It wasn't right.

"Kaname! What has gotten into you! Why did you kill Thomas!"

"...Mine. You are mine Lily and I won't let other men have you." I was confused on the last part he said and he confused me even more when he kept dragged me to the cabin. We usually went star gazing in it but why drag me here? And then it hit me when he opened the bedroom door. I started to kick and scream for help but we were 50 miles from my home no one could hear us. The walls of our castle were made to block out sound. My eyes watered and when Kaname threw me on the bed and locked the door, he began taking off his coat then shirt. I tried to run for the door but he pushed me back on the bed and climbed on top of me.

"Kaname please don't do this! I want to save myself for my destined mat-"

"I am your destined mate Lily. We were made for each other you just have to open your eyes and see."

"No! Please let me go!"

"Why...Why do you continue to reject my love for you?!"

"Because I don't love you in that way!"

That sent him over the edge.

Kaname pulled off my coat then tore my dress off me I wanted to cover myself but he wouldn't let me. He used one hand to hold my wrist together and the other to touch my body.

"Your body is so beautiful Lily; So soft, so smooth, so pure..." Kaname's hand went from breast to my entrance making me freeze, I begged him to stop but he slipped two of his fingers in me. I gasped and my back arched as he moved them in and out of me, I began to bleed a little and he smiled.

"So you are a virgin."

"Please Kaname...stop." More tears fell from my eyes and he kissed them away.

"I'm sorry Lily, but I love you too much to let anyone else have you."

I didn't notice he took off his pants until he forced himself into me, destroying my innocence. He held my head close to his chest and wrapped his arm around my waist and started thrusting slowly in me he groaned softly on top of me, but all I could feel was pain. I kept whimpering and crying under him, he kissed me as his paced increased I screamed into the kiss, but Kaname just ignored me and moved his roughly in me. I clutched onto the sheets as my body shook violently and I shamefully released; Kaname kept thrusting for what felt like hours until he finally released his seed into me causing me to scream as I came undone once again. I laid there and cried. I felt so dirty, violated, hurt, and betrayed! Why would he do this to me?! I wanted my first to be with the boy with the beautiful lilac eyes.

Kaname hugged me; I cried more because he made me feel so gross.

"Lily please stop crying. You should be happy we're finally mates." My teary eyes widen and I touched my neck to feel his bite mark. It wouldn't take long before his crest appears on my skin binding us as mates. When did he even bite me?!

"Y-You mon-monster!"

Slap!

I felt a painful sting on my face and my eyes widened when I realized Kaname just hit me. He then pinned me down and entered roughly in me again. I screamed and cried more; he didn't stop until morning when he was finally asleep I quietly got out of the bed and fell to the floor fortunately for me Kaname didn't wake up. I sniffled and wiped my face then got up again, I grabbed my coat and ran out the cabin. I wandered a little crying because of the pain in between my legs and in my heart was to much for me to take; I stopped at a tree and tried my hardest not to cry even more, but I couldn't.

"I wish I never met him! Why didn't I listen to Christopher?! How could I be so stupid?!"

"...You should have just said it..." I jumped when hearing my former friend's voice.

"Even if it was a lie! You should have just said you loved me! If only you loved me Lily this would have never happened!"

"You did this to me...because I rejected you?!"

"Yes! I poured my heart out to you Lily every moment I spent with you were the best moments of my life and I all wanted was to spend eternity with you at my side! What was wrong with me?! Was I not good enough for you?! "

My eyes watered; God what have I done? I made my friend like this! But I love the boy I saw in my dreams, he's my destined mate I gave up being with Ori for him I don't love Kaname in that way and I'm not going to force myself to.

"...I'm sorry Kaname, but I don't love in that way especially after what you did to me!"

"...So that's how it's going to be." I stared at him in confusion until Kaname grabbed my hair and started dragging me somewhere. I screamed for him to let me go, but he mumbling something I couldn't make out. We arrived at the castle and everyone was shocked to see Kaname dragging me by my hair and to see me with nothing but my coat, and fluids sliding down my legs. Christopher was the first to react.

"What the hell do you think your doing to Lily?!"

"Mama!

"Making her pay...for tearing up my heart."

I was slowly rocking back and forth with my mother's corspe in my arms; silent tears fell from eyes. They are gone. My own family...is gone forever. I'll never be able to see my mothers smile, hear my fathers laughter, make fun of Christopher or feel Jacob's comfort. I won't even be able to spend time with Thomas! I...I'm alone...

"Lily...I missed you and Vladimir so much...why would you do something so cruel to me? Why did you take Vladimir away from me?! We are suppose to be a family! He needs me! I'm his father you are my wife both of you belong to me!"

He fell to his knees crying and hugged my waist; I flinched a little fearing he would hit me, his eyes showed remorse and he burried his face into my stomach. I squirmed a little his touches were revolting and opened up old wounds. Kaname chuckled lightly.

"Look what I have done. I changed the only woman I ever loved so dearly into a cold blooded killer. What use to be the embodiment of purity and warmth with a beautiful ray of light is now so cold and bitter. Not to mention our son thinks he is a digusting mistake and hates himself. I did all of this. But..."

Kaname got up and kissed me softly; I didn't return it and he gave me a sad smile. "I'm going to fix all of that with you at my side."

I don't remember this happening and my little Vladimir hates himself?

This isn't apart of my memories, so what is thi-No it can't be I don't want this to happen! Zero! Zero, Zero! Help!

