Katniss tried to reassure me I'd be fine, but I was still so scared. She told me there was a really low chance I'd be picked. But the idea of the Reaping scared me so much. Even if it wasn't me, what if it was one of my friends? I don't have a lot of friends, but I love the ones I do have so much. I didn't want to go, but I knew the Peacekeepers would hurt me if I tried to skip. Katniss told me it would be ok.
Then I heard my name. At first I was stunned. I almost didn't believe it. I was so scared. I had never been so scared to hear my own name before. I had never been so scared of anything before. The closest I came was when they told me Daddy died. I was so scared when I heard that. It was made worse when I saw Mom that day. She had always been strong. Then she wasn't. Katniss tried to explain to me it wasn't my fault Mom wasn't acting strong anymore. At first I didn't believe it, but the way Katniss took care of me showed me I was still worth it.
I tried to blink it all away. It had to be another nightmare, I thought. I always had nightmares about Reaping. Usually it was about Katniss being picked. But no. This time I was picked. And this time it was real. The Peacekeepers pulled me out of the crowd. I walked toward the stage. I saw the people staring at me. It looked like they were sad for me, but I couldn't tell. I tried to smile. Katniss said to smile if I was picked. I don't think I managed it.
Then I heard Katniss scream "I volunteer! I volunteer as tribute!" I didn't know how to feel then. A small part of me was relieved. I didn't have to play in the Games anymore. But then I realized my sister would. How would I make it if she didn't come home from the Games? She was all I had after Daddy died. I had Mom, but Mom was so different. I still loved Mom, but I didn't know how safe I would be with her. I can't lose Katniss. I also felt loved more than I ever had. Katniss was willing to put herself in the Games for me. Which makes me even sadder. I might lose the only person who loves me that much.