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Jac's P.O.V
As I lay in the middle of my bed scrunched up into a ball crying my eyes out, all I can think of is all that I have now lost. Jonny. Why did I push him away? All he wanted to do was look after me and care for me but I just pushed and pushed until he broke. It's a wonder it took so long. Never did I believe that after Sean that he would take me back but he did, he was the bigger person and now I have ruined it for good there is absolutely no way back. There can't be, I even slapped him for goodness sake.
I was starting to believe that I could do the unthinkable, be a wife and a mother, but that can't happen now can it. I have lost Jonny and the chances of conceiving now are minimal. I shiver as I look over at the clock, midnight. I suppose I should get used to being alone, how could anyone want to be with me? A damaged, heartless bitch that only cares about her career. But that's just it, how can I be anyone of those if I'm ultimately broken over a man? A man I love so much that I would do anything for quit my job, even move to the moon for. It never hurt as much when Joseph left and I am starting to see the difference between the two. I chose my career over Joseph and I wouldn't change that decision as I know deep down that it was for the best. For Jonny, my career now doesn't matter; I would follow him to the ends of the Earth and know it was the right decision.
Why am I so stupid, why didn't I just tell him about the endometriosis and let him do what he wanted? Look after me, care for me, and help me. But I didn't. I didn't and now I am paying the price. I don't see the point now in continuing, I'm living a pointless life with nothing to look forward to. I don't even want to come home, an empty flat with nothing inside. It's dead, just like the way that I am feeling now. Scrunching up into an either tighter ball, I try to sleep. I try to forget.
Jonny's P.O.V
Looking at the clock, I see its midnight. A new day. I sigh and roll onto my back and stare up at the ceiling. I have no idea how I am supposed to feel. I mean I believed that she was the one, hard to believe but it's true. I wanted the whole lot, a wife and children but I can't see that happening now. How am I supposed to get over the one person that I truly love? Was I too hard on her? I don't know.
She is just such an extraordinary person, so beautiful and talented with so many secrets. She was hiding something, I know she was. Whether it was for my own good I don't know but whatever it was she didn't trust me enough to tell me. Does she love me as much as I love her? So many questions which need answers. Looking back at the clock I wonder whether she is awake now, in as much anguish as me or in a dreamless sleep not a care in the world. Sighing I rise from my bed and search for my clothes, I'm going to see her.
Arriving at the front of her flats, I look up towards her window and notice no lights on. Is she in? I have no idea but it's time to find out. I use the spare key she gave me for emergencies and enter her flat quietly. Shrugging off my coat I make my way towards her bedroom and I am shocked at what I see. The strong, confident Jacqueline Naylor is on her bed, curled up into a ball with the lamp light casting a soft glow onto her body. But what shocks me the most is the tear stained, red face of the woman I love. I knew I made the wrong decision when I walked away, I knew it. Look at her, she is so small, and all I want to do is carry her around in my arms forever.
I remove my shoes along with my shirt and jeans and gently peel the quilt away from her body. Climbing in behind her I scoop her fragile self into my waiting arms and hold her close. So close. She curls into me like a moth to a flame, her subconscious recognizing me. I kiss each tear stained cheek in turn before softly kissing her lips. Pulling away and closing my eyes, I am certain of three things. In the morning there will be questions, in the morning there will be tears, but I know for a fact that in the morning I will have the love of my life in my arms and I plan to get through whatever has happened because I want her in my arms for the rest of my life.
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