing, composing, playing (piano & guitar) even humming. I just couldn't. but I was going to camp rock this summer and I was determined to get over my fear and just do it, ish. I don't really think I'll get that far I would have legged it before that. 'MELISSA DOOR!' my mum called and I smiled, I never asked my mum if she was born with the name Dee or if she changed it.
I don't know how I got brown hair my mum has naturally strawberry blond hair and my dad blond hair, I should have been ginger right? Nope, brunet.
I bounded down the stairs and opened the door, my mum was trying to watch inconspicuously but it wasn't working 'Melissaaaa!' Jase bounded through the door and engulfed her in a hug bear hug, I patted him on the back 'Jase-difficult-y-breath-ing' I stuttered and he pulled back 'missed you' they had been on tour for two months they should have been another two weeks but Shane's bad boy acts made them come home early, I couldn't say I minded personally…well I should my cousin just lost lots of money from ending the tour early, never mind. He smiled warmly at me and I hugged him round the neck, 'missed you to' I informed him and he wrapped his arm over my shoulders when I stood my his side, he saw it as a friendly, casual gesture. Me on the other hand was nearly hyperventilating, nearly. My mum walked in 'nice to see you Jase, I see you more than my niece' she laughed lightly and I blushed this is exactly why I didn't tell her things! Well I didn't tell her she sort of guessed from me crying from missing Jase more than my cousin…but still!
'so where you guys going?' my mum asked despite the fact that she had read my text. 'I'm taking my favourite person to a movie' Jase said cheerily, he could be a little absent minded at times but I was just so sweet to me and everyone else found it annoying, I didn't like everyone else much, there I go all defensive again! Ugh I did this when a girl I thought he was dating held his hand, turned out she was a second cousin or something, but they were related and I had nearly had a nervous breakdown! 'ok make sure-' mum started '-she's back before nine' Jase finished with a smile, my mouth hanged open, 'and you know that how?' I said and he shrugged 'standard time the bring a girl back right? Well that's what my daddies book said' I laughed once I had gone to his house and he had shown me the book he had to read at the age of 10 about how to be a gentleman, he had ignored most of it, he became a pop star but he still acted like a gentlemen around me which I found sweet. 'c'mon then, we want to be first in unless you want to get mobbed' I joked and he nodded seriously 'yeah don't want that, ugh horrible vicious girls' he muttered and I raised an eyebrow 'I'm a girl!' I stated he smiled but looked confused 'no you're my young lady' he said tapping the tip of my nose, I smiled I liked the sound of my but he saw me as a little sister probably or just a mate, but I liked our friendship, I had to pretend to be his girlfriend on one of our outings for ice-cream so that this reporter would believe that he wasn't dating some weirdo who was a ex-celebrity who was now on drugs. I nudged his side he knew it was gratitude and that I was a little embarrassed I preferred to be one of the guys not be treated as a girl In the group, it worked at school because it was cool for guys to have a girl as a friend but it wasn't cool for a girl to have boys as friends so I was an outcast. I sighed and he looked at me then crouched down in front of me and smiled, it was one of our jokes that I was short 5ft something and he was like a giant next to me, so he crouched down to make me happy. He saw my smiled and he didn't push anything, I really, really missed him. 'BMW or limo?' he asked and I smiled 'BMW' he smiled at my choice and grabbed my hand, leading me out to the car like a little kid wanting to show his mum something. 'blue!' I said and he smiled, Jase preferred red to blue but recently he shared my same taste in everything 'yay!' I said clapping my hands excitedly and jumping up and down like normal girls would do if they were about to spend the day with the Jason Black but no, I decided to react that way over a car 'when you gunna get your licence?' he asked as we got in the car. 'me in a car is not good' I said I felt myself blush and I knew his stare was on me. The car had stopped and he turned his body towards me 'Melissa?' he asked and I felt my heart rate quicken 'um yeah Jase?' I asked uneasily he smiled as I finally met his eyes, he lent in a hugged me tightly around the waist 'I'm gunna miss you' his voice cracked and I felt my eyes water. He felt my body shudder as of my sobs and wiped my tears 'don't cry' he said softly and I pulled away it would be hard enough without close proximity. He gave me a questioning glance, and then nodded 'you won't miss me as much, its ok if you have a new best friend you know' he thought that? I leapt over and hugged him 'don't ever think that, I will always miss you and I will never find a better friend' I attempted to sound stern but just sounded weak. Little did he know I like him a lot more than a friend. I sighed my mum hadn't approved of me liking Jason he was one month of being three years older than me, big age gap to my parents especially at my age. He hugged me tight and I knew my heart rate was quickening.
We had pulled apart and drove to the cinema, we had bought our tickets and sat down with Nachos and a big bag of pick'n'mix. The movie wasn't that scary but I knew Jase, he liked chick flicks. He quickly grabbed my arm and buried his face in my shoulder. I patted his back, 'you ok?' I asked and I felt him nod, in many ways Jason is the oldest one in our group but he acted like the youngest, he understood little and always was easily tricked and absentminded as he was an easy target, that's where I got protective. The film finished and we got up, my arm linked with his, to anyone else we would look like a couple but we weren't (to my disappointment) I just hopped there weren't any paparazzi anywhere. My hopes were answered, god liked me today, I smiled.
'hey look' Jase said pointing at a dress shop, 'oh no-no! no!' I said as he dragged me into it 'let me buy you stuff!' he said and started looking at some of the dresses 'I don't even need a dress!' I protested 'ahh but you do if you plan on still coming to my birthday party' he said and I smiled 'that's still three weeks away' I said quietly admitting defeat. 'c'mon look this ones pretty' he said handing me a teal blue ruffled dress with a delicately decorated bodice, (picture on profile J its pretty so have a look at it) it was ok until I noticed the price 'no Jase you are not, I repeat are NOT spending that amount of money on me' I said folding my arms and he gave me the puppy dog eyes, 'stop it!' I whined knowing I couldn't help but give in.
We had tried on various dresses (to my dismay, I might add) and Jase said he liked them all and he couldn't decide 'well do decide otherwise we're not getting any' I said in a motherly tone, an assistant at the store came round the corner 'do you have a problem Mr. Black?' oh she better not be flirting with my Jase! 'no everythings fine, and I thought you were only meant to come over when I asked…Melissa were the movie lying?' he asked and I smiled and walked over to him 'no, the movie were right, she just being-' I was about to say a stuck up cow but instead I finished 'helpful' Jase detected my sarcasm and smiled at her 'then why are you here?' he was so nice and cute that he didn't even realize what he had just said. The Assistant walked away flipping her hair over her shoulder and jutting her chin out, trying to keep her composure no doubt. 'c'mon choose already' I teased and he smiled 'but you look pretty in all of them!' I blushed furiously, he didn't seem to notice and if he did he was a good enough friend to save me the embarrassment of pointing it out.