When I saw some Guardians bring the bodies from the battle I hoped that at any moment they'd bring Dimitri. Lissa was right behind me when I burst in the clinic and looked around. Everywhere there were bodies covered with white sheets and the medical team was hovering around them.

"Rose, wait" Lissa said in the verse of tears, I ignored her. I knew I should feel bad because I just yelled at her but right now my priority was Dimitri. I needed to find him, at least his body. My chest felt like it was about to burst open just thinking about it. No, Dimitri couldn't be dead.

I saw him and even though there had been Strigoi all around him I just knew that he was going to be all right no matter what. Dimitri couldn't a Strigoi, he couldn't.

"Rose listen to me!" Lissa raised her voice and grabbed me by the arm making me face her. I suppressed the urge to make her let go. "We can't be here, they're going to notice and…"

I cut her off and harshly said, "I don't give a damn about it right now" I felt the tears starting to fall down my cheeks and turned away from her looking at the corpses.

Judging by their height and little locks of hair, I could tell none of them were Dimitri's. But I just couldn't get my hopes up, not yet because if I know that if I do the disappointed will hit me very hard.

A conversation in one of the rooms close to me caught my attention while I discarded another body.

"… Won't survive" Someone was saying and I heard some low whispers. Then I heard Alberta's voice. Her voice sounded almost emotional.

"Are you sure? He's one of our best Guardians and with all these deaths we can't afford to lose another one. Do whatever you have to do." best Guardians, the sentence repeated itself many times before I actually could put the pieces together. Dimitri. I was almost sure that it was Dimitri, who else could it be? Alberta wasn't the kind of person that would call anybody Best Guardian.

But the doctor said "Won't survive" What did he meant by that? If Dimitri was that badly injured then Lissa could heal him.

I took a deep breath and looked in the room.

There were 3 people there and a medical team. I recognized the red-haired woman as my Mother, Alberta and Kirova were also there.

When I looked over at the bed and saw my Russian God laying there broken and helpless I wanted to run to his side and comfort him. But I stopped my self, that wasn't a wise choice.

Control, I told my self and stepped back. I didn't want to interrupt them, I wanted to know more about his condition first.

Now was the moment to proof that I've actually learned something from Dimitri.

"Alberta he was very roughly injured. I'm not sure we can do much to help him. His lost a lot of blood" The doctor was saying and my heart skipped a beat.

"Do everything you can!" Kirova snarled.

I was so taken back that I almost fell to the floor. Kirova had never showed any emotion besides anger towards me and yet she never really lost control completely. She could put on a mask just like Dimitri and control herself. Maybe she actually liked Dimitri.

"We'll do everything we can." He reassured her and then I heard them approaching me.

I quickly hid behind the bed where one of the bodies was. They stopped right next to it and I held my breath waiting get caught, but they didn't. They stopped to talk among themselves.

"It's a miracle he survived. I still can't believe that he made it." Kirova said and I could almost see her shake her head incredulously.

"If he already made it till now I don't see why he shouldn't survive" My Mom said. "We need him more than ever, he might be young but is a very good Guardian." I had to bite the inside of my mouth to keep my self from snapping at her. How could she call Dimitri 'Very good'? He's the best.

"A very good one. But apparently reckless." Kirova said and I had to bit harder into my mouth. She had to be kidding. "He shouldn't have tried to take them all down himself. But it was very impressive how he pulled that Strigoi off of Rose. He took his mentor duties to a whole new level." If only she knew.

"If he makes it I'll have to thank him." My Mother said. "I'll never be able to thank him enough for it."

"Don't worry I'm sure that you'll be able to. He's young and strong, if he killed that many Strigoi then I'm sure he'll be able to survive." Alberta said sure of what she was saying. I hoped for my heart's sake that she was right because I'm sure that if he dies I'll never be able to forgive my self for letting him behind like I did.

They walked away, still talking about it and that's when I walked towards Dimitri's bed.

Doctor's were still hovering around him doing this and that, putting this and that into the tubes that were in his arms, but I couldn't have cared less about them. They were doing their job trying to save him, well so was I.

I sat next to him on the bed and held his hand, it was cold. His hand was almost the only thing not covered by bandages or with a cast. His arm wasn't bandaged but it was bruised and had some cuts, how many Strigoi attacked him to leave him like this? Minor injuries compared to the cast on his leg and the sling on his other arm. He was wearing a hospital gown and I could tell that he had broken ribs.

I looked up to see his bruised face. His eye was purple and his lower lip was a bit torn.

