Neither Twilight or an of the character's belong to me they all belong to Stephenie Mayer

Ok so here is chapter 1 of Bella's mess let me know what you think and any improvements that I can make would be useful thanks.

Chapter 1

Edward has left me I must have done something wrong otherwise he would not have left me right?

But then what is it that I have done wrong I just can't think... If it had not been for Jacob then I don't think I could have got through these past couple of months. He's my best friend and has always been there for me the best he could. But still I can't just forget about Edward can I he has been my boyfriend and I love him, but I think I might be starting to fall for Jacob as well.

I still feel the same way about Edward and I don't love Jacob as much as I love Edward but I just keep wondering that if I followed my feelings towards Jacob whilst it is obvious that Edward is not coming back then why shouldn't I have a relationship with him. He has seen me at my worst.

Perhaps then he would start talking to me again. But then I would have to actually get to talk to him before I could show him how I really feel about him, but how?

I shook my head and suddenly realised that Charlie had been talking to me.

"Bella are you listening to me?" I shrugged my shoulders sheepishly at him and mumbled a sorry to him before he started again.

"I said why don't you call Jacob, surely he'll be at home by now, and you can't keep moping around here for the rest of your life."

"but what if he won't talk to me"

" I don't want you to go back to how you were when he left the town, it was Jacob who brought you back to me and I am not going to let him take you away again."

I shrugged and headed towards the phone and dialled Jacobs's number. I was not expecting an answer or for Billy to answer the phone and give me some excuse why Jacob could not talk to me at that moment again. Instead I was surprised when it was Jacob himself who answered the phone. He sounded as if he had been laughing and there was a lot of shouting in the background telling me that he had company.

"Hello"

"Jacob please don't hang up please"

"Bells what's wrong" I realised that he must have picked up on the frantic pitch of my voice thinking that something was wrong he sounded worries. I took a couple of breaths to get myself and my emotions under control.

"I just really need to talk to you what have I done to upset you? Why do you keep avoiding me? And why does this keep happening to me "I asked him all at once not giving him the chance to tell me to leave him alone. The last question I said in barely a whisper that I thought Jacob would not be able to hear. It was more of a thought than a question that I had had whilst trying to get some answers out of Jacob otherwise I would not have said anything about it at all.

"Bells I'm sorry for hurting you and for breaking my promise but I can't be around you anymore, if I could then I would not have hurt you or leaving you feeling abandoned again especially since you still haven't got over the last person... who could not have had a good reason leave you. If thing were different then there is no way I would have broken my promise to you." His voice had been starting to crack a little with emotion showing that he was telling the truth, and when he had spoke about Edward he had sounded angry. But what did he mean if things were different.

"Is it because you don't think that I feel the same way as you, Is it because you don't think I love you?" I almost shouted through the phone at him. I had not meant to say that but I was just so confused and felt so lonely that I could not stand to hear him rejecting me. Jacob started talking again his voice guarded and obviously choosing his words very carefully.

"Bella what are you saying?"

"You heard me."

"Yes but I want to know what you meant by what you said"

"I...I..." I paused for a moment to think about what I had said and to think what to say in response when I gasped suddenly realising what is was that I had actually said. "Jacob I'm sorry you were not supposed to know. I didn't mean to say that. Oh god." I slid down the wall not able to think of anything smarter to get me out of the hole that I had started digging myself into. And I did the only thing that I could have done to make the situation worse. I started to cry. I tried my best to hide that fact from Jacob and to keep quiet but obviously Jacob had heard.

"Bella don't cry its ok don't cry why did you think you had to hide your feelings from me. You know how I feel about you, It's alright Bella everything is going to be ok."

"How Jacob? How is it going to be ok? ...and no I don't know how you feel about me I thought I did but I don't anymore."

"Bells I've got to go. Bye" and with that the phone line went dead.

"I just want you Jacob." I sobbed, to the phone I was holding into my hand.

"Guess things never went too well with Jacob then." Charlie had walked into the hall.

"What gave you that idea" I asked him as I ran upstairs.

After 10 minutes I became aware that Charlie was talking on the phone to somebody. And he seemed to be getting angry.

"What do you mean it's not your fault? My daughter is upstairs in tears after a conversation with you on the phone. I trusted you to look after her not to break her heart again just as it was starting to mend. You know what a mess she was in before and I can see her changing back that way in front of my eyes Jacob."...

"You had better make things right do you hear me or I will be holding you personally responsible." And with that I heard the phone being slammed down.