"Amor!"

"Mama?!"

"Stay back Vladimir! Amor! I'm here open your eyes!" My eyes open and I saw beautiful lilac eyes stare back at me in concern. I sat up slowly and Vladimir ran to me hugging me tightly. I smiled at my sweet little Vladimir then kissed his head. Zero sighed. "I think you need to talk to Alucard about these nightmares Amor."

"I don't know it's probably nothing."

"No, Papa is right Mama." I gave Vladimir a eskimo kiss and told him to get ready for school. He hesitated but did as I told. I turned to Zero and he looked worried. "Amor..."

"Alright. Alright I'll go see Alucard." His face finally relaxed and I giggled. "You should get ready for school as well Zero." He groaned then pinned me down onto the bed kissing my neck and letting his hand wander up my night gown; I bit my lip in excitement. "I rather stay here with you and-"

"Ah! My virgin eyes! What are you two doing?!" We both saw Vladimir at the door covering his eyes and our faces heated up; Zero cleared his throat.

"Vladimir I think it's about time we had the talk." Zero said as he was getting off of me and I frowned.

"The talk? What's that?" Aww! My baby is to innocent for that!

"Zero don't you think he's too young?"

"No. Besides he's around 9 thousand years old I think he's old enough." Zero walked Vladimir into the living room of our small apartment we just moved into from Oakville just last month. Toga didn't appreciate my teaching methods for Zero, even if I had a masters degree. Well I can't blame him the only way I was ever going to get Zero to focus was by 'persuading'. I guess it good that he's going back to True Cross to finish high school, but how I miss our little charming family house and to make matters worse I have to send Thomas away so he can learn to control himself and doesn't bites Zero along with Vladimir anymore.

"What is sex?" My eyes widened when Vladimir utter those words. I quickly ran to him covering his ears. Zero chuckled at my obsession to keep my son pure.

"Mama what is sex?"

"Come on Amor your going to have to explain this to him at some point."

"Yeah not today. Both of you school now and oh! Say bye to Thomas before you go." I went into my second baby boy's room, Thomas, he's so cute like his brother! Thomas was trying to stand up but fell down in his crib, I smile and picked him up carrying into the living room. Vladimir smiled brightly and kissed Thomas's nose and Thomas giggled.

"Bye Thomas! I'll see you soon fratele mai mic(little brother)." Vladimir hugged Thomas then rode his new skateboard to school. Zero kissed Thomas then frowned.

"Do we really have to send him to Alucard?"

"I'm afraid so, Thomas teething has gotten out of control he bit Cross just last week when he came to visit."

Zero sighed and hugged Thomas one last time. "Wait how come he never bit you?"

"Because I'm his mommy! Isn't that right my little cutie pie you wouldn't bite mommy now would you." Thomas cuddled into me and Zero chuckled then kissed me deeply before leaving. I washed Thomas and got him dress then placed him in his crib. I then took a quick shower and as I was getting out I heard the phone ring.

"Hello?"

"Yes. Hello is this Lily Viață?" My body stiffened. "Who wants to know?"

"The Romanian Alpha Bank we just wanted you to know that we appreciate you reopening your family's account here at our bank your majesty."

"Your majesty? Wait I think there has been some mistake-"

Before I could finish my sentence the banker hung up." What the hell was that all about? Hmph. Probably some joke, but how did he know my real name? I shrugged it off and got dress. I grabbed Thomas and his bag. I hailed a cab and the entire way to the airport the cab driver kept staring into the mirror to look at me in pity. I rolled my eyes, Man must think I'm some young mother who is running back to my parents; Ugh! This is the problem with having the features of a eighteen year old and having a child. I practically threw the money at the man and went into the airport to the coffee place Alucard told me to meet him in. Instantly I attracted the attention of the men in the place even when they saw Thomas in my arms the pigs kept drooling and their thoughts were just plain disgusting. Luckily I saw Seras and Alucard in the corner I smiled as I went to their table, but for some reason Seras looked sad and Alucard looked very serious.

"Hi you two what's up with the long faces?"

"Lily sit down we need to talk." I sat down and worry began to take over my body.

"What is it you guys?"

"You did receive a call form the Alpha Bank?"

"Uh Yes-"

"I'm going to be straight with Lily alright? All of your families accounts in that bank and a few here has been reopened meaning you are very wealthy and you own all of the land and houses your parents owned 800 years ago."

"I-I don't understand. How is that even possible?"

"Kaname Kuran"

"What?"

"Kuran killed the old vampire and has taken control."

"You mean-"

"Yes he's now the leader of our species."

"But why did he reopened my family's accounts."

"Why else you stolen his heart again and he wants to be the man you can run to when in danger. Not to mention you are my descendant meaning you hold power in vampire world. In other words your the queen of the vampire nation."

I just sat there with Thomas in my lap completely stunned by what he said. Me...a Queen...? No...No. I don't want this!

"I'm sorry Lily but you have it."

"I won't except it. Besides you destroyed his memories of me once you can do it again. Right?"

Alucard sighed and grabbed my hand. "I'm sorry my dear but that was a lie I only told you that because I wanted to help you in some way. You seemed so...helpless when you came to me."

Tears began fall from my face and Seras hugged me. "So his memories were never destroyed?"

" Memories can not be destroyed my dear flower you can only build a wall to block them. And once that wall is torn down that little obsessed will come after you and Vladimir only this time there is nothing stopping him."

Didn't I say it wasn't over~