I had never really thought much about life and death until i was no longer a candidate for it.
Do I regret what happened? Do I wish that I could go back and decide to stay with Mum and Phil? Maybe I should have gone to lunch with Mike instead of following him out of the room. There's so many things I could have done at the time, but it doesn't matter now. It's too late to regret things. I forgave him a long time ago.
Maybe I should have gone to lunch with Mike like he wanted me to...
His 'sister' found us. She saw what was going to happen. She was too late, yet just in time. I didn't die.
Maybe she should of let him kill me instead.
I forgave her too.
I couldn't go back the way i was. So we all left Forks. Not at the same time, of course, that would have been too suspicious.
The search for me went on for a few years. Charlie thinks I'm dead by now.I'm all but forgotten.
How long ago was it? 20 years, maybe more... I've stopped counting.
He's still paying for that one mistake, that one lapse in self control, I can see it when he looks at me. That doesn't happen much though. The only reason he stays with me all the time I think is the fact that I'm still just a baby.
He's still mad at me for following him. I hear him yelling to Carlsile about it. It's not his fault for 'taking what was offered' apparently.
I think it's because I smell really good. But that's just my opinion.
That and my entire 'family' still can't stand being around me for too long without losing it a bit. Those eyes start to go dark.
I guess I'm just lucky that I'm already a Vampire.