Just looking at the bite marks that were healing on his neck and arms I wanted to hunt down and kill the Strigoi that dared to do such a thing to my Dimitri. He had a good blow to his head and it was also bandaged but the worst was the sight of the tube that someone had stuck down his throat.

I didn't even realize that I had been crying till a nurse put his hand on my shoulder and asked me if I was alright. I wanted to look at her in the eyes with my most scary stare to make her want to regret asking that question. How could I be ok seeing Dimitri like this? But I didn't do anything. I regained control of my emotions and tried to put on a mask like Dimitri would do in this case.

"Yes, I'm fine" She looked at me and I saw her doubting whether I should stay here or not but she shrugged and turned around to go. I stopped her. "Wait!" I said and I turned around.

"Yes?" She narrowed her eyes at me but I let it go.

"Is he… going to be alright?" I asked and my voice trembled. She took pit on me.

"We're not sure." She said frankly. "But we're hoping that he will be. Right now is hard to tell …" I cut her off.

"Hard to tell?" I asked shocked. He must have been pretty bad injured to not be able to wake up. Poor Dimitri and it was my entire fault.

"Sadly yes, but with luck he'll recover." I choked in a sob and put my free hand over my mouth. I wasn't going to break down like that in front of a completely stranger. "Are you his sister?" she asked and I turned to see her.

She must have realized that she was getting into pretty dangerous waters because she left the room after checking on Dimitri's monitor.

Doctors kept coming in and out every five minutes but I was only focused on Dimitri's face. I wanted so badly to hug him and tell him that everything was going to be all right but didn't dare afraid that I might hurt him.

I leaned in close to his ear and whispered, "I love you so much, comrade" Then kissed his lips softly and left the room trying to hold the tears that wanted to keep flowing. I just had to keep holding them till I could be in a private place where nobody will question me.

I walked out of the clinic and headed towards Lissa's room. If I ask her maybe she'll heal Dimitri. She can't say no because I'll ask her my self.

I knocked on her door and waited. I heard hushed murmurs and then Christian opened the door.

"Rose" He said and stepped aside to let me in. I walked in silence towards Lissa on the couch. Her eyes were puffy from all the crying and her make up smeared around her eyes. Looking at her like that I felt guilty for snapping at her earlier. But I needed to make sure Dimitri was alive. I couldn't just wait for someone to deliver the news.

I sat next to her on the couch and she put her arms around me.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to treat you like that" I said.

"Don't worry it was my fault. You needed to see that Guardian Belikov was fine, I understand now." She stopped crying and looked up at me. "Is he…" I nodded.

"He's still unconscious and they don't know if he'll wake up" I said trying to put on the Guardian mask but it didn't work because my voice quivered. Lissa gasped and Christian put a hand on my shoulder.

"But… he's a Damphir. He can't… he…"

"He's also part human." I said.

"You're right." Lissa looked down at her hands on her lap. She was on the edge because when Christian moved around the room he accidentally knock something to the floor. Lissa jumped.

"I'm sorry Liss." He said. Liss nodded and took my hands in hers.

"Rose I'm going to ask you something and I want you to answer me with the truth." I nodded because I was going to tell her eventually. She was obviously going to ask about Dimitri and me. If she's going to know then she'll have to heal him, right?

"Is there…" She took a deep breath. "Is there anything between you and Guardian Belikov?" When I nodded I saw the look of hurt cross her eyes. She was hurt because I didn't tell her even though she's my best friend. But she shouldn't feel like that, Dimitri and I promised that we wouldn't tell anybody and a promise like that just couldn't be broken.

"Please don't tell anybody, at least wait till Graduation." I said and she nodded. "I want to ask you a favor."

"Of course, but you'll have to tell me everything later you know?" She half smiled and I did too.

"Lissa I know that this is the most selfish thing I've ever asked for but I need you to heal Dimitri. I heard the Doctors talk and they said that he might not survive. Please Liss, do it for me and for him." I looked up to see her face and she had tears running down her cheeks. That wasn't a good sign at all.

"So you just came here to use her healing?" Christian asked from the other couch. He was mad.

"Of course not! I came her to apologize." I looked at Lissa.

"I… I can't Rose. I'm sorry, I just can't. If I do it then they'll ask me to heal the others and I just can't do that" I stood up and look down at her.

"I've never asked you to do anything for me in my entire life, nothing this serious and when I do you refuse. Thank you so much." I said and stormed out of the room.

Christian said something but I wasn't listening anymore. I let the numbness take over my body and I walked back to the dorms. Once inside I went to bed and curled up into a ball. I was afraid of falling asleep because Dimitri could die but I was so tired that I fell asleep sometime later.